Title: Misplaced Trust

Author: Bella Katelyn

Rating: M

Summary: When Edward left after Bella's birthday party, her world fell apart. Little did she know just how much her life would change. Whilst grieving for her lost love, she's also betrayed by her best friend Jacob Black. Follow me through this story as Bella experiences loss, peace and finally acceptance when reunited with her Edward.

Disclaimer: Twilight and its characters belong to author Stephanie Meyer, and are brought to the fandom by Summit Entertainment. I'm just borrowing the characters for my own enjoyment and hopefully yours. With that said I hope you enjoy this story as much as I'm going to enjoy writing it.

Chapter Four

Moving Forward

BPOV

For the second night in a row, I managed to sleep through the night without any nightmares, despite our encounter with Jacob at the station. Knowing that he was unable to leave the reservation had a lot to do with it, but mainly it was because I was back in the arms of the man I would always love. Just when I thought that I was going to sleep right up until it was time to get up for school, my stomach had other ideas as it started to churn uncomfortably again. Taking deep breaths trying to not throw up all over the bed clothes. Suddenly the duvet covers disappeared as Edward helped me to the bathroom. Holding onto Edward's hand tightly I kept breathing through my mouth.

Letting go of Edward's hand I bolted for the toilet instantly feeling Edward's hands on my waist. Kneeling down I leant over the porcelain god losing whatever I had left in my stomach. Resting my head against Edward's chest I closed my eyes trying to regain my composure. The temperature of Edward's skin felt lovely against my heated skin. Once my stomach had started to stand up, moving slowly to the sink, instantly brushing the vile taste out of my mouth.

"Feeling better?"

"No, I still feel nauseous. I'll be okay though; I'm not staying away from school. I need this."

"Alright as long as you're sure."

"I am. Like you said I'll have you by my side the entire day. Feeling sick is nothing it's just something that can't be helped. Can you make me eggs please?"

"Of course, angel. It's still early are you sure you don't want to go back to sleep?"

"Feel too sick to lie down again I'd rather just spend some time with you before we have to leave. Our baby boy is doing gymnastics again."

"Baby boy?"

"Mmm it's just a feeling I have. Do you think Carlisle will do a sonogram for me later?"

"I think he would love to. Do you want to get dressed now or later?"

"Later. I just want to curl up on the couch and eat. Eggs seem to stay down the most on a morning. Lunch should be interesting."

"If you need to leave just lower your shield and let me know."

"I will."

Taking hold of Edward's hand it wasn't long before we were downstairs and I had been led toward the living room. Smiling slightly I curled up on the couch resting my head back against the couch cushion pulling the blanket over my body. I'd always known that the Cullens never slept but to actually witness it with my own eyes was fascinating. Jasper and Emmett were playing video games again, Esme and Edward were making my breakfast, Alice seemed to be staring at me like she wanted to say something but didn't know whether she should and Carlisle was reading. I guessed that Rosalie must have been in her garage working on one of the cars.

"Alice just spit it out I know you want to ask me something."

"Oh Bella. I'm so sorry. If I hadn't insisted we have that stupid party none of this would have happened."

"Alice stop. You have nothing to apologise for. We all know how clumsy I am. All that matters is that we are all together now. Now I think I need some new clothes would you like to go shopping after school."

"Oh Bella you don't know how happy this makes me."

"I think I do. But just remember I'm nauseated all the time so don't go overboard."

"I promise."

Resting my hand over my stomach, I groaned feeling the now familiar rolling sensation in my stomach. Sitting up quickly I made a dash for the nearest bathroom, leaning over the porcelain god as I got sick for the second time that morning. After flushing the chain, I made my way back to the couch curling up again sipping on the water Alice handed me. Ten minutes later, Edward came into the living room with my breakfast. Suddenly I was really hungry despite my latest trip to the bathroom. Taking the plate from Edward I rested my head against his shoulder as soon as he sat down demolishing the eggs in a few minutes. Placing the plate on the coffee table I ducked my face into Edward's shoulder feeling embarrassed by them all seeing me that fast. I could feel Edward's cool hands on my belly gently rubbing it. I guessed instantly the baby was moving around as I received a kick in the kidney. Two hours later I was showered, dressed and ready for school.

