They didn't see each other after their morning events.Bellamy was once again spending his time helping Abby and Clarke and later he hang out with Echo for a few hours.He hoped that Octavia stayed inside and rested,she looked better and Bellamy thought that by tomorrow she should be back to normal.Echo was filling him in with news about Raven who apparently wanted to visit Octavia."Why?"Bellamy questioned.As much as he knew they were never very close.He had his arm wrapped around Echo's shoulder and her head was resting on his shoulder with his head on top of hers.They were sitting under a tree next to the river."She says she wants to see her old friend."She explained"I didn't know they were close."Bellamy was sure that he could feel a little jealousy in Echo's voice. An hour probably passed when they relized that they should head back if they don't want to miss the diner.After they finished their meal Echo went back to her room and Bellamy was greeted by Indra."I see that you have already forgave Clarke and you are still giving her a hard time."He was not in a mood for this."It's diffrent.Clarke..She ra-.."
"Yes.She talked to you everyday for 6 years but did you ever stoped to think that she needed you too."He couldn't believe Indra was defending Octavia after everything.He was about to argue back but then Indra placed a white book on the table.He took the book and examine it.It was one of the books he used to read to his mom and Octavia."Where di-..."Bellamy wanted to know where did she find it,he thought everything was destroyed in the death wave but of course Indra had to interrupt him.
"Do you know how many time I found her crying over this and what she would tell me when I would try to comfort her?She would tell me to go away because she doesn't want me she wants her brother.You think she wanted all of that,the fighting pits,the power.You can't even imagine how hard it was for her.Stop wasting your time."And with that she got up and ended their conversation before Bellamy could even process everything.
When he got back Octavia was of course already sleeping.He didn't feel like going to bed ,Indra's words were still ringing in his head, so he decided to work a little on the drawing he started the other day.He lost the track of time and was brought back to reality when he heard Octavia talking in her sleep.He figured that she was probably having a nightmare.When they were on the Ark she would always talk in her sleep if she was having a nightmare.He wasn't sure if he should wake her up but he didn't even have time to think because in that moment Octavia was already up.She didn't even realised Bellamy was there until he was sitting in front of her."Breath."He told her and took both of her hands in to one of his."It's okay."He tried to calm her down but he wasn't sure what to do.When they were kids and something like this would happen he would just hug her and promise her that nothing bad will happen but she wasn't a child anymore and he wasn't sure how she would react if he even tried to hug her.This Octavia doesn't show her emotions.She builds walls around herself and she pushes away people that care for her,people like Bellamy,because she thinks that will protect her from being hurt.He felt her hands slowly relax and he looked up to meet her gaze.Tears were no longer falling but even a fool could see that she was crying.Her eyes were red and puffy and on her cheeks there were traces of dry tears.
Do you know how many time I found her crying...
She wants her brother...
Stop wasting your time.
Indra's words once again found their way into his head.No matter how hard he tried he couldn't shake off the image of his sister in the bunker crying, all alone,just like she was now but this time she wasn't alone and she needs to now that.Screw this.He said to himself as he pulled Octavia in for a hug.She isn't alone.At least not anymore.From now on he will be there for her even if he can't fully forgive her yet."Octavia,look at me."He said as he broke their hug."I want you to know that you can always talk to me and I know that our relationship is not what it was but I will always be your brother,nothing can ever change that.Even if I can't fully forgive you yet nor can I understand your actions but we will get through this with time and that means no more pushing each other away.Okay?"
Octavia couldn't believe what she was hearing after all this time all she wanted was her brother and now he was willing to let her be apart of his family again.Her eyes were once again filling with fresh tears."Okay."She whispered,she wanted this but she was also scared of opening up about her feelings,of letting people in again."You should go back to sleep now and we can talk more about this in the morning since I'm free tomorrow."Bellamy said before walking away to his bed. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.