Raph didn't seem to notice his older brother trailing him. He never looked back to Leo, he just kept walking and wouldn't stop.
When they came to a man hole, Raph stopped dead in his tracks. Leo stopped a little further behind his brother.
"What do you want Leo?" Raph asked sounding irritated again.
Leo remembered, Raph could sense him most of the time. He and Raph were evenly matched with most things, which was why even Leo questioned their father's decision of making him leader. Leo wasn't ready to speak, but he spoke without realizing it, "I just want to talk."
Raph turned to glare at him. "What is there is nothing to talk about, he chose you and that's that." He was mad, but much calmer about everything.
Leo was surprised by how calm Raph was, "Yes there is, I want you to be okay with everything." He pauses, "I don't want you…to hate me." Leo says as he looks to the floor.
Raph stop glaring at Leo and his stare softens a little, "You think I hate you Leo?" He stares at his older brother for a moment, but continues, "You're so stupid Leo. I don't hate you."
Leo looks up, "But you were angry before, you…you attacked me Raph." He glares at Raph a little, with a confused look on his face.
"I know I did, I was mad." Raph replies. It was his turn to look to the floor. When he looks back up, he looks at Leo's wounded arm, "How's your arm?" He asked.
Leo looks at his arm, then back to his brother, "Its fine."
Raph nods his head a little.
"Can I ask you why you go topside every other night?" Leo asked.
Raph looks at his brother for a moment, then sighs, "It's the only thing I know what to do when I get mad. I go out to look for purple dragons, to take my anger my anger out on them, instead of any of you." Raph replies with an apologetic look on his face.
"Yeah well, apparently it didn't work for you a few hours ago when we had that fight." Leo said.
Raph looks down again, "I know Leo, and I'm sorry. I've just been a lot angrier lately, because I've noticed some things, with you being leader." Raph says, and he looks up to his brother.
"What things?" Leo asked. Has he been making the wrong choices? No, he couldn't have, he knows what's best for his brothers, for his family.
Raph growls a little, and turned away from Leo, "Never mind, it doesn't matter." He put his hand on ladder to go topside, but a hand on his shoulder stops him.
"Please Raph, I want to understand what bothers you so much. I can't fix the problem, if you don't tell me what the problem is."
Raph turns around to face Leo, but doesn't say anything.
Leo takes his hand off of Raph's shoulder, "Raph, what have I done to make you angry?"
Raph glares at the ground, then looks to Leo, "You make decisions, and you're team leader, I get it. You know, the least you could do, is let us help you."
Leo looks at his brother like he was punched in the face…again. Raph was right, Leo has been deciding everything on his on without even listening to any of his brothers. He's never done that before, "you're right Raph, I don't know why I've been doing things alone, but you're right."
Raph widened his eyes little, "I'm shocked Leo, I figured you would deny it."
They stand in silence for a moment, then Raph speaks again, "So, you know what to do about everything, and that we have no idea what we're doing?"
"No!" Leo protested, "I've never even thought that." How could Raph think, that Leo thinks so low of his brothers?
"Then what has been your problem lately? You've been deciding everything on your own." Raph relaxes his face to a look of concern. "You don't have to do everything all by yourself Leo."
Leo looks down, "I know Raph. I think the reason I do that is because, I'm just trying to get used to being a leader, and making all the decisions for this family…without Master Splinter."
"Leo, I told you, you're not alone here, we can help too." Raph said, and put his hand on Leo's shoulder. "All I ask is that you let us help you." He pauses. "Weather you need it or not, we will help."
Leo looks at his brother, "I want you to be okay with me being leader, and I don't want Master Splinter to leave. It will happen someday, but I'm…afraid." Leo turns away from Raph to hide his eyes that started to water.
Raph felt like an ass, he never thought that Leo might be scared to take on leader without Master Splinter. "Leo, I'm sorry." He said.
Leo turned back around. Stunned to hear what he had just heard, he let a tear escape without realizing. Was Leo hearing right? Did Raph just apologize? "For what?" Leo asked with a semi shaky voice.
Raph sighs a little, "I didn't realize how selfish I was being. I mean, I still wish I was chosen for leader, but I can see why now." He looks down to the floor. "I'm not ready to be leader, not if my emotions get the best of me." He sighs again, and looks back up. "I'm jealous of you Leo. I don't know how you do it, you never seem to let your emotions out. I just wish I could do the same."
"That's not true Raph. My emotions do get in the way, but I just push them aside to make the right decision." He pauses. "It's the same with Master Splinter, he pushes his emotions away to do what's right and not what's selfish."
Raph looks down again, "I never realized that Leo."
Leo laughs a little, "Did you think, that since we are leaders, that we have to be emotionless?"
Raph looks up at Leo, "I didn't think that Leo, I know you still have emotions. I'm not dumb you know."
"I know that Raph, I didn't say you were dumb. I'm just trying to get you to understand. Emotions are a good thing to have when it comes to being a leader. It helps you make the right decisions. If you didn't have an ounce of emotion, you wouldn't care if you made the wrong decision, which wouldn't make a great leader." He pauses to think, "You would make a great leader Raph. You're determined to protect your family, as well as the innocent you don't know, you're brave, and you never give up." Leo says and smiles at Raph.
Raph looks to the floor, "I guess it's my anger that stops me from being a good leader."
Leo stares at his brother with a sad look on his face, "No, it's okay to get angry Raph. Although I've got to say, no offense, you should lighten up a little. You know, I won't be around forever." He pauses. "There's the possibility that I would check out early, and who will be around to take over?"
Raph looks up at Leo surprised, "Don't say that Leo, you…you better stick around for a long time."
Leo smiles, "We don't have control over that Raph, when it's time, it's time."
Raph smiles back, "Not if I have anything to say about it."
They both stand there in awkward silence, and a few seconds later, Leo speaks up.
"So, you still going topside, or what?"
Raph thinks a moment and looks up to the man hole cover, then looks at Leo, "Nah, let's go back home and steal the remote from Mikey."
Leo chuckles, "I'm up for that."
They start down the way they came from.
Raph puts his arm around Leo's neck, "And hey. I'm dying first."
Leo looks to Raph and laughs, "No way."
Raph takes his arm off Leo's shoulders, and takes off running towards home, "Race you for it."
Leo smiles, "Hey!" Then he runs after his little brother.
This is the last chapter guys, enjoy!
I've started on the next story yesterday. Just a heads up, it could take a bit to get the next one up.
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