First Day Back At Forks High

As Edward drove us to school, I tried to keep myself calm as I continued to feel sick. I could tell Edward was worried about me, but I knew if I didn't return to school now, and face the world again there was a good chance that I never would. Reaching over I took hold of Edward's free hand instantly calming down. My free hand was caressing my belly. Even with Edward driving slightly slower since I was expecting, we still managed to make it school in record time. Taking a deep breath, I braced myself for the day ahead. Just as I unclipped my seat belt, Edward already had the door open.

Taking hold of his hand I stepped out of the car handing him my backpack as my head instantly lay against his chest. My arms instinctively wrapped around his waist as the exhaustion started to catch up with me. Without saying a word I was in Edward's arms again, not that I was complaining, being in Edward's arms had become my new resting place. Thankfully I managed to keep my eyes open I just hoped the teachers wouldn't start being strict because right now being in Edward's embrace was the only thing keeping me from falling apart. Just when I thought we'd managed to get away with bumping into Lauren and Jessica I heard Lauren's nasal voice from behind us.

"Oh look Jess, Bella's back. She must have trapped Edward to get him to stay with her."

"Mmm she has gotten fat maybe now he'll see we are better for him."

"Do you want to repeat that statement? I don't know if you've noticed but my brother and sister are very much in love. She hasn't trapped him into being with her and if I or any other member of my family hear you bad mouthing her again you will start to regret the day you were born."

Glancing over Edward's shoulder I smiled seeing Rosalie getting back into her car with Emmett, the story was they were visiting for the holidays and had decided to stay an extra week or so. As the BMW started to disappear into the distance I lay my head back against Edward's chest as he walked us to our locker. Since we had the same classes we had both decided it would make more sense to share one than have separate. Unfortunately this meant that I had to be out of his arms. My hands clutched onto the back of his shirt.

"Ssh I'm here. I just need to get out the things we'll need."

"I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry for."

"Long as you're with me I'll be fine."

"I'll always be here baby."

"What lesson do we have first?"

"English. Mr Berty could be a problem."

"Never liked him. Just as well you have a photographic memory."

Rubbing my eyes again, I held onto Edward's hand tightly as we made our way to English, thankfully we managed to arrive before Lauren and Jessica. The minute I sat down baby girl started her gymnastics. My hand instantly rested on my swollen belly rubbing it gently. Letting out a deep breath my free hand linked together with Edward's as more and more students filled the class. Not long after Mr Berty arrived with a new reading list. Hopefully this time there would be books that I hadn't already read. Just as I was about to rest my head back against Edward's shoulder Mr Berty turned around and began handing out the reading lists. The minute he got to our table, it was obvious he was annoyed by our display of affection."

"Welcome back Mr Cullen. I take it your travels were not to your liking."

"No Mr Berty I couldn't be without my Bella."

"I see. Miss Swan do you have a reason why you've missed classes."

"I do but it's not something I want broadcasting."

"And why not. It looks like it's too late to hide it."

"Because it's no one else's business but mine. If I want to talk about it I will. Please stop."

"Mr Berty I think you should leave it. I can assure you Bella will not fall behind."

"Alright."

"And Mr Berty. As you can see with Bella's pregnancy she needs me more, that includes my touch, and it calms her and the baby. I'm sure you can understand."

"Of course."

Taking hold of Edward's hand again I breathed out feeling my stomach do flips as the baby moved around again. As Mr Berty started to walk away my head rested against Edward's shoulder again as we started to work on the first assignment we'd been given. Thankfully it was a topic that interested me. Wuthering Heights. I could see Edward grimace and tried hard not to laugh. I would never understand what he hated about this book. It was definitely one of my favourites.

