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Rory and Jess decided to split and go home for the night. Rory said she didn't want to tell her mom after having just fought with her dad. Jess agreed and headed back for the diner, and Rory headed back to the crap shack.
When Jess got back to the diner, he finally let the gravity of the situation hit him. He didn't need to worry about Rory seeing him stress out, and he finally felt all the panic and fear. He went out back behind the diner with a pack of cigarettes and lit one. As he smoked he thought.
'What if I'm just like my father? What if I can't do this? What if it hates me? What if Rory hates me? What if…' the thoughts just kept coming. With each rush of panic, he smoked another cigarette.
Rory walked through her front door and sighed. She didn't see her dad's car anywhere, so she knew her mom had finally gotten rid of him. She saw her mother and Luke sitting on the couch, watching some weird cooking show. Luke was arguing about why Lorelei had wanted to watch a cooking show when she doesn't even use her oven.
They both turned around and saw Rory, and Luke asked, "Where's Jess?" Rory calmly explained that he had headed back to the diner for the night, and that she was going to go take a hot shower.
Luke got the things he had brought for their dinner and left, while Lorelei sat on the couch. When Rory got out of the shower she put on sweatpants and a tank top and grabbed a glass of water. She came around the corner to tell her mom she was going to do some homework, and then go to bed.
Lorelei was worried; she had never seen Rory fight like that with Chris. She knew he was being a little hard, but she also knew something was up with her daughter.
Lorelei walked into Rory's room and sat down on the bed. "Hun, do you want to talk about what happened tonight?"
Rory shook her head and replied, "Not really."
"I know your father was a little harsh, but he was just reacting to Jess. He knows you're a good kid, and that you're smarter than either of us was."
And all of the sudden Rory began to cry again.
When Luke got back to the diner he didn't find Jess in the apartment. He was a little worried, until he smelled cigarette smoke coming from the window around the back. He walked outside and sat down on the ground next to his nephew. He waited for Jess to speak.
"What if I'm just like him?" Jess asked.
"You won't be," Luke answered.
"What if it hates me?" Jess replied.
"It won't," was all Luke said.
"What if I'm not enough?" Jess questioned.
At this Luke finally had something to say. "Jess, you had an awful childhood, your father is a deadbeat, and God help my sister, because we all know she was never a mother to you. But, I know how much you care about Rory, and if you care about the baby half as much as you care about her, you will be fine. You won't be a typical father, you'll be better. You and Rory both know what it's like to grow up without dads. Hell, the first time anyone in this town met Chris, Rory was 16. This just means you know how to not be a parent."
After Luke finished his speech Jess reached down and put out his cigarette. He stood up and threw the rest of the pack in the dumpster.
"Thanks Luke," was all he said.
Luke sat outside for a few minutes longer to clear his head. He was certainly disappointed, but he had a feeling that this was going to all work out for the best.
Back at the crap shack, Lorelei was looking at her tearful daughter, and became very afraid. When Rory finally spoke she wished she hadn't.
"Mom, I'm pregnant," Rory whispered.
"You're what? I don't think I heard you right," Lorelei stammered.
"I'm pregnant."
"No, you're not. Do you know why? Because you're smarter than this. You're better than this. You are going to have more than I do. You're going to have the world. And having your asshole boyfriend's baby is not having better than this!" Lorelei yelled.
Rory got angry, "He is not an asshole. He loves me! You think I don't know that I was stupid? Of course I know that!"
"What about Yale Rory? What about journalism! God, this is not happening. How did this even happen? You were supposed to talk to me about this. We tell each other everything!"
"After the dinner at grandma's house, after we had that horrible fight. I went out to get takeout from Al's and came back with Luke's. I told you that Al had a ridiculous wait and I finally left and got Luke's? There was no wait. I slept with Jess, got new food, and went home."
"God were you even safe? Clearly not, because if you were we wouldn't be having this conversation!"
"Yes we were safe! It was an accident! It's not like we wanted this to happen."
"He's going to leave you know. He'll run when you tell him, just like your father and his father did. He will leave you alone to deal with this."
"He won't. He already knows! He told me he loves me and that he isn't going anywhere. He said that whatever I wanted to do would be ok with him. He isn't going to leave me! Certainly not how dad left you!" Rory yelled.
Lorelei looked like she had been hit. She didn't know how to process this. She turned around and walked out of her daughter's room. She closed the door and went upstairs. Rory knew it had been unfair to bring up her father leaving, but she just wanted her mom to shut up.
She knew she had to leave, at least for the night. She wasn't eager to have round two later on, or in the morning. Rory grabbed a jacket, and some shoes, and climbed out her window. She headed for the diner. She knew Luke would be asleep, but that he would understand in the morning.
When she got there, she unlocked the door with the key she knew was there, and went up the stairs of the apartment. She opened the door to hear Luke snoring. Jess was still awake though. He was reading. Rory walked over to him, and slid into the small bed. He put his book down and waited for her to say something.
"Can I stay here tonight?" she whispered.
"Yeah," he answered.
"Mom knows, we had a fight," she told him.
"Okay, he replied. With that he turned out the light, and fell asleep with Rory in his arms.
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