I felt Jasper try to send waves of relief and calmness to my system and I put up a block. When I felt him try to send waves of peace to me I snapped.
"Leave me alone, Jasper." I snarled. He seemed taken aback and finally stopped. Alice moved towards me and I backed away. I felt bad at the hurt look on her face and sighed.
"Please, I can't be distracted Alice." I begged, "I need to focuse on how to fix this." I stood up and looked at Jacob.
"Take me home?" I asked weakly. He trotted over to me and lowered himself so I could climb on his back. I grabbed a handful of his fur in my hands and buried my face in his shoulder. He started to run and I realized that I really didn't want to go home.
"Can you take me to your place instead?" I said, my voice muffled by his fur. He stopped for a moment before changing course. I sighed into his fur and stroked between his shoulder blades. He shivered slightly and faltered before regaining his steady beat of run. I frowned, I hadn't realized I had that effect on him. I kissed his fur softly and this time he completely stopped. I looked up and saw the dim glow of his house lights. He lowered himself and I slid off. I sat on the ground and stared at my hands. I felt Jake curl his body wrap around me, tucking his tail around me and turning his head to look at me. I leaned over to stroke behind his ear softly. He made a low rumbling sound, almost a purr. I smiled and leaned back against him. Then it all crashed down on me. The situation I was in.
I was going to die. Edward was going to committ suicide and who knows what would happen to the rest of the Cullen family. Victoria was going to hurt this family and it was my fault. Who knows what would happen to the wolves. Whatever happened to anybody was going to my fault. A sob ripped through my throat and the tears spilled. I wrapped my arms around myself and cried. Jacob whined and nudged my arm with his nose. I gasped and shook my head.
"I'm sorry, Jake." I whispered, "You shouldn't have t-to deal with this." He stood up and I bit my lip as he jogged toward his house. I closed my eyes, forcing more tears out of my eyes. I gasped as two warm arms scooped me up.
Jacob kissed my forehead and tucked my chin under his head. I cried in relief and wrapped my arms around his neck. I felt him open his door and took me to his room. He laid me on the bed and curled up around me. I snuggled into his warmth and sighed contently. I felt bad, enjoying Jacob's warm arms instead of Edward's cold ones.
"It's okay, Bella. I'm here," Jake whispered. I melted into his shape, and he pulled me closer. Eventually, I fell asleep.
EPOV
I watched as Bella climbed on the mutt's back and they trotted away. I was still in shock at what Bella had told me. It was all to much to take in. Then I saw what Jacob was doing from Sam's mind. They were running, Bella's face buried in Jacob's fur. She lifted her head slightly and whispered something to Jacob.
"Can you take me to your place instead?" she said and I almost broke down. It meant I couldn't be with her tonight.
The dog stopped before changing courses. Bella touched the fur gently between his shoulder blades and the mutt faltered in step. A shudder went through him and some improper thoughts went through his mind. I snarled and a pup, Paul, gave a barking laugh. Bella frowned, a curious frown, and kissed his fur gently. I curled my hands into fists and punched a nearby rock. It crumbled to pebbles and Emmett came to put a hand on my shoulder. Jacob had now stopped and Bella had slid off him. The dog curled up around her and she stroked behind his ears, smiling slightly. Then the smile slowly slid off her beautiful face and her deep brown eyes filled with tears. Her bottom lip trembled and a small sob escaped her precious lips. After that the tears escaped as well and my dead heart broke. She wrapped her arms around herself, as if to hold herself together. Black whined and nudged her arm softly with his nose. My angel gasped and shook her head. "I'm sorry, Jake. You shouldn't have t-to deal with this." Bella stuttered between her sobs. The dog stood up and Bella bit her lip. A few moments later the connection was lost. Jacob had changed. I collapsed to my knees, Emmett supporting me. The La Push pack barked a chorus of farewells before retreating to their home territory. I hardly noticed. "Oh, Edward." Esme sighed as she switched places with Emmett.
"I need Bella," I whispered.
BPOV
I woke up in Jacob's bed, Jake himself being gone. I pressed my lips together and suppressed a sob. No more crying,
it would solve nothing. I looked down at myself and discovered I was in one of Jake's T-shirts. That was odd, I didn't remember changing. I stood up and slipped on the jeans I had on yesterday. I left Jake's shirt on and slung my other shirt over my arm. I threw my hair in a messy ponytail and walked out of Jake's room and through the living room. Billy looked up from the newspaper and smiled at me. "I'm supposed to give you these," he said and held up my truck keys. I smiled and swooped down to kiss his cheek.
"Thanks, Billy. Tell Jake I'll talk to him later." I said and took the keys from him and bounded out the door. I started my truck, loving the familiar roar of the engine. I drove home wearily, preparing for the wrath of Charlie. I sighed relief when I saw the cruiser wasn't there. I parked and walked to the front door, using the key under the eve. I opened the door and dropped my shoes off in the hallway. I walked upstairs tiredly and dropped my shirt in the dirty clothes basket. Then I sat on my bed and rubbed my eyes. A breeze lifted my hair and I glanced at my window.
It was wide open. I glanced to in front of me and almost jumped.
"Edward," I whispered in relief. I stood, but stopped when I saw the cold look in his eyes. I saw him examining my clothes and I cursed inwardly. I knew how I wood look. My hair in a messy pony and me in Jacob's shirt. Not a very good situation to be in.
"Edward, it's not what it looks like." I pleaded. He shook his head and I froze. "Please," I pleaded. Without warning, he was gone. I threw my hands up in the air and screamed. I kicked my deck and chucked Weathering Heights at my bed. I pounded my fists on the wall until my fists started to bleed and let the frustrated tears spill. I finally just went to the bathroom,
undressed, and got in the shower. Now the memory came back to me, Jake asking me around 1 am if I wanted to change into something more comfotable. He left the room while I had changed. I slid to the floor and curled up in a ball, letting the warm water flow over my aching muscles. Then I got up and stepped out of the shower. I got dressed and went to my room to clean up. Afterwards, I took off the engagement ring and shoved it in my top drawer.
I was walking down the stairs when I caught a look of myself. I gasped and threw a hand over my mouth. I was wearing the exact outfit that I was wearing in my vision. The one where I died. I cursed and flew down the stairs. I ran to my truck and started it quickly I pressed the gas pedal to the floor and arrived at the Cullens house quickly. I ran to the door and knocked. I looked up at the sky and cursed as I saw snow clouds. I knocked hard on the door. A stony Alice stood in the doorway.
"Alice, I--"
"Sorry, I don't talk to cheaters." she interrupted. She went to close the door, but I stuck my foot in the doorway. I moaned as I heard a tiny crack and pain shot up my leg. Alice's eyes widened.
"Please," I asked through my teeth. She grimaced before opening the door and letting me inside. I limped inside and to the couch. The rest of the Cullens filed in and I shook as Edward came in.
"Okay, first things first. Edward, I swear I didn't do anything with Jacob. I'm already broken enough, and you not trusting me? That just broke me." I raised my hands, wrapped in bandages. He winced. "And second, Victoria is going to attack sooner. She's going to attack today. And I'm going to die today."