With or Without You Chapter 4, a winx club fanfic

I would like to first-off say how sorry I am since it has been so long since I've updated. This chapter has been legit saved in my document, all I needed to do was add a page in word and then viola. Done. I didn't realize that, and the entire time I was thinking I was suffering from major writers block, I guess all I had to do was sit down and write and the words would just flow from my heart and through my hands. I guess this means that I really am growing out of Winx Club because I am struggling to finish my stories and it is breaking my heart that I am growing out of it. Seriously. I had all these plans that are falling through.

Anyways, sorry. I don't own Winx Club

"Wow! Look at the school! It's huge!" Aurora said, staring outside of the window, if she wasn't restrained by the seatbelt she would have had her entire face against the glass and her hands to either side of her face. She seemed in much better spirits since we had arrived, especially with the gift of Riley on the first night a couple of days ago. She leaned back, still eyeing the window, "When do you think bring-your-pet-to-school day is?" She asked with a slight pout.

I smiled, glancing back at her in the rearview mirror. "Sometime soon. I would think, you should ask the teachers." I answered. Every so often, a school would have a week where everyone brought their pets, if they signed a paper agreeing to clean up the mess afterwards. "Alright, girls. This is your stop." I said, stopping the car in the loop in front of the school, already a couple of little kids were playing around the front.

Aurora beamed, unbuckling herself before putting her back pack on and opening the lock of the door before she pushed her door open. Jannette soon followed after her, smiling slightly but not the beam Aurora was wearing. "We'll see you later, mom." Aurora squealed, slamming the door before dragging Jannette to the school. I watched them for a minute, watching how Aurora mingled with the crowd, before pulling out.

I took a sip of green tea, trying to soothe my nerves. It wouldn't do me any good to be nervous when dealing with a new crowd of students. Palladium had done that and that had gotten him pretty teased when it came to a few students. Hopefully, I wouldn't suffer the same fate in my first year of teaching. Hoping to drown out my nerves, I turned on the radio, immediately adjusting the volume. Last time I ever let Robert borrow my car, I mused to myself.

Orientation was set to start in an hour and fifteen minutes. Song after song floated by my ears, the lyrics seemed like a hum. I wasn't even listening to the music, instead thinking and mentally double-checking everything I had planned for today. Including my lesson plan for the first two months. Eventually I found myself pulling into the parking lot of my home, the drive to school was something that would take forever with the many twists and turns and the fact that there wasn't really a place for teacher parking. Most teachers lived in the school.

I walked to the bus stop from my house, watching as the bus turned the corner and stopped in front of me. With a tight grip on my suitcase I stepped on and sat down in a seat towards the back. "I wonder how many years she failed?" A girl whispered a little loudly in front of me to her seat partner. I winced, narrowing my eyes but biting my tongue.

Reaching my stop, I stood up at the same time as at least fifteen other girls and walked to the front of the bus. Alfea was just as I remembered it, beautiful and distinguished. The grass was maintained so that it wasn't tall nor short, the well and walls gleamed with the clean spell, it provided a sense of home and comfort. I sighed wistfully, so many memories came with the grand appearance, a mix of good and bad memories. But it made me miss my time here, it had been so long.

"Flora!" Mrs. Griselda said, adjusting her glasses. "I didn't expect to see you so soon. How have you been over the years?" She inquired, blatantly ignoring the line of girls in front of her for a moment. She hadn't changed much since the last time I saw her, aside from a few silver streaks that popped out in her hair.

I smiled, "It's good to see you too Mrs. Griselda. Wow, it has been so long, I almost forgot what this place looked like." I said, glancing around, hoping to spot Mrs. Faragonda in the few students that already were here. "How have you been?" I asked instead, not wanting to be rude. While yes, Mrs. Griselda was a bit rude on a number of occasions, it was still good to see her.

"I have been great, aside from dealing with the young ladies that have come through here." Her eyes crinkled slightly, as she smirked at the line in front of her. "Mrs. Faragonda is in her office, she wants to see you." She said before returning her attention fully to the almost-angry student in front of her.

"See you later Mrs. Griselda." I waved before walking the familiar path to the school. "I guess I've really missed this place." I mused to myself, opening the front door and slipping into the school. The room was empty, aside from some furniture on the hallways and pictures and mirrors on the walls. But otherwise, the room was quiet, bare of people, even teachers were either inside their classrooms or outside greeting students. After a few second my feet took me to her office, a familiar path I had walked hundreds of times before. "Mrs. Faragonda? Can I come in?"