During the lesson, I could feel Lauren and Jessica's eyes on me the entire time; it was starting to make me uncomfortable as I tried to concentrate on my work. Why couldn't they just concentrate on Mike and Tyler and leave Edward alone. All they cared about was being popular, they didn't care about how gentle and loving Edward was, how much he cared about the little things to make me feel comfortable. Nor did they see the brilliance of his mind, all they saw was the money, the popularity.

"Bella, love don't worry about them, if they have any sense they'll remember Rosalie's warning and leave us alone. I can hear inside their minds, if they try anything, not to mention Alice will see it."

"Yea I guess you're right. I hate feeling like this."

"It's normal, compared to most cases; you're handling things extremely well. Not many rape victims could sit in a classroom filled with boys and be calm."

"I might be calm on the outside but I'm nervous on the inside."

"How are you feeling?"

"Nauseous. I wish I had thought to bring some water."

"Not long left now and then we can get you something."

"Sounds good. I'm not looking forward to eating though."

"Alice already thought of that, she's asked that there be a healthy option at lunch. I believe Principal Greene approved it."

"Have I said recently how much I loved your sister recently?"

"No but I'm sure she knows anyways."

"Your right. She does. Perks of being a psychic."

"True, true."

"Edward?"

"Yes, angel."

"I think I'm going to be sick again."

Covering my mouth quickly I swallowed the water that was starting to enter my mouth. Scraping the chair back, making my way quickly to the bathroom, bolting into the small cubicle, kneeling over the porcelain god as I lost my breakfast. Resting my head against the side cubicle I heard the door open unsure who would follow me in here. I knew it wouldn't be Edward, he's fast but he couldn't get past Mr Berty. Taking deep breaths I groaned as I leant over the basin again getting sick again.

"Bella you okay?"

"I will be. Just give me a minute. Please tell me you have some water?"

"Of course I do. Psychic remember."

"Of course. Don't suppose you know when this will end?"

"Sorry sweetie that's one question I don't know the answer to."

Once I'd managed to calm my breathing and my stomach had settled slightly, I made my way over to Alice taking the bottle of water. Opening it, I took small sips relieved to have the vile taste out of my mouth. Turning toward my hyperactive sister I smiled slightly. I owed her everything, shopping for a few hours would be worth it, despite how I was feeling. Taking a few more sips of the water, I knew I had to get back to class. Moving away from Alice, I walked the short distance back to English class, where I slid back into my seat next to Edward. Resting my head against his shoulder again,

"What did Mr Berty say after I left?"

"Nothing, I'm sure he figured it out."

"So he's not angry then?"

"No, love."

"Can I sit on your lap when we're in the cafeteria?"

"Of course you never have to ask."

"Mr Cullen?"

"Yes Mr Berty."

"Would you like to finish early? You can finish the remainder of the lesson in the library."

"That would be good. Thank you."

"No need to thank me, just take good care of her."

"I will."

Moving off my seat again I started to gather up my belongings handing my backpack over to Edward once I'd managed to close the zipper. Taking hold of his hand I instantly relaxed the same way I always did whenever Edward's touch soothed me. Once we arrived at the library I couldn't wait to sit down, my feet were aching along with my back. Curling up on the comfortable chairs the library provided I felt comfortable for the first time since I'd woken up. Edward must have sensed my distress as his cold hands started to rub the bottom of my back in circular motions. The instant he started to rub my back I realised just how sore it really was.

"That feels good."

"How long has your back been hurting?"

"A while. I'm not sure those hard seats help any,"

"Maybe we can ask Principal Greene if there is a possibility of a softer chair."

"That sounds good. Maybe Carlisle should call him; after all he can work his doctor charm on him."

"Mm now that would be a good idea."

"He's very active today. I think all the new voices are keeping him entertained."

"I've noticed. Would you like me to rub the side of your belly when we have next period."

"I'd love you to. Can we finish the work later?"

"Of course we can."

I snuggled into Edward's arms as he rubbed my back, the soothing motions of his hand relaxing me completely. I didn't know how things were going to turn out when it came to Jacob and the pack, but for right now the only thing that mattered was keeping myself healthy and happy so I could look after our baby boy.

