Hey! Third update in two days and hopefully more to come soon for this and my other fics! School is kicking my butt, but I love you guys for hanging in there with me! Never expected so much love and interest for this story, but gosh you guys are just awesome! Hope you guys enjoy a little #Haleb flashback to go along with #PRETTYLITTLELIAR DAY! Tune in tonight guys because I'm sure it's gonna be amazing! Anticipating some OTP interaction... Hope you enjoy this chapter and be on the look out for me xoxoxo
DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING, MARLENE DOES, BUT SHE NEEDS TO GET HER STUFF TOGETHER LIKE YESTERDAY :)
Chapter 4 No One's POV
Flashback
Something is seriously wrong.
"Caleb? Caleb, baby wake up please," she shakes him awake.
"What? What's going on Hanna?" he replies groggily still half asleep.
"Something is wrong? Something just doesn't feel right," she winces as she moves feeling her cotton gown sticking to her. She looks down under the covers and what she thinks is something as embarrassing as pee turns out to be her worst nightmare. "C-caleb?" He looks at her motioning for him to look under the covers. Confused he looks down and his eyes damn near pop out of his head. Blood was everywhere and soaking through the sheets at a rapid pace. He scrambles off the bed and runs around looking for a change of clothes for Hanna and himself, shoes, and wallet.
"Okay babe, I need a little help. Rise up for me... slowly, so that I can change your clothes. Once Hanna is in a sitting position, he races into the bathroom at lightening speed to retrieve a wet wash cloth to clean her off a bit before helping her into a dress and her slippers. In his mind, the fashionista can wait because his fiancee needs help. After getting dressed himself, he helps her stand and carefully leads her, with belongings in hand to the car just outside the door. He could never be more grateful that they lived on the second floor. Twenty or so minutes with a panicking Hanna and a scared Caleb, they finally arrive at the hospital. They spot a wheelchair upon arrival and he carefully places Hanna into it before wheeling her to the front desk.
"We need help please. Something is wrong with my fiancee!" he says to the lady at the front desk. She and about two nurses come around to assist them, with them wheeling Hanna away and Caleb being left behind going out of his mind with worry. An hour or so later, someone with real information finally comes out to talk to him.
"She lost a lot of blood, but we were able to stop the bleeding. Hanna is going to be just fine. However, I'm afraid your son didn't pull through," the doctor informs which sends him in a state of utter distraught.
"Can I see them? Please can I see my family?" he asks tears streaming down his face. The doctor nods sympathetically and leads him to the room that hold his soon-to-be wife and his son. Wiping away his stray tears and taking a deep breath, Caleb enters the room to a heartbreaking sight. There sitting in a hospital bed lays his one true love, holding their son in her arms, crying her heart out. She looks up towards the door at the sound of it opening. Upon setting her eyes on Caleb, she loses it once again. Caleb rushes over to her bedside ready to comfort her and hopefully receive comfort in return. He climbs into the hospital bed with her and just holds her while they look down on the tiny bundle in Hanna's arms.
"J-j-jaden Caleb," she whispers with a chocked out sob. The young couple look at each other before looking back down at their baby boy.
"Perfect," he whispers before leaning over to kiss her forehead in an act of silent love. They sit there and mourn the loss of hopes, dreams, and their baby boy.
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No One's POV
End Of Flashback
Things after that just went downhill from there. Hanna was discharged the next day and they had a little memorial a week later. They only one's to know about what happened were Emily and Toby. It's not like they didn't want to tell the others, it was just the fact that they were so busy with their own lives and they didn't see them as often. After the memorial, Hanna and Caleb both threw themselves into their work, barely seeing each other except most nights for bed. They avoided talking about him, wedding plans were put on hold, and eventually they fell apart. They hid everything, never talking about how they were feeling until it all bubbled over.
Flashback
"You never wanna go out anymore! You're always working! What has happened to us?" she shouts at him after once again being blown off. Caleb was supposed to be her date for a business luncheon that he agreed to months ago. All of a sudden he cancels, leaving her to go alone.