"Enter." Her voice was almost muffled from the door but I still heard it and opened the door. Mrs. Faragonda was seated at her desk, an open book in front of her. She glanced up from her book, a smile tilting up her lips. "Flora! I'm so delighted to see you again." Mrs. Faragonda hadn't changed at all, she still had a motherly air surrounding her and her appearance had only gained a wrinkle or two.

I took a seat across from her. "It's good to see you too, Mrs. Faragonda." I smiled. She gently closed the book in front of her, pushing it off to the side. I settled my briefcase on the floor, I would go to my room later though. Not so much right now, since I really did want to see Mrs. Faragonda again, face to face. A pang of regret stung at my chest but I ignored it, I knew I should have said good-bye to her but I had been so caught up in grief.

"You've grown into a fine woman." She complimented. "Oh, and please call me Fara. We are going to be working together aren't we?" She said. "How has have you been? Tell me everything that has been going on." Fara said, wringing her hands before she clasped her hands together, settling her elbows on the desk.

"Well, for starters. I gave birth to two baby girls. Aurora Daisy Natura and Jannette Rose Natura." I took a picture out of my wallet and handed it to her, it was a picture from last Christmas. "My cousin, Robert, is the one dressed as an elf." I pointed to him as she raised an eyebrow at him before smiling once she realized his costume. "I've been living in a small planet far from here and working as an assistant veterinarian."

Fara smiled, handing the picture back to me as I put it back in my wallet for safe keeping. "Have you been practicing your magic?" She asked as I nodded my head, when I had a spare moment I would teach the girls a little about magic. So far, we were struggling to find the source of their power but it was fun with them, we always had fun doing so. "Good, now I know you aren't planning on having any interactions with them anytime soon but Tecna does manage the simulation chamber." She said as I froze before slowly nodding my head.

I had sort of figured they would be working here but it still scared me to be seeing them again, especially every day. Luckily, it was only Tecna that I would have to see but that still hurt, even if we hadn't been that close. It stung that she had betrayed me like that, betrayed my trust. "Does anyone else work here?" I asked, biting my lip. There was still a part of me that wanted to run, to never have to face my past but that wasn't right. Nor was that fair to my other friends.

Fara shook her head, "No, but they do come by often. I'll warn you when they are visiting so that you don't have to go through too much pain and shock when you see them again." She said, before attempting a smile. "I also need your new number, since you changed it when you, well, moved." Fara said, for once struggling to find the words to describe what happened. "So, you live in Cherrywood?" She raised a questioning eyebrow since I could live in the school if I wished but I didn't want to force my girls to be in this school.

Especially, if they were going to be visiting frequently. I nodded, biting my lip. "I hope that isn't a problem. It's just, well, I want to be close to Aurora and Jannette's school so that they don't have to wake up early to catch the bus and so Jannette isn't overwhelmed by all of the students here." I said, folding my arms neatly in my lap. Fara seemed to accept that answer but there was still a knowing look in her eyes that showed that she knew one of the major reasons I didn't want to be here.

Instead of forcing the subject, she let it drop, a smile tilting up her lips. "Well, I am so happy to see you again." A pinging noise erupted from her phone and she picked the device up, "Sorry, but Tecna is coming to talk to me about a few things." She said, an apologetic smile crossing her feature. "They are also in the school." Fara continued in a low voice as I nodded, getting a small note out of my suitcase and writing down my number with a green pen.

"Thank you for the information Fara, I'll talk to you later." I said, picking up my briefcase and waving slightly before walking out of the room. Once I was far enough away from the room and towards my classroom I sagged slightly, rubbing my temple with my free hand. "This is going to be a disaster." I muttered to myself, opening the door to the classroom and walking to the desk in the center of the front of the room.

The classroom had many chairs and tables in the corner of the room, allowing me to place them wherever I needed to, there was a large bookcase in the back containing written potions and spells. Behind the empty desk in the front, the only thing that hinted at it being a teacher's desk was the slightly larger size, was a screen that took up most of the wall. There were a few windows leading to the sideview of the forest and the small arched walls that laid out the gardens.

