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I know you've suffered But I don't want you to hide It's cold and loveless I won't let you be denied Soothing I'll make you feel pure Trust me You can be sure I want to reconcile the violence in your heart I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask I want to exorcise the demons from your past I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Muse- Undisclosed Desires

Chapter 4

After the sleepover with the girls, I felt more confident in what I was feeling. It was still unknown and still very intimidating, but I wanted to step forward in my life. I couldn't keep my life on pause forever, just because of bad experiences. I had to put them in the past and keep them there. No matter how much Jacob wanted back into my life, I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of winning.

As if fate predicted it, the next day around noon I got a call from Edward.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey, Bella."

"Hi Edward. Don't you have class?" I asked, looking over to the clock. I didn't want him to miss anything on my account.

"I'm in between classes," he said. "I just wanted to ask you something."

"And what's that?"

"Are you free tomorrow night?" he asked.

I felt my face heat up, and I resisted the urge to jump up and down like an excited child. "Well I might have to check with my personal assistant, but I think I am," I joked. Well, mostly joked. I didn't have a personal assistant, but I did have a schedule that got a little hectic sometimes.

"Okay, great. I was hoping you would go to dinner with me," he said.

"I would love that."

We talked for a few more minutes, until he had to rush to his next class. As I hung up the phone, I could feel a stupid grin come onto my face. So much so, that my cheeks actually hurt.

When I skipped out of my room, I was glad to hear that Alice and Rosalie got asked out on dates as well. It was pretty cool that we were dating friends.

We all celebrated by going shopping and choosing something nice to wear. Through the years, I've actually discovered that I enjoy fashion. I've never had the creativity to make something on my own, but I definitely enjoyed other people's work. That's why I enjoyed being a model. It gave me a chance to really get up close with some designers and really appreciate their hard work. I loved to look into the designer's face and see how happy they were to show the world their work.

After perusing through stores, I decided to go with a deep blue peplum dress. Alice insisted that it accentuated my curves nicely, so I went with it. For shoes, I chose simple black heels by Steve Madden.

Alice decided on a champagne bandage dress with intricate straps in the front. Rose went with a stunning red dress that had a geometric design to it, and it hugged her body in a totally sinful way.

As I lay in bed later that night, I couldn't turn off my mind. I was filled with nervousness and excitement and other emotions I couldn't quite put a name on. I wanted to see Edward already. He had a way of calming me without even trying. He made me feel comfortable when I was near him. Not in a boring way, but in a way that made me feel safe and protected. Along with comfort, he also brought out the butterflies in my stomach. I never knew what all the romantic comedies, or what the books spoke about when the leading heroine described her giddiness at seeing her crush. Edward was so much more than a crush though, making my feelings much more intense.

The next day went by at a snails pace. The whole day, I looked at the clock, willing it to move faster. I nearly jumped when Edward texted me, confirming the time he'll be picking me up.

"Bella, " Alice sang, sticking her head into my room. "Jump into the shower, then come to my room. Rose and I will get you ready."

Fifteen minutes later, I sat in a comfortable chair as Alice dried my hair with expertise. She hummed as she switched to a curling iron and started working on the ends of my hair. Rose sat on a chair facing me and applied my makeup. She told me she was going for a 'sexy smoky bombshell look', whatever that means. In no time at all, they finished, and I went to my room to change.

I slipped into my simple but elegant blue peplum dress and slipped into my shoes. After changing, I looked at my reflection in my mirror and I smiled. If Alice and Rose ever decided to stop modeling, they could always go into hair and makeup. Alice curled the ends of my hair, so that it looked shiny and full of volume. Rose managed to apply perfect makeup, enough to highlight features on my face, but not too much.

The doorbell rang and I rushed to get my phone and keys into my clutch. I stepped out of my room and moved as fast as my heels allowed me to. All the air rushed out of my lungs when I saw Edward standing in the living room. His back was to me, but my eyes wandered his body with intense hunger. His wide shoulders were perfectly hugged by his blue button down shirt. The muscles in his upper body rippled every time he moved his arms, making my mouth practically water. My eyes zoned in on his ass, which was snug in his black jeans. From the look of his adorable butt, he worked out his legs too. A lot of men made the mistake of only focusing on their arms, making their torsos abnormally larger than they're lower halves.

After having checked out Edward for a sufficient amount of time, I threw my hair over my shoulder and made my way towards him. I must have been too caught up before when I was checking him out, because I didn't even notice Alice was the one that let him in and they were talking. I cleared my throat as I stood behind him and he whirled around. His eyes widened and his mouth dropped open as he looked me up and down, much like I did to him before.