The Secret's Out

Ten minutes later, and Edward was gathering my lunch, thankfully the healthy option was something that I would eat even if I wasn't pregnant. After placing some things on a plate for himself (even though I would no doubt eat it) he paid for it before we started walking toward our new table, which consisted of our friends minus Lauren and Jessica. After Edward had gotten seated I immediately took my place on his lap resting my head against his chest as I started to eat slowly. I still felt nauseated but it wasn't as bad as it had been thanks to Alice bringing me the water.

I managed to eat about half of the food on my plate and Edward's before pushing the plate away. Gulping some of the water I felt Edward's hand gently stroking the side of my belly. From the corner of my eye, I saw Lauren and Jessica whispering like five year olds. I knew they were talking about me; they kept looking over every so often when they thought I wasn't looking. Laying my hand on Edward's chest where his silent heart lay I smiled slightly, eager to know what was going on in their minds. But at the same time unsure whether to ask. Before I could Lauren and Jessica walked over to us, fake smiles plastered on their faces as they tried for what seemed like the thousandth time to flirt with Edward.

"What's your problem Lauren seriously? I've never done anything to you to warrant the way you treat me."

"What did you do to me? I'll tell you what you did. You swanned in here a year ago, and in now time you have Edward falling at your feet. I'll say this for you; you have a good way of trapping people. He's probably too polite to say he doesn't want you anymore, he's only with you because you got knocked up."

"For your information Lauren Edward and I were always meant to be together, our hearts spoke to each other from the minute we looked across this very cafeteria at each other. I'm going to say this once and only once. He is MINE and you and your trampy friend can keep your filthy hands away from him. And if you must know, the baby isn't even his. But he's with me anyways. And no, I didn't cheat on him before you spout your lies, I was raped. Now leave me alone."

Burying my head into Edward's chest I let the tears fall, I hadn't wanted the whole school to know what Jacob had done to me, but Lauren's prying had taken that choice out of my hands. I didn't care that everyone was staring at us; I just needed Edward to hold me and take away the memories. I could feel his hand rubbing up and down my belly in soothing motions; I should have known my shift in mood would upset the baby. Taking deep breaths, I tried to calm myself down taking small sips of the water Edward handed me. Suddenly I heard Angela's voice, she was usually so calm and kind, yet Lauren's words had pushed her over the edge.

"Enough Lauren, it's time you left Bella alone, she's right, she's his and he is hers, and there isn't anything you can do about it. Ever since she arrived here you've bullied her and for what, pure jealousy that Edward found her more attractive than you. And now you made her reveal something that is quite clearly painful for her."

"She's a little-."

"Well, well, well. I see you didn't take the hint this morning when I told you to leave my brother and sister alone. Mm if you can't follow simple instructions maybe you need to be taught like a child. I warned you I'd be watching. Did you honestly think I'd not stick to my word?"

"You don't even come to school anymore how are you going to keep an eye on us."

"Easy, Emmett and I decided to transfer from Dartmouth to Washington University. I'll be able to study during school hours on my free periods."

"Rosalie?"

"Thank you. For everything."

"You're welcome. That's what sisters are for."

"See you when we get home."

"That we will."

Keeping my head buried in Edward's chest, I wished the whole day was over with. I was tired, my back ached and I didn't want to be in a class full of immature girls, whispering about me. Wrapping my hands around Edward's waist I focused on pushing my shield down from my mind, smiling when I'd managed to push it all the way back. Pulling my head out of Edward's chest I managed to eat the rest of my lunch before pushing the tray away. Taking a deep breath, I smiled feeling Edward's hand continuing to rub the side of my belly, as soon as his hand touched my skin the baby calmed down.

"Edward?"

"Bella? What is it angel."

"I'm tired. I'm aching and I'm starting to feel uncomfortable in general. Can we go home?"

"Of course we can. Come on, we'll have Carlisle write a note to give Principal Greene tomorrow."

"I love you."

