Two Sided Door

Peace and Quiet is all I needed at the moment, but it was just too hard to get those these days, with the one pack mind and also my thoughts screaming, bloody murder at me. Right now, I walking. Yes, I was walking away, from my house, from those annoying people who I am forced to all my 'pack', just from…there. I always thought my life was a mystery and that one day it would be solved but now it's just a question mark. A plain question mark. Nothing to solve, nothing to hide. Isn't life great when it's unpredictable?

No you asshole, it isn't. It's the fucking worst because then all you get in the end is pain. Cold no-mercy pain. Yes, I should know. After all that has happened with me and that guy I am forced to call my 'alpha'; or who was once known as…my Sam.

But that ship has sailed, along with everything I imagined with him. My future, my love, my life…my everything. Now I'm just one of his pack members, nothing more while he lives his sickening perfect life, the life that I imagined to have with him, with my darling unfaithful cousin. Romantic, isn't it? And what's even more annoying is that all the pack members know about it. Talk about loss of privacy. With Paul and his temper issues, Jared and his disgusting attitude, Sam and his "authority", Quil and his smart ass mouth, Embry and his lack of standing up for himself, and of course, Jacob and just the fact of his existence. I'm cruel, yes I know. That's what happens when your life feels like total crap. Oh, did I miss someone? I do insult and annoy and tease Seth a lot and sometimes he can be a total embarrassment but…he's family, he's my brother. I already lost two men in my life; I don't want to lose another. I may come off very mean and bossy towards him but that is because I love him, with all my heart and I made a promise to myself to protect Seth for mom's sake, dad's sake…and even my own.

I hadn't realized where my feet had subconsciously taken me but before I knew it, the surrounding changed from the same old forest to a place where I hadn't been in for a while now. A place which to others might be another forest clearing but to me, it was significant. I was standing right in the middle of the clearing as the large green trees towered over me, almost blocking out the sun's rays.

I can't believe I brought myself here. It's like from one dilemma, I jump to another. I looked around and recognized the dark spot where I had once fallen down, with tears forming into a puddle on the forest ground. It was as if I could still sense the cool breeze that night brought, along with my almost inaudible sobs, as I pounded the ground. The only thing that changed was that the area had become smaller since more trees and plants started to sprout, and also there was dead old tree fallen down, close to the area that I once lay. I felt a breath that I had been holding at the end of throat, come out at once. No matter what I do, the past just has to come back to bite in my ass, doesn't it?

I felt myself soften, for some reason as I slowly shuffled towards the large laying trunk. I stroked the rough, dry outer skin of the trunk as I felt its dead leaves brush against my feet. I let out sigh as I slowly sunk down onto the trunk, taking it all in.

What has happened so far

What is happening

Where I stand

Why am I here

Who do I have with me

Do I have any say or choice in this

I remember a much simpler time. A time where all these questions weren't needed to be asked because you already knew all the answers. A time when love was just love, when family meant everything, when life had a meaning. For me at least. And now…well, you know the rest.

Werewolf boyfriend runs off with your favorite cousin and due to anger and sadness, you morph into a werewolf too with your brother, causing your dad to die at the sight of you and right now, you are forced to work with other werewolves to protect our sworn enemies and their human pet. The usual high school drama, right?

God, you have no idea how sickening it is to think about the Swan girl. I mean, why the hell does she have to find the first monsters to hang out with? Does she not like having a normal life with people who don't sparkle, suck your blood, shed or morph? Well, I can't honestly be surprised that she doesn't have much of a social life. She's practically a walking corpse. But there is one question that is bugging me a lot now.

What did Jacob see in her? Or most importantly, what did…he…see in her?

It looked like they were together. I mean, the way he was holding her at the field and how protective he was of her when Jacob was talking to her. What is up with that? Why is she with him and like…like…ugh, this is soo frustrating.

I sunk my head into my hands as I let out small frustrated sigh. How…I mean…how? How the hell did he even meet her? Or what is he even doing here? Why does he have come back…now? And be with her? Wait, what is wrong with me? Why do I care about this leech? He's a leech for god's sake. But…I remember at that moment, I felt different.

He made me believe for a while that maybe men weren't all that same; that they cared. But I guess that was just for that moment. Besides, I don't think I classify him as man.

Ugh, why the hell does fate have to play with my life like this?!