"Hi," I said looking at his still open mouth. I placed my finger under his chin and pushed up to close his mouth.

"Hello," he said once he regained his voice. He wrapped his arms around me and leaned down to kiss my cheek. I hugged him back and pulled away when I heard Alice clear her throat.

"Bella! Good to see you again!" Emmett yelled and pulled me into a bear hug. I gasped as the air was all squeezed from me. When the hell had Emmett entered the room?

"Can't breathe Emmett," I managed to choke out.

"Emmett let her down," I heard Edward say angrily.

"Oh sorry little Bella," Emmett said as he let me down. I smiled at him to show him it was all right and turned to see that Jasper was also in the room. I smiled at him and his hug was much more gentle than Emmett's.

Once Rose came into the room, everyone made small talk for a few minutes. I got a little impatient for some alone time with Edward, so I pulled on his arm a little and he got the hint. We said our goodbyes to everyone and made our way outside. "So where are we going to be eating?" I asked with a smile.

"You'll see," he said and opened the passenger door of a silver Volvo. I thanked him and stepped inside.

He walked around to the driver's side and pulled into the street. We talked about what we did over the week and he confessed that he was nervous I might have turned him down for tonight. I laughed and told him there was no chance of that. When he stopped at a red light, he reached over and pulled my hand into his. He smiled at me and placed a kiss on my knuckles.

"Oh my gosh Edward, this is too much." I was in shock as he pulled up to one of the fanciest restaurants in town.

"Only the best for you Bella," he said and my heart started fluttering. I would have been happy getting some In-N-Out burgers and eating in the car, but I would let him do this for me.

Edward pulled up to the valet, and I groaned when I saw some photographers. They always seemed to hang around nice restaurants, just waiting for someone to arrive. We got out of the car and Edward gave the keys to the valet. I looked down as the flashes got close, and felt Edward grab my hand. I stood a little behind him, using his body to block some of the flashes. I breathed a sigh of relief as we finally stepped into the restaurant. The hostess looked at me briefly and then looked over at Edward and couldn't take her eyes off of him.

"Good evening. Do you have a reservation?" She asked, her question directed to Edward.

"Yes. Under the name Masen," he answered smoothly.

She checked her computer and then escorted us towards a booth, and I could swear she was moving her hips more than necessary. The booth allowed us a bit more privacy, which was nice. We sat down and our menus were placed in front of us.

"Your waiter will be here shortly," she said as she winked at Edward and walked away.

"Wow. Seems like she couldn't take her eyes off of you," I said bitterly.

"Are you jealous, Ms. Swan?" He asked teasingly.

"Maybe." He chuckled and took my hand.

"I only have eyes for you Bella," he said as he placed a kiss on my hand. I blushed and tried not to giggle like a little girl.

I looked at the menu and couldn't help but stare at the prices. As much money as I made, I never liked flaunting it or over spending on things.

"Edward, this place is expensive. I can't let you pay for all this," I said.

"Don't worry about the money," he said.

"I don't want you spending on me." I said, putting down the menu and looking at him with a serious look on my face.

"Bella, nothing makes me happier than being able to spoil you," he said while smoldering me with his eyes. This man was just too sexy for his own good.

"Fine. Just this once," I said. I wasn't trying to be difficult; I've always felt uncomfortable with people paying for me.

We ordered our food and as we waited we asked question after question. He learned that I was afraid of heights and spiders, and I learned about his claustrophobia. That led to me searching different phobias on my phone and we both started laughing when I showed him 'anatidaephobia'.

"Fear that somewhere, somehow a duck is watching you," I managed to say through my laughter.

He threw his head back as a new round of laughter went through him. "I think Emmett has that. He's scared of ducks and whenever some come into the backyard, he gets me and Jasper to get rid of them."

I giggled as I pictured Emmett screaming like a little girl as a quaking duck approached him.

We were interrupted by our meals arriving and we gladly dug in. I indulged in a glass of wine, but Edward declined as he was driving. All in all, the food was delicious and when we finished we were extremely satisfied.

We eventually got up from our table and made our way out of the restaurant. I kept my head down as a few flashes went off. I stood leaning against Edward as we waited on valet to get the Volvo for us. Edward quickly led me to the passenger door when the car arrived. He opened the door for me, and helped me inside. As soon as he climbed into the driver's seat, we took off, leaving the flashes in the dust.

"Is it okay if I take you to the local park?" Edward asked politely.

