It had been a couple months and everything had been going good. I became really good friends with Carmen. I was getting good grades in class, and luckily I hadn't pissed anyone off yet. Well except for when I told Madison that I didn't want to join the cheer squad. Ashley and I had been inseparable until lately.

She wouldn't say a lot to me when she saw me. She wouldn't ever text me back. It's like she was avoiding me and I have no clue what I did. You'd think I would be able to get something out of her at lunch or fifth period but she would just say she was in a bad mood and didn't feel like talking. I was currently in fifth period and I was studying her features. She wouldn't even look at me. I decided that I had to figure out what was going on. I waited until after class was over before following her out.

"Hey Ash," I yelled, getting her attention as we walked out into the courtyard.

"Yeah Spence?" She wouldn't look me directly in the eye.

"Can we talk?" I asked with a bit of hope that she would say yes. I don't think I've ever felt so needy before.

She sighed before nodding and followed me to a table. "What's going on?" I asked after we sat there for a minute.

"What do you mean?" Really? You've been avoiding me for a week now and that's your response?

"You've been ignoring me the past week. I was just wondering if I did something wrong." I stated before looking down at my shoes. I could feel tears building up and I didn't want her to see. Since when am I a cry baby? Pull yourself together Spencer!

"I'm sorry. I got back together with Aiden." I looked up at her with confusion.

"So you have to ignore me?"

"It's not just that. He's just… really jealous of you. He thinks we are together."

I laugh at the stupidity of what she just said. I mean yeah I have had feelings for her but she doesn't know that. "And why in the hell would he possibly think that?"

"He just said we are together all of the time." I looked at her like she just told me pigs could fly. That's the fucking reason?

"Fine then you never have to talk to me again." I replied before turning to walk away.

"Spencer, wait!" She yelled at me causing me to look back at her.

"Fuck you." I seethed before continuing my walk to my brother's car.

Turns out my brother got tired of waiting for me and left. I walked home crying the entire way as I received apology texts from Ashley. I didn't reply to any of them.

As soon as I got home I rushed up to my room and locked my door so my parents didn't see me crying. I pulled out my cell and deleted all of Ashley's texts before deciding to text Carmen.

Anything going on tonight? She always liked to party on the weekends and I needed to feel numb.

Party at my house. You can stay the night. It was easier to get my mom to let me go out if I was staying the night somewhere.

I'll be there.

I don't think I've ever felt this abandoned before. We were only friends for a couple months and this is how I feel?

I'm fucked.

I wore a simple t shirt and jeans to the party. Hell if I was trying to impress somebody. I immediately pushed myself through the crowd of people, looking for booze as they swayed with the music that was currently playing. Ashley and Carmen weren't friends, so I knew she wouldn't be here. I found a bottle of vodka sitting on a table. It hadn't even been opened, stupid drunk people. I picked it up along with a shot glass before sitting on a couch. I contemplated doing a few shots. What the fuck am I thinking? Drinking isn't going to make me feel better. I sighed before placing the bottle on the table. I get up and decide to be a good friend and start picking up trash.

"Need a hand?" I looked up to see a pretty cute guy was talking to me.

"Sure." I replied with a smile. He was in one of my classes. David! That's right.

He began to help me pick up a couple cups but I could see him stumble quite a bit. He was pretty shitfaced.

"How bout we deal with this later? Wanna go out for a smoke?" I nodded my head before following him outside.

We leaned against the side of the house as we smoke a cigarette. The burn against my throat made me feel a little better.

"So you're in my computer class right?" I nod again without saying anything.

"That's pretty co—" He started to say but someone had cut him off when they yelled my name. I looked over to see Ashley and Aiden walking towards me. I felt my blood boil as I noticed his arm around her waist. I moved so that I was standing in front of David. I leaned against him so that my ass was against his crotch. He wrapped his arms around my waist in response.

"What do you want Ashley?" I asked as they walked closer to me.

"I just wanted to come check on you. I figured you were here." One thing I hated about her was she knew exactly how I was feeling at all times. She could read me so easily, whether I was happy, mad, or sad.

"I don't need you to check on me." I spat out. I could tell that one hurt her.

"Come on baby let's go inside." David said, before pulling me back towards the house. I flicked my cigarette towards her, causing it to land in front of her feet.

"Alright let's go." I replied as I still looked at Ashley.

She glanced at me one more time before walking back to her car with Aiden. Fuck her then.

It was getting pretty late and a lot of people had left. Carmen decided me and another friend would crash in her room and the rest could crash anywhere else.

