Eren's pov

I remember it, the smell of the grass and the feel of the wind against my skin. I was skipping class, so I could watch Levi, run around the oval. God he was adorable, small and dainty. But I could also see that asshole jean he was also skipping, though I don't know why, probably to do horse shit, I didn't really care as long as he didn't say anything about me watching Levi. I knew he noticed me watching Levi, if the small remarks he makes when he is close by about Levi are anything to go by. I continued to watch him run back and forth across the field. I couldn't see too clearly from this distance but that didn't stop me spending the hour watch him. I heard the bell in the main building ring, signalling time for lunch, I stood from my place in the grass and stretched, I continued to watch as Levi talked to Erwin and I watch how Erwin moved closer to Levi than necessary. Rumour was that they were 'Secretly dating'. I hoped they weren't since that would make my life have an unnecessary complication appear. I headed towards the usually seating place of my group, passing by the soccer team my eyes never drifted from Levi's body.

"Still acting as a stalker then" I heard a horse neigh in my ear

"Fuck off horse face you don't know anything" I turned to face him

"Hoping the shortie going to notice you, because face it he is totally banging Smith anyone" that's as far as his sentence got before I punched him in the face. Before the fight could escalate any more Erwin and Levi had separated us, I could feel my collar choke me as Levi pulled me away from Jean, it was honestly Lucky I didn't pop a boner; Smith had a hold against jean preventing him from lunging at me.

"Be thankful we stopped you too shit heads before some teacher noticed" Levi stated to both me and jean as he released my collar and stormed off, Smith followed behind him and he bent slightly over to whisper to Levi. Asshole! I stormed away from jean and sat between Mikasa and Armin. We were joined by Sasha, Connie and Marco. Lunch continued as normal and as the bell rang for the next class everyone stood up to leave, but Armin grabbed my Armin before I left.

"Eren, you know Jean has been watching you the whole time" he whispered to me, low enough so that Mikasa's super hearing would not pick it up.

"Yeah because I punched that asshole in the face" I stated

"No Eren, that wasn't the type of stare he was giving you" Armin turned and walked off to his class. I stood there puzzled, how else would that idiot look at me. I hurried off to class, and didn't think about it after.

I could feel it, the itch had started. It didn't feel like and itch from a mosquito but more as a throbbing sensation. It starts slowly, spreading throughout my body until it takes over my mind. It had been so long it had fallen to the back of mind; it had been so long since I had a certain familiar taste in my mouth. It takes days, sometimes weeks, but it takes over eventually, it was consuming until I had sated my thirst. I couldn't waste time, over the past few weeks I noticed Levi's eyes would sometimes connect with mine, though he constantly seemed annoyed with my constant staring, soon he or I would act. So I needed to remove this feeling soon, I had to be careful though, Mikasa has been watching me, she has been asking me questions about Jean, though I have no idea why, probably because of Armin. Tonight I would act, I couldn't do anything drastic, and not my normal play time but it would have to be enough so I would not do something I regret. I am never picky about my play mate; it ended the same way all the time. I don't remember too clearly on this one, they weren't anything special; all I had to do was draw them away from the public and then knock them out. Drag them to the basement. I always wait until Mikasa has left home, since she has super hearing, and then the fun really begins.

Each time from then on I would notice jean trying to get closer to me, but I already had my eyes on Levi, only Levi. I remember that day clearly, the day I blurted out my feelings to him, he looked royally pissed off, and the kick he delivered to my gut took me down easily but it was worth it to feel his thin lips against mine. I remember his face, eyes wide with shock and a faint blush across his cheeks. He walked away from me so quickly and avoided me at school for a week and then after school he kissed on the lips, just a quick peck and accepted. I was so happy that day; nothing could tear me down, but outside my home stood Jean.

"You must be happy that shrimp accepted your feelings" he sneered at me

"What the fuck do you want?" I asked

"Do really think he could care about you, he's a cold hearted clean freak, he probably playing you and banging Smith behind your back"

"Fuck of horse face why would you care, last time I checked we weren't friends" I walked past him and unlocked my front door.

"Because I care about you, more than he ever will or could" jean grabbed my jacket and pulled me around to look at him. Who the fuck does he think he is, just as I was about to punch him in the face Mikasa swung the door open.
"What going on out here?" she asked, on look at the situation she grabbed me and pulled me inside slamming the door behind me.

"Eren what's going on?" she stared waiting for an answer. Now all the questions they had been asking me clicked into place, they knew jean liked me.

"Nothing, nothing is going on" I replied walking past.

Weeks past and I got closer to Levi, learning more about him as our relationship progressed, he was so adorable and reminded me a lot of small angry little cat. We each spent time with each other's different friends. I notice jean glaring at Levi any time that he joins us for lunch, one particular time I confronted him afterwards. I slammed his back against a tree.

"What the fuck is your problem with Levi?" I growled in his face.

"He isn't good for you, he insults you constantly and is rude to your friends, is that really the sort of person you like?"

"You don't understand him"
"And you do?"

"He isn't being mean, he isn't the most social gifted, but he still is kind and caring in his own way" I released jean and went to head back to our table.

I remember the night, we spent together, our first time together, you were so shy, I was so nervous, but once our bodies had connected all I could think was how much I loved you and how much I cared Levi, I wanted you forever. It was a beautiful night I don't think I could ever forget. But shortly after that night, I heard jean talking to Erwin. He was telling Erwin how I was secretly hooking up with him behind Levi's back, I realized that I would have to get jean out of my way, he would ruin everything between Levi and I. I knew smith would want further evidence between jean and I before he would tell Levi. I only had a short period of time to work.

This brings me to the day Levi saw me kissing jean.

I asked jean to meet me, at the park. Telling Levi I was going to Armin's to study for finals. I talked to him and then I kissed him, I wanted him to think I cared about him, that I changed my mind about Levi, like I could ever do such a thing. I pulled away and asked him to come over to mine. That we would be more comfortable there, and so I lead him back to my house, perfectly timed it so that Mikasa would be out shopping and dad would be at work. I pulled him towards the basement, he was smiling so much, thinking he had convinced me that he was better than you Levi, but he was an idiot, just like my play mates, so easily tricked. As soon as he took in the sight of the chains in the basement, he turned to ask me about them, I hit him in the head with a pipe and he dropped to the floor out like a light. I quickly chained him to the wall, and headed upstairs, locking the door and leaving the key hanging around my neck, I made my way to the kitchen and made some food, I waited a couple hours, having called Mikasa saying I wanted Levi to come over, and her saying she would spend the night at Annie's but would return home to make sure I would be on time to school. This provided me with enough time to rid myself of a certain horse person.

I headed back to the basement closing and locking the door behind me, the fun was truly about to begin.

Authors note: I'm so sorry this chapter is late I got distracted by exams and I had trouble writing this chapter and not really happy with it so I might change it before I put up the next chapter.