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Spencer drove home down the long stretch of road. The hills to the right were silhouettes against the darkening sky. To the left were the small houses that were scattered over the plains. Then there was the dust that covered the sides and a bit of the front of his car in small puffs. Spencer never felt so cold then in that exact moment. The memories that he spent years to repress deep into his mind were now being brought back. It brought back the same tears as well.

Flashback

Lulu and Chris were at home while Spencer and Nicole were at the hospital. She was nine months pregnant with their third child. She was in labor and Spencer held her hand and even rubbed her back while she was in intense pain. After many hours, their little Emma was born.

"Oh she's beautiful Spencer" she said weakly.

Spencer's eyes were watery as he saw his baby girl being bundled up in a soft pink blanket by the nurse.

Suddenly Spencer noticed that Nicole was breathing heavily, "Honey…are you ok?"

She didn't respond and the doctor took notice of this as well, "Mrs. Reid?"

She still didn't move or speak; the doctor made Spencer leave and he called for another doctor to come in to the room.

Later that day, the doctor finally came out of the room. Spencer was pacing in the waiting room. He ran over to the doctor, "Please…is my wife alright?"

The doctor sighed, "I'm so sorry Mr. Reid…We couldn't save her. We tried to stop the bleeding but we also found that the labor causes even more serious internal bleeding. I'm so sorry."

Spencer stood rooted to the floor until he collapses to his knees and started to sob. The doctor helped him into a vacant room and got him some water. "Take as much time as you need." It took a while until Spencer was finally able to call his friends and his wife's sister who were watching the children.

About a week later, the funeral was held. Spencer held his newborn baby in his arms while his other children stood next to him holding his legs. The rest of team saw the absolute misery in Spencer's eyes. He held his children close as the coffin was lowered into the grave.

Hotch walked over to Spencer once the funeral ended. Nicole's sister took the children home to give Spencer some time alone. "Reid…I'll give you as much time as you need until you can come back to work…" "I'm leaving the BAU."

Hotch was shocked, "What?"

"Hotch…I'm leaving Virginia. I got a job at a university."

Hotch couldn't believe it but he nodded, "At least…just tell the team before you leave." Spencer nodded.

He did say good-bye but Spencer hasn't talked to the team since then. He just couldn't, it brought back to many bad memories.

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