"Fate's not playing with your life. Things just seem to have an unexpected way of coming up" a cool voice voiced, which happened to coming in front of me. Of course, I couldn't see who it was but I could recognize it fairly well by the cool and collected tone, as well as the smell it brought in. Oh great, this is just emphasizing my point even more. When I get up there, I'm gonna kick some ass.

"Wow, you certainly have a way with speech" he lightly chuckled as I heard him take a few steps closer. How the hell did he….shit, I forgot that some have 'abilities'. So he's supposed to be some mind raper or something? Great. There is no way that bloodsucker is getting any closer to me. I got enough energy to lift my head up to glance at this…pers-thing.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I jeered, gazing at his pale face. Woah, it may have been a couple of years but he looks just the same. The same bronze locks which was long enough to almost cover his forehead; His pale skin had a more subtle glow than how it looked that night and his topaz color eyes were almost piercing as he gazed at me, just like I did him; seeing each other after all this time.

"I came…I came to see you. I thought you'd be here" he stated, digging his hands into his coat pockets.

"Come to see me? What am I, a show piece? I am none of your concern. You can leave now and besides, It wasn't my intention to come here. Why would I come to this place? What good has it done me anyways?" I announced as I got off the trunk, crossed my arms across my chest, refusing to gaze in his direction.

"Leah…" he said which made me cringe. It was so weird that I cringed. It was as if it was Sam when he would call me that retched 'Lee-lee' nickname. I hated that this leech even knew my name, for some reason.

"Leah, I know you're mad at me…" he said, but was cut off by my scoff. I turned my gaze to him, taking a few steps towards him, feeling the irritation course through my face.

"I am soo beyond the point of mad, frustrated or annoyed. I mean, look at we are now. Why, why did you have to come back? Back here?" I grinded my teeth.

"I never left but I thought maybe you didn't need me at that time anymore…" he stated.

"I still don't need you. Who the hell do you think you are? You're a fricking leech. Why the hell would I need a leech in my life, after all that you have done? After the monster you've made me into?" my voice started to crack a bit. What the fuck is this? Why am I getting all over emotional? What did this bloodsucker do to me?!

"Leah, you are the last person I wanted this to happen to" he said, taking a step closer to me as remorse started to appear on his solid face.

"Ha, that makes me soo special" I sarcastically replied.

"But…seeing you, that night, was just…so abrupt" he said.

"You were a surprise too, believe me" I scoffed.

"And the fact that you're with…Bella? You really after those kind of girls huh? The weak and broken girls? Well, I should tell you that I've changed and I'm not those type of girls. I don't need your pity cause I'm not Bella. I'm not Bella" I yelled, gazing at him with stinging eyes. Stinging, from the frustration, and…some small amount of water building under them.

"I know…You're nothing like Bella" he simply answered. For some bizarre reason, I felt like I was going to collapse or just burst. Why…why is he doing this to me? Does he not know how this affects me?

"I do know, Leah" he whispered but enough for my wolf senses to pick up.

"That day…was the day I felt I was about die. And…I don't know how, you were able to pick me up and heal me for a small period of time. It was crazy but you did. I didn't know who you were, where you were from or what you did. I still don't…but I just gave myself to you" I replied softly. Then I felt my temper again greet me as my eyes started to hurt a bit.

"But then I got so frustrated because after that…you left. You left me, to just decay. You knew this all might happen yet you didn't give me any warning, no hint. I was an idoit for even listening to you when I realized who you really were. Then I felt so stupid to even think that you were trying to help me but you weren't. Prime example, me being the girl wolf" I cried, biting my lip.

"I didn't know what was to happen but I knew that I had to be there for you… just for that moment" he answered after his contemplating pause.

"Why? Why would you care about a freak like me?" I questioned, letting out a small sniff. Why would a bloodsucker care about me? What is so great about me that he would care? I saw his mouth open and then close, settling with a smile after a slight pause.

"...I'll tell you soon but now I have to go" he stated, turning to head towards the trees.

"Back…to your precious Bella?" I asked, letting out a bit of pain in my tone. He seemed to have sensed it since he froze and slowly turned to gaze at me, with a small pained expression.

"….Like I said, some things just unexpectedly have a way of showing up" he repeated for some odd reason and then a small smile appeared on his features. "By the way… my name is Edward. Edward Cullen."