"Of course," I said, loving any excuse to spend more time with him. It only took a few minutes to reach a nearby park. Edward hopped out and walked around to open my door. I reached for the hand he held out and let him help me out. The chilly air hit me and I shivered in my short dress that did nothing to warm me. Having noticed my shivering, Edward leaned into his car and retrieved his leather jacket from the backseat.

"Here," Edward said. He draped the jacket over my shoulders, making me smile. It was slightly cold from not being worn, but it smelled like him. I sniffed at it greedily when he wasn't looking.

Our hands found each other when we began to walk. Our fingers interlaced and squeezed at each other reassuringly. Edward shared stories from his childhood that had tears of laughter running down my face. I shared with him stories of my clumsier moments, and my many trips to the emergency room.

"I'm less of a klutz now, but I still have my moments. At least I can wear these," I motioned to my heels, "without falling on my face." One advantage of the heels, I was closer in height with Edward. Still nowhere near his height, but I loved the feeling of being closer to his face.

I was still a bit intimidated by the electric currency between us, but I knew if he led me through it, I could handle it. At some points during our walk, he would lift our intertwined hands and place a kiss on my knuckles. I would smile at him and lean a bit closer.

We spotted a bench and sat down with our hands still holding on to each other. I leaned close to Edward, and found comfort in his warmth.

"Bella, you have no idea how special you are to me," he said as he placed a kiss on my head.

"Edward, you're special to me too."

"Bella, I don't want this to be something casual. I want you to be mine," he said and my heart swelled.

"I want to be only yours," I said.

He smiled and separated his hand from mine only to place his hands on my waist and pull me onto his lap. I snuggled to his chest and felt myself relax. "Bella?"

I looked up at his face and his gaze was so strong. His eyes were warm and I could feel the kindness and care radiating from them. "Bella, will you be mine?"

"As in your girlfriend?" I asked. He smiled and nodded. "I would love to be yours then, but only if you're mine too."

"Of course, sweetheart," he said. My eyes drifted down to his lips, wondering how soft they were. It seemed his thoughts were on the same wavelength as mine as his own eyes were zeroed in on my lips. Unconsciously, I leaned forward and saw him do the same. My eyes slowly closed just as I felt his lips touch mine and I sighed at the feeling of finally feeling his lips on mine. The feeling was indescribable. The electricity that I always felt around him, engulfed me completely, leaving me in an Edward induced haze.

I felt his tongue trace my lower lip, and I opened my mouth up and let my own tongue make contact with his. I groaned at the sensations going through me and I craved to get closer to him. My hands held the back of his neck firmly, and our chests were pushed together, but it wasn't enough. I hitched one of my legs over him, so that I was straddling him and groaned at the feeling of him. I felt a throb between my legs and grinded against him to relieve it, and moaned at the friction. He groaned again and bucked his hips up into mine slightly.

"Bella," he moaned. "As much as I would like to keep going, we are in a public park and I don't want anybody looking at your rear," he said, trying in vain to pull my dress down to cover my ass.

All I wanted at that moment was him. All of him. I've never wanted someone so bad.

"Let them see. I don't care," I said as I wrapped my arms around him and started kissing his neck. He groaned but kept his head.

"Bella, I would like to do the honorable thing and not take you in the middle of this park," his voice strained.

As much as I wanted to let my feelings take over, I knew it was too soon. I placed one last chaste kiss on his lips and got off of him. I pulled my dress down so that I was decent once more and helped Edward up from the bench. I couldn't stop the small chuckle that escaped me when I noticed his obvious excitement in the front of his pants, as he tried to discreetly adjust himself.

"You think this is funny?" he asked, his voice dripping seduction. I nodded for the sake of teasing him, and he lunged at me. I squealed as he grabbed me and kissed all along my neck. Just as I closed my eyes and gave into the feeling, he pulled away with a smirk. I playfully glared at him and let him lead me back to the car.

The ride home was comfortably quiet, both of us holding hands and blissfully at ease.

Just as we were approaching my neighborhood, Edward broke the silence. "Bella, do you mind if I drop off my car at my house?" he asked.

"How are we getting to my house?" I asked confused.

"You'll see," he said, grinning as if I were missing some kind of joke.

A few moments later, we pulled into a driveway. I looked up and took note of the average sized home that was a nice blue color. Edward opened my door, and helped me out of the car. We held out his hand, and I immediately placed my hand in his. We didn't take two steps before I wrapped my arms around his neck and wanted to feel his mouth again.