"Can I sleep in there with you guys?" Uh oh. Did I mention I'm a virgin? And that I didn't plan on losing that anytime soon.

"Ummm sure." I replied as we walked into her room.

"Sleep on the floor with me." He replied sexily. As long as we just sleep! I laid down on the floor next to him and he pulled a blanket over us. Carmen and her friend Amy were laying down in her bed. I could start to feel David's hand running over my body. This is not going to be good. Maybe if I ignore him he'll stop. I felt a buzz come out of my back pocket. I pulled my phone out and I had a text from Carmen.

Be careful. We'll be right back.

Of course I will. I replied.

(Sorry but this next scene is hard for me to write so bear with me if I didn't do a good job. I already explained I've gone through certain stuff and this would be it. This part is the exact thing I went through including those texts and the sleeping arrangements.)

As soon as Carmen and Amy got out of bed and walked out, they shut the door. Fuck. Maybe it wasn't a good idea if they left. He automatically started running his hands all over me again. He dipped his hands in my pants and rubbed against my underwear. Now I'm not prude and I've done other stuff so I can go along with this. I moan as he runs his fingers hard before slipping them in my underwear and rubs against my folds. Fuck that feels good. I feel him grab my hand and he sticks it in his pants. He places my hand against his shaft so I begin to pump him. He groans a little as he slides a finger in me. Before I know it he's pulling my pants down just enough so he can rub his dick against my folds.

I tense up, causing him to notice. "Don't worry. We don't have to have sex. Just go along with it." I nod even though I know he can't see me in the dark. He continues to rub his dick against my clit. He keeps sliding it close to my hole and I can feel panic start to build up but then he pulls away. He pushes himself up so that he's on top of me. Now David plays football so he is definitely a big muscular guy. I kind of think he takes steroids. He begins to pull my pants off all the way which makes me freak out so I try to pull them back up.

"We're not going to have sex David." I stated so that he would know.

"Okay." He replied. He pulled them all the way down before he starts to slide it against my clit again. It was actually feeling good but before I knew it he slid it in me. I froze and tried to hit his chest but he didn't stop. He pumped in and out luckily not enough to pop my cherry before I could get my words out. "Stop!"

He groaned before pulling out. He continued to lean over me and all I could smell was the alcohol on his breath. The only thing I could feel was the tip of his dick sliding against my ass cheek, making me cringe. And the only thing I could see was the shadow of his body looking over me.

I had forced myself to sleep after that. When I woke up we went our separate ways. Well he hugged me when he left. Piece of shit. I told Carmen I was going to walk home so I quickly left. When I got home I immediately went to the shower and turned it on as hot as it would go. I got in and sat on my ass as the scolding hot water ran down my back. I sat there in a daze as tears fell from my eyes. That wasn't supposed to happen. Was it my fault for letting it go that far? I told him I didn't want to have sex. Why didn't he listen to me? I could faintly hear sobs and that's when I realized they were my own, and they were only getting louder.

Then came a knock at the door, but I didn't acknowledge it. "Spencer? Is everything okay?" It was my moms voice. I just continued to sob even harder. I guess I forgot to lock the door because the next thing I knew, the shower curtain was pulled back and my mom was turning the water off.

"Spencer! That water is burning hot and your back is bright red! What is wrong?" She wrapped a towel around me before pulling me out of the tub.

"I'm so sorry." I sobbed as I held on to her. Thankfully she wrapped the towel around me or this might be awkward later.

"Sorry for what?" She asked as she ran her fingers through my damp hair.

"I told him I didn't want to—he did it anyway." I could feel her body tense as I clung to her as my body trembled from how hard I was crying.

A moment later she wrapped her arms around me as tight as she could. "You were raped." It was more of a statement than a question.

"We're gonna get you through this honey." That was the plan.

EVERYONE:So yeah, that was it. My mom didn't find out that way. I was supposed to be going out of town and I was throwing up so much while I was at the airport and she asked if I was pregnant and I said I wasn't sure. I lost service on my phone so I ended up calling her on a payphone and it cost like 30 dollars. She made me fly back home after I told her what happened. I wasn't pregnant I just got a stomach virus. Thank god. Like I said it might be hard for you guys to read that since it's true but imagine trying to write it. It is a big part of this story so just keep it in mind.

Tbplrbear1: Thanks so much! I hope this chapter didn't disappoint too much. Don't worry the Ashley and Aiden won't last and I'll just give you a heads up they won't even be together next chapter. Thanks for the review and for taking interest in my story!