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4. Tobias: Father and son

I sigh and dart a desperate look to Tris. Why on earth can our life never be simple? Today should be joyful and Natalie's success is bringing us down to a new problem. I never really know how to deal with the children's problems.

Tris gets up and says it's time to check homework for me and prepare dinner for her. It's quite easy with Theo because he really knows his math lesson very well. I tell him he can play for 10 minutes before dinner's ready. Now I have to go to Natalie who prepared her English test pretty well.

Now it's the hard time for me with Adam. I knock at the door with my instructor's voice to ask him to open but I get no answer. I have to threaten him to retain his pocket money and deprive him for going out during one week, to hear the door unlocking. It does not open though. His homework is done; quality is not really here, but it's done. I close the door and ask "What's wrong with you Adam, you should be happy for Natalie?" He's lying on his bed nonchalantly, his bad mood showing all over his face like it already shows on the black walls.

"It's not fair. She's good at everything and gets everything she wants. Now she'll be on her own and I'm a loser."

I flinch and shake my head in incomprehension. I just can't figure out what we have done wrong over the past years, to let him think he's a failure.

"But you're not a loser Adam, you could achieve a lot of things I you would just direct your skills somewhere useful. You're not your sister. Being jealous is pointless. You should find your own way."

"Like what? Fighting? That's all I can do well." He mumbles.

I come closer and sit on the edge of his bed.

"I won't say it's not a career, you can be a soldier or a policeman. That's pretty much what your mother and I were trained for actually, but you have to fight for something that's worth it. You fight for the act itself… or tell me why?"

"I don't know… I have to let it out. You won't let me enter the school martial arts' team."

"You've been expelled from the team, if you remember. You beat this guy… Brian, like pulp in the third session. What did you think?" I'd swear he's about to cry.

I hear Tris calling us for dinner. I look at Adam and add "OK. We will finish this conversation after dinner. It's not over."

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After we're finished, I put Theo to bed, and while the twins put their PJ's and brush their teeth, I tell Tris about what I want to discuss with Adam tonight. She drops her dish towel on the sink, and looks at me. "Are you sure?" She asks with concern in her voice.

"I think it's time for me to really help him. And maybe this will help. You were right about telling the kids everything about us… I mean, nearly everything" I add kissing her neck and wrap my hands around her waist. She gives me back my kiss and says "Are you thinking about something like, how you make babies?"

I smile at her and add "Tell Natalie I'll come later to give her a kiss."

Adam is on his bed, lying with his headphones on. I can hear the loud music from the doorstep. I close the door behind me and sit down on his bed again, facing him.

"Look Adam, there's something it's time I tell you about. Your mother thinks you're old enough to understand and we planned to tell you and Natalie everything about our family, but there is something I want to tell you now. Well, your grandfather… Marcus… he used to beat me when I was a child, just like he did with you. He would beat me for anything he thought wrong, from things I forgot, things I said, things he believed I thought, resisting him too... He beat me every day and he kept telling it was for my own good. I know he liked beating me, but you know that too don't you?" He nods and I can see a new interest in his gaze. I go on "He sometimes beat your grandmother too. I had to endure this silently for 16 years, until I could escape when I transferred to Dauntless. When I got there, I believe I had so much rage stored in me that it could blow every moment. Training for fight helped me release all this fury that I had inside me. Once I beat some other initiate so hard that I could actually have killed him, and I liked it. I was afraid of myself that day. Adam, do you like hurting people? Is that why you're fighting all the time at school?" He nods.

"Are you afraid of that?" He nods silently again. I take a deep breath "Maybe I could help you muster your rage if... Would you like to train at fighting with me? I'll try to teach you where the frontier is, and hopefully you can have another chance in the martial arts' team."

He just says "Yes, I'd like to." I look into his eyes and I feel like looking at a younger myself again. I I get up and before leaving I add "There's one other very important thing Adam, whatever Marcus told you, nothing of this is your fault. They did experiments on you, with serums and threat and psychological pressure. You're not responsible… and you can get out of this. Someday you might even forget you'll see.

He lifts his blue gaze at me and just says "Thank you Dad."

I smile at him and say "Any time, son."