And with that he was gone. I let out a couple of raspy breaths before running my hand through my hair. I let out a small sniffle that had unexpectedly appeared with my conversation with….Edward. Wow, that was just so bizarre. I don't know why but it was as if all my emotions started to play with my mind. Cullen. Oh great, he was them which means, I'll have to see him…almost every time. I always knew he was different from others but not this different.

My thoughts were cut off by a familiar scent and not a welcomed one. Well, not welcomed by me. I turned in the opposite direction only to see that oaf Jacob, standing a good 10 feet away from me, shirtless as usual.

"There you are. You shouldn't just run off that way. You have no idea how ticked off Sam's gonna get" Jacob stated, annoyed. That really ticked me off. Here, after all this time, I'm back where I started. Being a pack pup. And again, Sam's order, Sam's command, Sam, Sam, Sam, ugh! And to have this jackass to tell me what to do, after all the trouble he's put me through is the limit.

"Don't you dare tell me what I should or shouldn't do! If you haven't noticed I'm a big girl!" I yelled, clenching my fists.

He looked away, rolling his eyes and letting out tired sigh. He's probably thinking this is typical Leah, that dipshit.

"When will you ever learn to mind you own fucking business?! Is your life that pathetic that you have to bore me to death or is your Bella too fragile to play with a mutt like you?" I growled at him.

"God, Leah. I was just saying that Sam would—"

"I don't give shit what Sam says! And you're telling me to listen to Sam when you yourself is rebelling against the all mighty alpha! I know you're the rightful Alpha but you don't need to rub it in!"

"What the hell are you blabbing about, Clearwater?!"

"I am soo fucking frustrated with you! Not only do I have to protect leeches in order to protect your precious Bella but the worst is that I have to put up with a numbskull like you! A person who doesn't know enemies from friends or who is soo pathetic to even like a girl like Bella! She runs with leeches so let her go!"

"FUCK OFF, CLEARWATER!"

"THAT'S WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO"

"God, I'm soo through with you! You're nothing but a bitch!" he yelled, shaking a bit as he stormed off.

"FEELING'S MUTUAL, BELIEVE ME!" I yelled back, stalking him as he stormed out of the clearing. I heard his low cussing as he pushed past bushes and branches before reaching the view of my house. I slowed down, staying back behind the trunk of the tree as I saw Jacob storm towards Seth and Embry, who were standing outside the house. Thanks to my 'awesome' wolf senses, I could hear their conversation.

"Your sister's a bitch, you know that" Jacob growled at Seth, clenching his fists.

"Oh no" Embry merely muttered.

"You found her? Where is she?" Seth asked, a bit worried.

"The hell I care! Next time, anything involves Leah, count me out!" Jacob snarled as he abruptly left, clenching his jaw.

That's when I got out of the bushes and made my way towards the house. Embry was the first one to see me, and sent a nudge to Seth. Seth turned to gaze at me and had a disapproving look on his face. My expression was neutral as I reached the door, and about to take hold of the doorknob.

"Wait Lee…" Seth announced; I paused. "What did you do now? Why do you have to be like this? First you run off, and then you run off again and then you piss off everyone. Why do you have to ridicule everyone? Why do you make everyone's life so hard? It isn't fair to just hurt people for reasons that aren't their fault."

There was a silent pause. My hand was still extended to the doorknob and, Seth and Embry hadn't moved. I dropped my gaze from the door, down to the ground as I replied in a neutral tone.

"Welcome to my life" and with that I opened the door, and slammed the door shut behind me.

Hello! Yes, thousand apologizes. I am just soooooo busy lately, it's not even funny.

Plus, I was totally blocked when it came to this. It was as if I had the overall concept but the structure and some other stuff were kind of muddled up. So if you see, this wasn't the best. It was very =S. I'm sorry; I kind of lost my touch in this. I hope I get it back though because I really want to continue with this. This wasn't the best, I know and I'll make sure that the next one would be A LOT better, believe me.

So yeah: They meet again, in the same place but different time. As you can kinda see how Leah's emotions aren't exactly planned out right. She's very confused at the moment. She doesn't know what to think, what to believe or what to do. As for Edward, well, he understands what Leah is going through and is trying to help in a way if Leah stops pushing him away. You'll see in the other chapters what Edward kind of thinks of Leah or have you acts with Leah and all.

There are only 3 more chapters left for this story. I told you before, this is a short Fanfiction and plus it happens during Eclipse. The next chapter would be again a Leah and Edward meeting but this time it gets more…intimate.

Reviews would be great =)