Chapter 4-Girl Meets Pregnant?
It's been two weeks since my first date with Josh and everything is perfect between us, since it's the summer holidays we've spent every day with each other. Like I said it's perfect or at least it was, I've been feeling off for the past couple of days I've been throwing up every single morning this week and I've been super moody and tired lately, probably because I've been throwing up a lot so it's annoying. This day was no different, I woke up and ran to the bathroom to throw up and I'm also late for my period, it's been six weeks since my last one but I mean that could just be from stress though right? Anyway I've pushed that to the back of my mind, right now Josh and I are in my apartment making sundaes, my parents have gone upstate for the weekend so it's just us, I am sat on the counter eating whipped cream whilst Josh makes the sundaes.
"Would you stop" Josh laughs "We'll run out of whipped cream before I even put it on the sundae" Josh says taking it off me making me pout and he pecks my lips making me smile.
"Fine I'll just eat the Nutella instead" I say grabbing the jar and he rolls his eyes "Pass me a cherry" I say and he grabs one before feeding it to me, I eat the cherry and then pull him in for a kiss, he wraps his arms around my waist pulling me to him as I wrap my legs around his waist and he picks me up off the counter, we laugh as we accidentally start knocking food onto the floor making a mess whilst we make out.
"I can't believe how much mess we just made" Josh says putting me down on the floor it's true, chocolate and nuts everywhere and cherries over the floor as well.
"We? You were the one carrying me" I tell him.
"It was you who knocked it all over though" Josh says and I roll my eyes.
"Can we eat the sundaes now?" I ask walking over to them plopping the cherries on top of them, Josh and I eat our sundaes whilst watching a movie and decide to just clean up later.
"That was a lot of chocolate...I need a nap" Josh says making me laugh "Come cuddle" Josh says lying down on the couch and he pulls me with him as I squeal and we lay down together on the couch me lied on top of him, I look at him and kiss him passionately.
"Joshie my back hurts" I whine and he moves his hands under my top running his hands up and down my back in a soothing way, my back has been killing me and I have no idea why. We stay like this for a while but then Josh has to leave because he promised to babysit Auggie, I would have helped but Auggie wants to spend time alone with Josh since he is his uncle so I get it. Crap! I run to the bathroom and throw up again, I swear to god! I brush my teeth and change into comfy clothes because I feel awful so it makes me feel better, I decide to look on the internet and type in my symptoms...oh crap!
"Maya calm down" Riley says as I pace back and forth for the millionth time that night, calm down! Calm down! I looked online and it said I could be pregnant, I mean it makes sense I'm late for my period "We don't know anything yet until that timer dings" Riley says, I told her and Smackle to come over and bring tests and Smackle told me to take three and now we have to wait two minutes.
"Guys" I sigh sitting on the bed with them "What if I am?" I ask them "I'm seventeen I'm still a child myself, and my parents will kill me and Josh will hate me" I say.
"Maya just relax, you might not be and I mean even if you are we'll be here for you" Smackle says and I smile.
Ring Ring! Ring Ring! Ring Ring!
The timer on my phone starts to ring and the two minutes is up, the girls walk over to my bathroom to get the three tests and they walk back and they sit next to me and show me.
Positive!
Positive!
Positive!
"I'm pregnant" I say "This can't be happening I'm seventeen" I say.
"Maya this is happening, I'm so sorry" Riley says hugging me and I wrap my arms around her and cry...I'm pregnant! I'm having a baby, everyone is going to hate me including Josh! After a few hours of crying the girls and I are sat on my bed talking and eating ice cream, I'm too young to have a baby sure I have money from working but that isn't enough to take care of a baby, I have school and am supposed to be applying for college, and Josh what 19 year old wants a pregnant girlfriend and a baby?
"I need more ice cream" I say as I finish the tub and they look at me "What? I'm pregnant and close to crying again I'm aloud to eat a lot of ice cream" I say and they hand me another tub.
"What are you going to do? Are you going to tell your parents?" Riley asks.
"Not until they get back so that gives me a few days to live" I tell them "How am I going to tell Josh? What if he leaves me? My mom got pregnant at this age and my dad walked out on her years later what happens if Josh does the same or just dumps me and the baby before it even happens" I say.
"There are other ways Maya I mean there is abortion and giving it up for adoption" Smackle says.