I placed my suitcase next to the desk, unzipping it and allowing the items inside to float out and enlarge. Four binders floated into one drawer of the desk and stacks of paper floated into another drawer. I placed my laptop off to the side of the desk next to an ivy can of pencils and allowed materials to float towards the back. "Hello?" Another voice asked, someone opening the door. I allowed the things to settle and glanced over to the door, "Flora! I haven't seen you in years." Dufour said, pushing open the door.

"It's good to see you too Professor Dufour." I smiled as the woman smiled back, walking further into the room. "I've been meaning to ask where Palladium is?" I asked, remembering that he had been the potionology teacher, the topic had been rolling around in my mind since I accepted the job.

"He got a job teaching magical weapons classes instead and he is the head of security." Dufour answered, waving a dismissive hand. "Fara did mention getting someone new, I never thought that it would be you that was taking his place." She said as she glanced around the room. I smiled, for a moment when I heard the door open I thought that it was Tecna, for whatever reason just poking her head.

I shrugged, Faragonda must have been planning this for months, she probably knew I would accept the job. "Well I did just recently accept the job. How have you been over the years?" I asked. Everyone was probably wondering why I left, and it was doubtful that Fara had told them all the reason, but maybe they had pieced it together, especially when Helia started dating Crystal.

"I've been good." She said, "Oh, and just called me Dufour, professor makes me feel old, especially when by one of my fellow teachers." Dufour said. She clasped her hands together, "I better be going, I still have a classroom to organize, I hope to catch up with you later Flora." Dufour said before she gracefully left the room. I slouched slightly, before using my magic to organize the desks into small groups of six.

Six, we had been a group of six. We had saved the universe so many times. A multitude of memories flashed in front of my eyes before I sighed and schooled myself. Everything reminded me of my ex-friends. Everything. "Get out of my head." I whispered to myself, but their imprint never left my heart. I needed to stop reminding myself of them, I had a life before them and I can definitely have a life after them.

If only it was that easy.

"It is so wonderful to meet all of you, I can't wait to get to know each and every one of you this year. Welcome to the Alfea college for fairies." Mrs. Faragonda said into the microphone atop the stage in the courtyard. I sighed, remembering when she had given us a similar speech years ago. "Every single one of you has the power and the ability to be grand, work hard and your dedication will reward you brightly. Once you graduate from here you can become guardian fairies of your home realms, you can invest yourself into a medical field, and any field you like. You can be a warrior or a fairy godmother who looks out for other fairies. But, I am getting ahead of myself." Fara said with a light smile as a few students giggled. "To join me on the stage is a group of five very special fairies. The Winx."

I couldn't restrain the gasp or the tears that leapt to my eyes. This was too much, seeing them again was too much. Fara cast me a sympathetic look, mouthing the word 'sorry' before she turned her head to look at my former friends. They hadn't changed much since last time I saw them, maybe more mature but they still had the same air around them.

"Thank you for the warm introduction Faragonda." Bloom said taking the microphone extended to her. "Hello everyone and I am so pleased to meet all of you." Her eyes scanned over the crowd of students. I shivered, I didn't hate them but right now I didn't feel so hurt anymore, I felt almost furious that they dared to pretend that I never even existed. Some friends. "I am not going to say being at Alfea is the easiest journey ever, it's not. There will be struggles, whether it be in classes, in love, and even in responsibilities. But Alfea is such a spectacular place since it helps us to grow into who we want to be, because here we can learn about ourselves and who we are meant to be. Welcome to Alfea and I hope that your journey here will be amazing." Bloom said as a round of applause rose out from the crowd.

"I have a question." A fairy yelled out, once the applause was over. "I thought there were six of you. Why are there only five of you now?" Many other fairies voiced their agreement with the statement as I crossed my arms, wondering what the girls were going to say in retrospect. "I heard somewhere that you betrayed her." Another fairy yelled as well. A part of me wanted to be touched that these strangers were grilling my former friends for information about why they betrayed me and calling them out. On the other hand, I almost felt bad for them.

Stella took the microphone, smiling cheerily. Her fake smile. "The sixth Winx would love to be here today but unfortunately she had other plans." She lied smoothly. I quirked an eyebrow, but didn't say anything as the Winx hurried off the stage. I didn't want to deal with the confrontation that would come along with the announcement that I was here, but I was also slightly angry.

