Chapter 4: Bad News
I didn't know what else to say to Rikku… except "I'm sorry." I just can't explain myself to her... Damn it I couldn't help it and was just teasin' and playin' around with her..
Now, all I can do now is sit in bed and wonder when this will be over. Is she still mad at me?
"Gippal…?"
I had fallen asleep, and woke up to see Rikku peering over at me. I was surprised she was actually talking to me… and I noticed something wet on my face... tears? Was I crying in my sleep? I also noticed it was 1:00 in the morning. What was I saying so loudly in my sleep to wake up Rikku?
"Are you okay? You were mumbling in your sleep... and tossing and turning.."
I remember now. I had a dream about Rikku. We were sharing a romantic moment at Macalania--- just kissing, and then... when I told her how much I loved her she disappeared and never came back.
This haunted me. If in real life, I told her how I really felt... would I lose her friendship? Would I scare her? Would I just sound like some corny idiot to her? I don't want to lose what I have now.. or what I had, that is, if she doesn't hate me from that little shower incident.
"Rikku, E's cunno..." ("Rikku I'm sorry...") I know I didn't answer her question, but I had to tell her I was sorry again incase she was too frustrated with me earlier to have payed any attention to me.
"..." Silence.
"Umm Rikku... are you... really mad at me?"
"Hmph..." Was all I got.
"Okay, well I just gotta know something-- do you really hate me?"
"Gippal.... of course I don't HATE you! You just... just bug me sometimes and what you did was really mean.."
Ugh. I was relieved, yet still disappointed at myself. It would have been a mere joke if she hadn't stormed out of the room.... well I can't blame her. It wasn't her fault...
"But it's okay, it was really no biggy....can we just forget about what happened yesterday and move on?"
I was surprised at what Rikku had just said.. she made me feel so much better. I was so happy she didn't hate me..
She was so sweet, I guess she could never hate anyone...
Now that I know shes not angry at me I felt more comfortable around her....
"Of course." I said. She looked really sleepy...
I pulled her over to me and embraced her, pressing her head against my chest. It gave me a warm feeling.
That moment I had a strong urge to tell her that I love her so much but I wasn't feeling THAT comfortable--- not enough to tell her how I feel... and besides.. she fell asleep in my arms almost instantly.
I carried her back to her room, tucking her in and taking in one last look at her. Shes so beautiful... I just wanted to stay and watch her sleep.
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The Next Morning...
"Wakey wakey Gippy!"
Yet again, I wake up to Rikku's massive grin and large green eyes peering at me. I could tell she was especially hyper, calling me 'GIPPY??'.. wtf...
"Ummm Cid's girl had a little too much cake yesterday? Its 5:30 AM… plus you've already woken me up a few hours ago."
"Nope! Had just enough! Your getting up early today though!"
I yawned. Damn she had some energy this early in the morning.
"I don't think so..."
I laid my head back down on the pillow, for once trying to avoid Rikku... its just way too early.
As soon as I knew it Rikku pulled the pillow away from me and whacked me in the head with it.
"What the hell was that for Cid's girl?"
"Gippal we have to leave today for Moonflow and be there by 7:00 PM.. thought you might want to wrap up on some work then head there..."
"Oh we sure don't have any time! (sarcasm) 7:00 PM...! Thats like 12 hours from now!"
I paused… huh…? Leaving for Moonflow? Why?
"Uhh…wait... Rikku… what are you talking about?"
"Yunie's party of course! They're engaged and we're all going to celebrate! Plus we need to get you a suit!"
She started prancing around my room in excitement.
"Oh Gippal I can't wait!... I need to start packing too though…"
I rubbed my eyes.
"Uhh Rikku? Packing for what? I thought this was a party not a sleepover..."
"Well... I'm leaving today after the party... I decided to go back to Besaid and stay with Yunie... I miss her lots…"
Right when she said that I became overwhelmed with sadness... I can't believe she was telling me this… telling me she was going to leave me to stay with her cousin.
No. I just can't let her leave... it isn't about the work at the Machine Faction, I want her to be here with me and never leave. Never. I love her and I just can't let her go.
I tried. I tried to think of an excuse to make her stay.... but I just couldn't. I just... I just didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say…
"Gippal? Are you okay with that? I'm sorry I won't be able to help you at the Machine Faction anymore…"
"Its fine. I understand that you want to be with your family. Besides, Cid's girl is just a little troublemaker."
"Thank you!!!" I was teasing her again, apparently this time she didn't care which made me feel... awful. She really did miss her cousin.
She gave me another hug. I was afraid this was going to be the last...
Nah… it won't. I'll make her stay somehow... tonight at the party I'll tell her everything. I have to. I don't want to lose her.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
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