Chapter 4

I stand by the car as I watch her place the flowers down next to his headstone, there is always a stillness that comes when we visit and Emily comes more often these days, but today is still as hard for her now as it was four years ago. Four years ago, today we laid our baby boy to rest and still I cannot help the tear that rolls down my cheek as I watch her sit down next to the head stone.

In four years so much has changed, our family is now happy Sarah is settled and still dating Adam to her mom's surprise but Sarah is happy and we are both happy for her and we are so proud of her. Jane is away with Karen and Rossi right now, they have gone to England for a few weeks to allow me and Emily a break.

It took us both a long time to overcome our grief but some days it is as raw as the day he died, but we have things to look forward to a new happiness awaits us but for now I stand next to our car while Emily sits and talks to her little man.

"You ready" JJ says softly as Emily walks down the path towards the car, the gentle smile ghosting her lips as her eyes lay onto her wife. Emily cannot seem to find the words but the grin gives it away as I take her hand.

The car ride seems so long as we pull up outside the clinic, my nerves beginning to show slightly, as Emily takes my hand in hers "You're going to be fine, my sweet girl" Emily whispered softly.

I look at her unsure we have had a few false starts with this but today we will find out if we are going to be blessed with another child. We have been trying for over a year but as I look at her a smile hits my lips. "It feels different this time Emily" it comes out as more of a whisper as my hand rests over my stomach.

Emily couldn't help but laugh at JJ's words as she smiled lovingly at her "Come on lets go and see the doctor" Emily smirked, even she knew this time was different, the glow that seemed to cover JJ's body the light in her eyes and if Emily was honest even the sweet smell of her wife was even sweeter than normal.

They took a seat in the small waiting area as they waited to be called in, JJ's foot tapped on the tiled floor causing Emily to laugh as she looked at her. "What's so funny?" JJ asked seeing the amused look on Emily's face. "You remember say five years ago being sat in a hospital threatening me?" JJ could not help but laugh; she was repeating the same annoying actions that Emily had done when she went for the first scan with the twins.

And right now JJ understood the nerves and worry that Emily had gone through twice, her stomach turned as she tried to lean into Emily. Three years ago the Emily she knew and loved had returned, she had the woman who she fell in love with back, no more nightmares, Emily was in fact more stronger than she was. Though the team would say she was more guarded than she used to be.

Emily sighed slightly as the nurse calling JJ's name pulled her out of her memories.

"Ms Prentiss?" the young nurse stood looking at the two women, as they both rose Emily keeping hold of JJ's hand as they walked into the room "If you would like to lay on the table and relax for a few moments while I go and get your Doctor" she smiled brightly as she exited the room through another door.

JJ smiled softly biting her lower lip as she looked at Emily, "What you thinking about" JJ couldn't help but laugh "Would you believe I am petrified" Emily took her hand as she placed a soft kiss on her brow. "I know you are darling but I am right here with you"

The slightly tapping on the door pulled them both out of their own thoughts as an older lady walked into the room "Good morning ladies" she greeted brightly "Morning" they replied in unison, her soft gaze landed on Emily as a small smile emanated from her lips.

"First things first I have the blood work back that we took the other week" JJ's grip got tighter on Emily's hand as they looked at Dr. Young, the familiar doctor smiled at them both, "It worked" JJ couldn't help the tears at formed in her eyes as Emily looked at her lovingly "I'm pregnant" she whispered causing both the doctor and Emily to laugh.

"Yes you are Jennifer" Dr. Young smiled brightly, "I would like to do an ultra sound if that is okay Jennifer" JJ nodded as the tears rolled down her cheek causing Emily to laugh "Not sure I have ever seen her this speechless before" Dr. Young laughed softly as she wheeled the machine over towards the bed.

"Right Jennifer this will feel cold on your skin" she smiled warmly at her as she placed the gel in her stomach. JJ's muscle's contracted under the coldness of the gel letting her body get use to the unfamiliar sense as the doctor started the scan, a soft beating could be heard from the machine as JJ turned her face looking at the grainy screen "Is that" Emily muttered

The doctor looked at her smiling "That would be a very strong heartbeat, must take after you" she smiled as JJ smirked "God I hope it doesn't have your stubbornness" Emily rolled her eyes slightly as she fixated herself watching the screen in front of her.

Though they couldn't really see anything aside from the small shape that looked like a peanut they both couldn't help the tears that fell, JJ was eight weeks pregnant, it was finally happening, she couldn't help the joy and the part sadness that ran through her body as she look at her glowing wife.

"I want to keep a close eye on you Jennifer so I want you to make another appointment in six weeks," JJ nodded, as the doctor looked at Emily "How is Jane doing?" Emily could not help the soft smile.

Jane had been diagnosed with Autism when she was three, though both Emily and JJ already had an idea before the tests had been carried out, but Jane was doing well and coming on, "She is doing well, Karen has taken her to England" JJ smiled "So we are kid free for a few weeks"

Location: BAU

The bullpen was quieter than normal as they walked through the doors and into the small kitchen, Emily's eyes went slightly wide as she looked at JJ, "Are you going to be okay without your twenty cups of coffee a day" JJ glared at her slightly before slapping her arm "I am not that bad Agent Prentiss"

Emily couldn't help but raise her eyebrows at her "Agent Jareau, the last time we ran out of coffee Morgan ended up with a black eye" JJ couldn't help but laugh slightly "He drank the last cup and didn't replace it" Emily couldn't help but smile "And that is a good enough reason?" JJ grumbled slightly "I will get you some de-caff" Emily said with a wink as she poured them both a drink.

Morgan spotted them both as he made his way towards them "Morning ladies, did you get lost?" he teased slightly. Emily gave him a pointed look as she spoke "There was somewhere more important to be this morning," Emily said softly.

"Right I will be in my office and you two behave" JJ said as Emily passed her a cup of tea JJ glared at her "Really Emily" Emily smiled sweetly "I will go and get it later and yes really" JJ rolled her eyes as she made her way up to the catwalk as Emily just laughed knowing her wife was already not fully impressed.