How dare they pretend we are still friends?

By the time I went to pick up the girls, my anger had simmered to little sparks rather than the enormous flame that could engulf an entire planet it had been earlier. I eased on the brakes, putting the hover car into the park and feeling the slight movement as the floating vehicle lowered itself to the ground to allow the girls to get in. Two bags of fast food laid on the passenger seat, napkins clustered haphazardly underneath to prevent stain.

I checked the clock in the car, before returning my attention back to the small cluster of students by the front doors. A familiar bob of dark blue hurried through the crowd and I spotted Aurora dragging Jannette to the car, occasionally stopping to talk to someone. Quirking an eyebrow, I stared at the scene in amusement, waiting for the girls to notice I was here. Aurora spotted me and made a beeline for the car, continuing to drag Jannette with her.

"Mom!" Aurora exclaimed, once she opened the door and Jannette crawled in, sitting in the seat behind me as Aurora slammed the door, waving a farewell to a few other kids. "I had the best day. I meant so many people and everyone was so nice, there were a few snobby kids but that was fine. Other than the fact that the school load was annoying"-she paused briefly to roll her eyes-"I had so much fun."

I laughed at her excitement, "Would chicken nuggets, french fries, and a milkshake make it any better." I said dangling a bag in front of the two girls. Aurora was quick to grab the bag, clumsily taking out the food and ketch-up packets before handing the brown paper bag to Jannette. Instead of rushing, Jannette calmly took out her food along with a few napkins. I grabbed the two small cups of milkshakes and handed them to the girls. "How was your day, Jannette?" I asked, putting the hover car into drive as it picked itself off of the ground.

Jannette smiled slightly. "It was fine." She said in a quiet voice, shrugging her shoulders, as she took a small sip of her vanilla milkshake. In the rearview mirror, I noticed an all-too familiar blush coloring her cheeks. As she was getting older her hair started to darken, but only slightly, it was still a honey blonde but soon it would probably be a dirty blonde, but still with that honey blonde in it.

Aurora rolled her eyes, snapping me out of my imagination, "During recess a boy talked to her and they played by the forest." She said as Jannette lowered her head, her face turning a bright pink going more towards red by the minutes.

I wiggled my eyebrows. "Oh, a boy. What did he look like?" I asked, stopping at a red light, I didn't turn around since sometimes the lights changed incredibly fast and sometimes they changed slow, it really depended on how heavy traffic was.

Jannette opened her mouth but Aurora cut her off. "Well from what I saw he has curly blonde hair with tannish skin and cyan blue eyes." Aurora said, tapping her chin thoughtfully as Jannette covered her face with her hands. My eyes widened, that combination sounded way too familiar, like a younger version of a familiar specialist. Probably just a coincidence. Hopefully. "Anyways, I think his name was Carter or something like that."

I almost slammed on the brakes, Bloom had been pregnant before I left and had mentioned that name for her child. No. A faint voice whispered. This has to be some odd coincidence that a young boy that looks like a younger version of a familiar specialist with the same name Bloom wanted to give her son goes to school here. But logic suggested not. Swallowing my shock and worry I smiled. "I think that is amazing, as long as you tell me everything that happens." I teased.

Aurora giggled, sticking her tongue out at Jannette as Jannette slightly rolled her eyes before returning her attention to her fries. "Hey mom." Aurora poked her head in between the two front seats. "Can you play some music?" She asked as I nodded and turned the volume on for the radio. Aurora grinned and began singing along with the music occasionally poking at Jannette as Jannette joined in with her.

I smiled in the rearview mirror. My girls.

It was really late, my mind informed me as I resisted the urge to yawn for the second time in the past minute. I glanced forlornly at the stairs, the girls had gone to bed almost two hours ago and they had been peaceful ever since, and even now I could almost picture my bed calling out for me. But, I had to finish my lesson plan for Alfea. Tomorrow was the start of classes and being unprepared was not something that I wanted to do, especially on the first day.

So far, I knew that the first thing was an introduction to potionology, a simple and easy unit that would take a couple of weeks or so give or take. That lesson would cover the effects of potions, telling the difference between good and bad potions, avoiding bad potions, what can be and shouldn't be mixed, and being prepared. The next lesson was going to take longer considering we had a few labs and would basically be using what we have learned for more simple potions and testing these potions.

