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Chapter 4

He then turned to look at the sunset facing the direction of the village below the hill on which he sat. He put the earbuds in his ears and hit the play button, which was the last button he even thought of trying. The song that came on, he liked it, but it made the tears flow faster nonetheless. It was breaking his heart, but for some reason, he just couldn't change the song.

Yea, wish I told her how I feel,

maybe she'd be here right now,

but instead

I pretended I'm glad you went away,

these four walls closin more everyday,

and I'm dyin inside, and nobody knows it but me

Inuyasha thought, 'I wish I would've told her before I said goodbye to Kikyo. If so, she might still be here, but I'm too stubborn. Damn my pride! And I made it seem as though I didn't care when she left... I've been keeping away from the others since then (three days passed), and every moment she's gone, I miss her more, and it's killing me slowly... Kagome... but I can't tell anyone that you're gone... it's hard enough on me... where are you... my Kagome?'

Like a clown, I put on a show,

the pain is real, even if nobody knows,

and I'm cryin inside, and nobody knows it but me

'I act normal, even though I've lost the only thing that matters to me, and I cry both inside and out, though I only really shed tears when I'm alone'

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say?

How could I let my angel get away?

Now my world is just tumblin down

I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around

the nights are lonely,

the days are so sad,

and I just keep thinkin about the love that we had,

and I'm missin you, and nobody knows it but me

'Why couldn't I say 'I love you'? Simple. I was afraid. Despite what was said when we faced Kaguya, I still had my doubts... but why didn't I go after you? Maybe that was also fear. I don't really know. But everything's falling apart here without you. If only it was this easy to say it back when we fought Kaguya... though only a few days have passed since you left, each is more sad and lonely than the last, and I can't stop thinking about or missing you...'

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two,

and I'm nobody without someone like you,

I'm tremblin inside,

and nobody knows it but me(yeah,)

'I smile in spite of your taking with you a part of me... you were everything to me, my whole world, but now that you're gone, I'm in a downward spiral.'

I lie awake, it's a quarter past three,

I'm screamin at night if I thought you'd hear me,

yea, my heart is callin you,

and nobody knows it but me (well, well)

'I stay up damn near all night and scream your name, oh, how my heart aches for you, my beloved Kagome.'

How blue can I get?

You could ask my heart,

but like a jigsaw puzzle

it's been torn all apart,

a million words couldn't say just how I feel

a million years from now you know, I'll be lovin you still

'It's tearing me up that I've never told you this, that I want to say that I will love you for all eternity'

the nights are lonely (nights are lonely)

the days are so sad (oh, so sad)

and I just keep thinkin about the love that we had

and I'm missin you, and nobody knows it but me

tomorrow morning I'm hittin a dusty road,

gonna find you wherever, ever you might go

and I'm gonna unload my heart, and hope you come back to me (yea, yea

said when the nights are lonely) the nights are lonely,

the days are so sad

and I just keep thinkin about the love that we had (said the love)

and I'm missin you (I'm missin you babe)

and nobody knows (yea, yea) it but me (me)

'I will come for you soon, and I shall beg for your forgiveness, and for you to return here with me, and I will finally reveal the truth about my feelings.'

The nights are lonely (since you been gone away)

the days are so sad (said I been missin you baby)

and I just keep thinkin about the love that we had (I always thought that you'd be right by my side, yea)

and nobody knows it but me (ooh, eh, nobody knows it, no, nobody but me, yea)

'I thought you'd always be here, but I guess I messed up really bad...'

The nights are lonely,

the days are so sad,

and I just keep thinkin about the love that we had

and I'm missin you, and nobody knows it but me.

As the song ended, Inuyasha pulled the earbuds out and shut off the cd player. He put the lot in his kimono, tried to dry his face, then went back to the village to Kaede's hut. When he arrived, nobody said a word. After a minute of silence, as Miroku tried to start talking to Inuyasha, asking about what happened, Inuyasha said "Kaede... I... killed Kikyo."