"I can't do that, adoption it's horrible for a child and abortion is really dangerous" I tell them "What if Josh leaves me?" I ask them "No teenage guy wants a pregnant girlfriend and a baby on the way" I tell them.
"Maya this is Josh we're talking about, he cares about you and I know my uncle he'd never do that" Riley says.
"So what are you going to do?" Smackle asks...what am I going to do?
The next morning was the same I threw up again! I hardly slept last night I was up crying most of the night and the girls tried to calm me down but it's not that easy, after brushing my teeth to get the taste of sick out of my mouth I change into a dark red crop top, a black leather zip up dress that goes down to my mid-thigh and the zip stops at my waist, the dress is tight so it hugs my body and a pair of black suede knee high heel boots. My hair is straight and I have on black mascara, black eyeliner, my eyebrows, concealer, bronzer, highlighter and dark red matte lipstick. Finishing off with a pair of big golden hoop earrings, my gold necklace with my name on and a few bracelets.
"Are you feeling any better?" Riley asks as I walk out of the bathroom and I shake my head as she gives me a small smile.
"I don't think I can go bowling today, Josh will be there and me knowing I'm pregnant and the fact he might leave me..." I begin.
"Maya bowling will take your mind off it and you can't talk to him whilst everyone is there anyway" Smackle says and I nod.
"Ok let's go" I tell them and we head off to the bowling ally, we walk inside and the guys have already got a lane for us so we walk over to them "Hey" I say sitting next to Josh.
"Hey beautiful" Josh says kissing my cheek and wrapping his arm round my waist "I called you last night you didn't answer is everything ok?" Josh asks.
"Oh yeah I just fell asleep" I tell him and he nods "Too much chocolate from that sundae" I say and he chuckles.
"We're bowling in teams" Lucas says "And the two losing teams buy all the food for everyone and the winning team don't buy anything" Lucas says.
"Deal because I'm the bowling Queen" I say "Get your money out losers" I say and we start bowling. After a few rounds of bowling Josh and I won meaning the other two couples had to buy all the food and we didn't have to buy any, I had fun but I just I really need to tell Josh I'm just scared of what he'll say. After eating Josh and I walk back to my place to watch movies, we walk inside and I head to the kitchen to get a drink.
"Do you want to tell me what's wrong?" Josh asks closing the door.
"What are you talking about?" I ask Josh.
"Maya I know when something is bothering you, you barely spoke on the way here and and you tensed up every time I touched you at bowling what's wrong?" Josh sighs it's now or never, I walk over taking his hand and we walk to the couch and sit down, I sit sideways next to Josh and he places his hand on my thigh stroking it "Hey" Josh says stroking my cheek as I look at him.
"Josh" I whisper, "Please don't get mad" I tell him "I didn't mean for it to happen" I say tears falling from my eyes.
"Maya" Josh whispers pulling me in for a hug as I cry into his shoulder "What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything" Josh says and I pull back to look at him.
"I'm pregnant" I tell Josh and his eyes widen.
"Pregnant?" Josh asks and I nod "Are you sure?" Josh asks.
"Yeah I'm sure I took three tests and they all said positive, I found out yesterday after you left" I tell him more tears falling "I'm sorry" I whisper, he wraps me in his arms for a hug as I start bawling my eyes out. It takes a while for me to calm down and even then the tears are still falling, right now we're not saying anything we're just sat down on the couch together and it's scaring me that he's being quiet "Josh please say something" I whisper and he looks at me "Are you mad?" I ask him.
"It's not your fault Maya you didn't mean to get pregnant, it's my fault too we should have been way more careful" Josh says and I nod.
"I'm really scared Josh" I say.
"I know you are so am I" Josh sighs leaning back on the couch "I can't believe how irresponsible we were" Josh shakes his head.
"My parents are going to hate me" I say, "Do you hate me?" I ask him.
"Maya I could never hate you, it's not your fault" Josh says "I just...I just need some time to think" Josh says standing up running his hand through his hair "I should go" Josh says no no no! He's leaving...
"Josh please don't leave" I whisper.
"I just need to clear my head ok?" Josh says turning to me as I let more tears fall "Think some things through" He says "I'll see you later" Josh says leaning down to kiss my cheek and he heads to the door and leaves, he left, I knew he would this has ruined everything! I break down in tears once he leaves and they keep coming, now what am I going to do?