"Well, I'm sorry that I have to make money to pay bills in this place! We need heat, lights, and gas Hanna, or have you forgotten?" he says irritated.
"Not with you constantly reminding me Caleb! I don't get this new you! We used to always go out, have fun, enjoy life! Now you just sit around working and forgetting about me and my needs! What the hell?" she's yelling now, full on yelling.
"Well, excuse me for wanting to grow up and take my responsibilities as a man and soon-to-be husband seriously! I am always home at a descent hour, unlike you, who creeps in at 2 and 3 in the morning! I am trying here Hanna and you're not making this easy! Hanna what is this conversation really about?"
"I don't know okay? I don't know! I feel like you're neglecting me and my feelings! I don't want to just waste my life! I'm young, I have a career, I have you! It's not like I'm being held back with kids-" Things go silent and they just stare wide-eyed at each other. Caleb sits on the chair, while Hanna eventually sits on the sofa preparing for a long overdue conversation.
"So that's what this is all about? Staying out late, never home, picking arguments just for the hell of it? Are you somehow relieved that Jaden didn't make it?" he asks in a soft choked up voice. Next, thing you know, she is looking at him like he personally is to blame for everything.
"How dare you say that to me! You have some nerve asking that stupid ass question! Who the hell do you think you are? Jaden was my son, MY son and he meant the world to me! I was ready to start a family, to get married, and live happily ever after! I was ready for us to grow old together! But it wasn't in the cards for me, for us! That was my baby and when he died, my heart did as well! So yes, I stayed away from home, working later. I did everything in my power to avoid his room, where he was supposed to be just a few months from now. I tried everything I could to forget, but when I am here or I see a couple with a stroller I always remember. One minute I'm fine and the next, I find myself thinking about what he would've looked like, what he would have sounded like. Sometimes I would even rub my belly before realizing that he's not there! He's not there and it's like reliving that pain over and over again. I should be a mother, I should be a wife, I should be happy. Yet, the man I love is never around, and I'm lonely! I go to these stupid functions to be surrounded by people, fake or not, someone is talking to me like they give a damn even just a little. You may come home to me at night, but your mind is somewhere else entirely. You don't get to question me doing whatever the hell I need to do to not think about the fact that my baby is gone! I relive that pain every single day of my life, but for a few moments when I am running around as Celeste assistant or entertaining some fake ass models and business people, I don't think or live, I'm just there. I-i'm just t-t-there," she breaks down letting every emotion she's ever bottled up spill over. He races to her side, hugging her close as they both cry in each others arms.
"What do you want Hanna?" he croaks out the question.
"Not this. I need to get off this roller coaster. I can't do this anymore Caleb," she whimpers.
"You want me to leave?"
"I don't want you too, but I need you to. I need to put myself back together without you. You are my one true love and everything I've ever wanted since I was 16 years old, but I can't keep living like this. And you shouldn't have to either. I love you so much. Enough to let you go, to be free of all of this, of me," she confesses.
"I never wanted freedom Hanna, I just wanted you. You weren't the only one torn apart because of Jaden's death. I worked and worked myself to death to avoid feeling too much or anything at all. I never wanted to hurt you or neglect you. I just needed a way to deal with what happened and figure out how to make you happy again. I am so so sorry that I can't be that for you anymore, not right now at least. But I will always love you, no limitations and no questions asked," he says looking her right in the eye, hoping for her to see his sincerity and truth.
"I love you Caleb Rivers," she smiles sadly at him.
"Do me a favor or two? If it can't be me, find someone who will make you happy. You deserve all the happiness in the world. And two, heed my warning, don't become a Sybil because you are perfect just the way you are," he says. She nods in agreement, fresh tears cascading down her face.
"Okay." They share a kiss, packing all of their love, hate, sadness, grief, anger, and passion that had into it.
"I love you too Hanna Marin."