A/N: sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been hella busy with exams, my grandma's burial and being forced to spend time with my family.*rolls eyes* and a little bit of procrastinating. sorry. Now that I'm out of school for the summer, I've got more time to write. =) so here's chapter sorry for making you wait so long.
Chapter 4 - Ignorance is Bliss
Two weeks Later - Bella's POV
I've grown tired of watching Lauren all over Edward. It's really quite annoying. I still haven't gotten over him yet, and I don't think I'm going to anytime soon. I broke up with him, because I thought it was better for both of us. Now I'm not so sure about that. I honestly feel that I have no more reason for life anymore. I can't stand Lauren, she's a boyfriend-stealing whore, and the whole school knows it. She stole from me the most important person in my life. He was my reason for getting up in the morning to come to this hell(otherwise known as high school), my reason for breathing, my reason for existence. Sometimes I wonder why I don't just kill myself now and put me out of this misery.
So anyways, I've basically stopped talking to the Cullen's, except for Alice and Emmett. Rose and Jasper on the other hand, won't even look at me for a second, it's like I was never apart of their lives. I would've thought that by now Edward would've at least talked to me. I know he still likes me, it's quite obvious. I see the way he looks at me in biology - the only class I have with him and he's my lab partner. I find it very difficult to sleep at night without him. I have nightmares almost every night and I haven't had a descent nights sleep since then, it's horrible.
I'm back to sitting with Jessica, Mike and Tyler(Angela and Ben sat with me at the Cullen's table, so they moved back with me too). It seems that Jess is glad to have me back, rather than me being with Edward 24/7. She has definitely missed me. Mike was more reluctant to accept me back(unlike my first day at Forks High). I believe it's because he thinks I won't stay long, so he's not going to get too attached, not yet anyway. I can't be sure though, you never know with Mike Newton.
So Lauren took my spot at the Cullen's table. I'm glad to see that Alice and Emmett hate her just as much as I do, but it's horrible to see Rose and Jasper accept her more than they've ever accepted me. I think Rosalie was the first to accept her, I believe it's because she's just as shallow as her, if not more, if that's even possible. I guess you could say I loathe Lauren. I missed Alice and Emmett, but more than anything I missed Edward. As for Jasper, I only wish we could've been closer, but I understood how my blood tempted him and that it was harder for him than any of the other Cullen's because of his previous lifestyle. But I guess Lauren's blood isn't half as tempting to them as mine, so maybe this is for the best. Maybe not.
Edward was my safe harbor. Now that I don't have that anymore, I've decided to become more…independent, well I'm going to try at least. I don't know how well that will work out, but I suppose I'll find out soon enough. After all, it can't possibly be any worse than it already is. Or can it? The bell rang for next hour and I went to my locker to grab my books and stuff and went to class. The class I dreaded everyday, because it was the only class I had with him and of course he's my lab partner. For an hour everyday, I have to look at him and be reminded of how he hurt me.
I got to class before Edward and took my seat on the left side of the table. I zoned out staring at the wall, waiting for class to start. I was totally out of it, thinking about him and Lauren and how I reacted when he told me. The teacher had to repeat his question three times before I snapped out of it, just to go back to trying very hard to ignore Edward and not acknowledge his presence. I only snapped out of it because Edward touched me. He hasn't touched me since we broke up. I looked at him, starstruck,
Edward's POV
After lunch, I walked Lauren to her math class, as I always do. I gave her a hug and kissed hr forehead, then headed for Biology. I walked in the room and Bella was already at our table. She didn't look so good, I couldn't help but to worry about her. I went and sat in the seat next to Bella, seeing as she was my lab partner I had no choice, not that I wasn't okay with it. I tried to not look at her, but my curiosity got the best of me and I spared a glance at her. She was staring at the wall, she was definitely out of it. I looked back at the table, I didn't want to do something stupid and make her mad at me. Thankfully, Mr. Molina walked in and started today's lecture.
He asked the same question three times, each time directing it to Bella, but she didn't answer. She just kept staring into space, I touched her arm and she blinked a couple times and looked at me. I didn't know what to say, so I just pointed to the teacher who was waiting for a response.
"Oh, I'm sorry, what's the question?" she asked with a hint of embarrassment in her voice as she blushed that lovely shade of red that I missed so much.
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I met Lauren after her last class, Gym. It just so happens, that she has that class with Bella. I wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her close to me and we walked out to my car. I opened the door for her and closed it after she got in, before I got in the driver's side. I started the car and drove Lauren home. At first, it was silence, but I couldn't handle it, I was going to go insane.
"So how was your day?" I questioned, breaking the silence that was practically eating me alive.
"It was okay, except for gym, Bella is so clumsy, she was serving the ball and instead of hitting it over the net, she 'accidentally' hit's the person in front of her, who just so happened to be me. I think she did it on purpose because she's jealous." I let out a quiet laugh and she glared at me. "So, you think it's funny I got hit in the back of the head with a volleyball, do you?"
"I'm sorry, love, I'm not laughing at you. I know how Bella is and that sounds like something she would do, but not on purpose. She isn't like that, she's just uncoordinated." I assured her, but it still looked like she was slightly mad at me. One, for laughing at the wrong time and now because I was talking about Bella. I could tell she doesn't like that. "Alright, no more talk about Bella." I promised. That would be a hard promise to keep, she was on my mind most of the time. Good thing I was the one who could read her mind, if she could read my mind she would be furious.
A/N: so I'm trying to make my chapter's longer. I hope this was to your liking, if not, sorry. If you have any suggestions as to what could happen between Edward and Lauren or anything else, let me know. And I'm sorry I made you wait so long. I'm one of the biggest procrastinators you'll meet, but I'm gunna try to update more often. enough of my babbling, please review.. the more I get the more I'll be motivated to update sooner.