"Love you too baby."

Rubbing my eyes, I grabbed the water bottle as Edward placed his hands under my butt, picking me up bridal style. My head gravitated to my new favourite resting place against his shoulder. As he walked to the front office, I grimaced seeing the look on Mrs Cope's face. I seriously wondered how Edward had managed to keep his cool with her for so long the way she looked at him. Just as we were about to leave the building she called him back. I sighed trying to keep my eyes open as Edward reluctantly turned around and walked over to the reception area.

"Where do you think you are going?"

"Home. Bella is not feeling well. I'm sure you remember who my father is."

"Yes, yes of course I do."

"Well then I'm sure you'll understand my father wants what is best for his future daughter in law. He told me personally if she gets tired or has any aches that we come home. During lunch she admitted she was hurting and tired, so I'm taking her home, if you have a problem with that then I'll get my father to write a note tomorrow."

"No, no it's fine."

"Thought you'd say that. Goodbye."

Five Minutes Later

By the time we arrived home, I was completely exhausted. And I still had to go shopping with Alice. I couldn't break my promise to her now and I was getting more and more uncomfortable in my regular clothes especially my pants and bras. Taking a breath out I moved my head against Edward's shoulder trying to get comfortable. From the corner of my eyes I could see Rosalie, Emmett, and Esme looking concerned. This was normal. Being tired was part of pregnancy; it was just one of the things to add to the list of changes I was going through. Once Edward had laid me on the couch he pulled my shoes off before covering me with the blanket.

Turning onto my side so I was facing the back of the couch, my eyes became heavy again, and this time instead of fighting the sleep I welcomed it. The next few days were going to be difficult especially when I had to face Jacob at the tribal meeting. I was terrified to face him yet at the same time I knew I had to. I slowly drifted off to sleep allowing the conversation to fade to the background.

EPOV

Resting my hand against the side of Bella's belly I watched her as she slept. This had always been one of my favourite experiences, to hear her dreams, the first few days after Alice and arrived in Alaska with Bella her dreams had been plagued with nightmares. Although since we'd been home and we were back in a familiar environment they seemed to have subsided a little. Turning my focus back toward Rosalie, Emmett, and Esme I smiled slightly, I knew they were worried about me, especially my reaction to Jacob when we were called down to LaPush to the tribal meeting. Truth be told I was scared of how I would react. I wanted to kill him for laying his filthy paws on my mate. And at the same time I didn't want to break the treaty.

"Edward I know what she's going through, and Emm knows what you're going through. Bottling it up won't help. She needs you to be strong; you can't do that if you're hiding how this is affecting you."

"I know. I just… …I'm scared to leave her alone. It's my fault, if I hadn't been so stupid and walked away, none of this would be happening, she wouldn't be suffering."

"Dude stop. You're going to go insane if you keep blaming yourself. Bella doesn't. All she needs is you. Despite everything you're the one she finds comfort from. She struggles to be close to us, even though she knows she won't be hurt by us, but with you. It's like nothing changed."

"I know you're right. How did you deal with it when you were going through it with Rose, I tried to block your thoughts out whenever you started to think about it all."

"Honestly, I waited for her to show me what she needed and when. There will be times when she may freak out, and you'll feel helpless, but so far she seems to be handling things. Just remember to be honest with her. She will appreciate you telling her how you feel instead of hiding it from her. That will only backfire."

All I could do was nod. I didn't know if I'd be able to trust my voice. Taking an unnecessary deep breath out I looked down at my sleeping angel. She looked so peaceful. I knew Emmett and Rosalie were right, we did need to talk; the longer it was put off the harder it would be to talk about. Kicking off my shoes I lay next to Bella on the couch wrapping my arms around her belly rubbing it gently as she slept. I could vaguely hear Rosalie, Esme and Emmett leaving us alone for which I was thankful for. Right now I just wanted to hold Bella close and protect her. Closing my eyes I pretended to sleep matching my breathing to match Bella's. The road was going to be a bumpy one, but in the end we'd make it through.