"Ms. Swan, you haven't been able to keep your hands off of me all night," he said with a crooked smile.

"That's because you're so goddamn irresistible," I said as I started kissing him again. He pulled away and started walking down the sidewalk again. Every few steps, I would stop him and throw my arms around him to feel his lips once more, every time I did it, he chuckled and kissed me back just as eagerly. I've never felt anything like it in my life. I've never felt such a powerful attraction to a man before, and I didn't know what was the proper way to act. I wanted to keep touching him, and Edward didn't seem to mind.

We hadn't passed two houses before he suddenly stopped me and pointed to the house in front of me. For a moment I was disoriented because I was confused as to how we were just at his house and all of a sudden we were in front of mine.

"What? How? Where?" I stuttered confused.

He chuckled and answered; "It turns out you live closer to me than you thought."

My mind reeled at an unbelievable pace at the knowledge that he lived two houses away. The possibilities were endless as to what we could do. Late night visits were at the forefront of those possibilities.

He walked me up the front steps and I couldn't let him go just yet. "Do you want to come in?" I asked

"Do you promise to behave?" he asked, unsure. I'm sure my erratic attacks on him weren't making me look very good. I looked down, slightly embarrassed. He must have sensed my sudden change in demeanor, and was quick to place his hands on either side of my face and smiled reassuringly at me. "I love your kisses. I just want to take it slow, sweetheart."

"I promise," I said as I started searching my clutch for my key. I opened the front door and found that all the lights were off and the house was empty. Having the house to ourselves didn't help my resolve any. I led him into the living room and motioned for him to sit down on the couch.

"I would show you my room, but I can't promise that I'll behave myself," I said as I draped my legs over his lap and hugged him close to me.

"This is fine," he said as he held me close to his chest.

We stayed like that in the dark for a couple of minutes before we heard the front door being opened loudly. The sound of the door slamming against the wall echoed throughout the quiet house. We were set at ease though, when we could hear the sound of kissing and panting as two horny individuals loudly made their way down the hallway. We both watched in amusement as Rose and Emmett, in full make out session, stumbled into the living room. We burst out into a fit of giggles, making them come up for air and see who was the source of the laughter.

"Wow. You two work fast," I teased.

"Shut up, Bella," Rosalie said as she started straightening her dress and fixing her hair.

"Did you get any action Eddie?" Emmett teased Edward.

"That's none of your business, Emmett," Edward said sternly, wrapping his arms a little tighter around me.

"Calm down, I was just joking. God! You can never take a joke," Emmett said as he sat in the recliner. He pulled the lever and made himself at home by letting his feet up. Rose raised an eyebrow and lightly sat on his lap. He smiled at her and pulled her firmly against him, making Rose's face melt into a soft smile. Emmett placed a kiss on her forehead and reached for the remote, illuminating the living room in the television's soft glow. Rose and I laughed when it just so happened that the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show was starting.

"Put up the volume! I want to see how we looked," Rose said. While most people would think she wanted to admire herself, she actually took notes of every show. She worked hard to perfect her craft, and wasn't afraid of critiquing herself.

Emmett raised the volume, and all four of us got comfortable as the show started. The boys chuckled as they showed the backstage area and the camera focused on different models, including the girls and I pulling funny faces. Emmett noticeably shifted in his seat as Rose walked down the runway in all her bombshell glory. Rose was oblivious to Emmett's growing arousal, as she watched intently and looked out for anything she could possibly fix in the future.

Rose and I clapped as tiny Alice made her way down. She walked so easily in the stilettos she's given, and she looked fierce as she posed at the end.

When I came onto the screen, I blushed much to Edward's amusement and I blushed even more when he whistled at the screen. He smiled down at me and kissed my forehead.

I disappeared from the screen and the rest of the angels walked. Our attention turned to the front door as it was opened and Alice and Jasper came in holding hands. They greeted everyone and made themselves comfortable on the love seat and joined us in watching the show. As the show continued on, we enjoyed the musical performances and clapped when one of the girls came onto the screen.

At some point, I felt myself start to doze off. Edward's chest provided the perfect spot for my head to rest on, and the movements of his breaths was lulling me until I finally closed my eyes. A while later, I felt arms lift me up and whispered murmuring. I felt myself being lowered onto a soft bed and my shoes being gently removed. I felt the warmth of a blanket being placed on me and then I felt soft lips place a kiss on my cheek.

"Goodnight Bella, love," the velvet voice whispered, and I drifted off to a deep sleep.

Another rewritten chapter. I left the date pretty much the same as the original.

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