Lost
Chapter 4
I still own nothing… So sad…. Thank you for all your lovely reviews! It is nice to see a lot of followers from RangeBabe reading this as well as some new readers. To all my RangeBabe fans I hope this story doesn't let you down.
I woke up and Ranger was still asleep next to me. I was shocked normally this man was up before I could even think about rolling over, he did have a really rough day yesterday though, between coming back from being in the wind for 18 months and finding out that his grandmother died I'm sure he needed his rest. Crap I really have to pee but I know if I get up right now I will wake him up. "It's okay Babe I'm awake go to the bathroom." He kissed my temple.
"How long have you been awake?" How does he do that? Just lay there like he is asleep.
"I've been awake for like an hour. It just relaxes me to watch you sleep. Go to the bathroom I'm going to go to the gym." Oh no he doesn't he will not lock himself in the gym again.
"Nope take a day off. I'll call Ella after I go to the bathroom and we can have breakfast together." He started to say something but I cut him off as I walked to the bathroom.
I did my business and called Ella to bring us up breakfast. I was surprised to see that Ranger was still in bed where I left him. "Wow you didn't even move I'm impressed." I said to him as I walked over to his bed. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into bed with him so that I was laying with my head on his shoulder and my arm across his chest.
"I meant what I said last night Babe." Has no idea how long I have waited to hear him say those words without qualifiers. "I'm not leaving again." Oh that part. "You can't get rid of me this time." I couldn't get rid of him when he was in the wind. He started playing with my hand. He seemed nervous. What the hell Ranger doesn't do nervous. "Babe seeing you again was the only thing keeping me going while I was in the wind. I knew you would never forgive me if I didn't come home in one piece. Babe I want someday."
"Okay. You are right I would have never forgiven you if you didn't come back in one piece you are my best friend. What do you mean you want someday?" He squeezed my side and kissed my temple.
"I want a someday with you. I want to kiss you and not just in dark alleys. I want to take you out places and go on vacations with you. Someday I want to marry you and maybe start a family. I don't know how to do any of that Babe. I just know I want it all. I don't want to have to share you anymore I just want you to be mine. Babe I am so lost right now." As he was talking he spoke faster and I could hear the panic rising in his voice. I wiggled out of his arms, straddled his waist and, put my hands on his cheeks.
"Ranger! Please calm down. I am not going anywhere. I love you and I want all those things too. Right now all those things need to be on hold you have a lot you need to deal with. I promise you that we will figure this out together." He seemed to turn back into his normal self. I whispered to him. "I love you and I need you to be okay I will do anything I can to get you through this but I need you to remember I will not run away this time so just talk to me okay."
"Thank you Babe. I love you too. I don't know if I could get through this without you. I will try to remember to talk to you and not push you away." He pulled me down so that my head was resting on his chest and we fell back to sleep for a little while.