I sighed, running a hand through my hair and tapping my chin thoughtfully, granted it was late at night, when my brain wasn't fully accurate, I still needed to get this done. I had to make sure I had time for the girls so I wouldn't become one of those workaholic moms that isn't close with her children. My phone buzzed, and I lifted it up and pressed the answer button. "Hey Mrs. Faragonda. What are you doing up so late?" I answered.

She chuckled. "I would ask you the same thing Professor Flora." She said as I giggled. "I understand that I didn't exactly give you some magic requirements for class and wanted to tell you some things to do. Do you have some paper near you?" She asked as I put my phone on the table and transferred it to video mode as a holograph of the woman appeared in front of me. Faragonda smiled, putting her phone on the desk as well.

"How did you know? Are you a mind reader?" I asked jokingly, but remembered to keep my voice quiet, I would hate to wake the girls. I got out a few pieces of paper and a green and pink pen before writing down Potionology on the top of the paper and glancing at Mrs. Faragonda to show that I was ready for whatever she had to say.

"Well I am a fairy godmother, so I do know when people are stressed." She answered, offering a warm smile before she got out a piece of paper and glanced down at it through her spectacles. She began to read off the list as I copied down the required units she requested, I would organize them when I was more awake. Once we finished with that conversation we both put out lists in a safe place, me putting mine in a green flowery folder and her putting hers in a plain folder with a single bottle on it before putting it out of sight.

I sighed, my mind reverberating back to the speeches made earlier, especially the one with the Winx. "I know you said they would be there, but I didn't think that it would be so soon and feel like that." I said as Fara sighed, giving me a sympathetic look. I wiped away a few traitorous tears and forced a smile. "But, I think I can handle it. I just don't know what I am going to do once my daughters see the girls, and vice versa. Or about the other thing." I said, burying my face in my hands.

I didn't trust myself to mention the fact of Helia seeing the girls, because it was going to happen eventually, but the question was, how? Would it be as angering as this afternoon? Or would it be more painful. Fara sighed. "Your path is not an easy one Flora. But, I do know that everything is going to be ok." She said comfortingly, as I sighed and lifted my face up from my hands.

"Thank you Fara." I whispered, breathing in and breathing out all the worries and frustrations that had ignited in my mind the minutes I realized that once everyone met, it would be a very difficult time.

She smiled. "I'm glad to help. Now off to bed, you have a busy day tomorrow." She said as we both hung up, I stood up, turning the light off and began to creep up the stairs. Nudging the door open with my shoulder, I glanced down at Aurora, who was sound asleep clutching a stuffed animal, before closing the door. I tip-toed across the hall and nudged Jannette's door open, she was asleep but there were lines creased into her forehead.

Sighing, I watched my daughter, trying to figure out what I had done to make her so worried. I eased the door closed, before walking to my room and quickly brushing my teeth before sliding into my own bed. The bed was comfortable and welcoming, but I still couldn't sleep, everything rolling around in my head. Rumbling like a thunderstorm prevented me from the sleep my body needed.

I rested my arms underneath my head, staring at the empty ceiling with shadows dancing across the ceiling, I shivered, somehow the dark reminded me of scarier times. But, then, I had my friends to help me and a man loved. Now, I have to protect my beautiful daughters, but I don't have the help that I need. Or want.

"Good morning girls." I greeted the students, watching as they walked in through the door, they all were chatting eagerly with each other, some fast friends comparing schedules and getting to know each other. I stifled a yawn, this was the second lesson of the day and everyone seemed tired, well they had last class, now they seemed lit up with new excitement. Luckily, no one had recognized me.

A student raised her hand, a confused look on her face. "Excuse me. Aren't you Flora from the Winx?" She asked. I spoke too soon. Suddenly the attention was not on them getting to know each other but the fact that I was here instead. I smiled, hoping not an ounce of my nerves flashed across my face, walking around my desk.

"Yes. We'll get started in a few minutes once everyone is here." I said, glancing at the door as a few students drizzled in. The students went back to talking to each other, curious eyes and whispers burning on my face and in my ears. The bell rang and a few girls jumped with startled laughs. "Alright." I said, walking over to the door and peeking out to catch the last few students before shutting the door. "Welcome to Potionology everyone." I said, "Please sit down in a seat of your choice."

Immediately a few students sat down but others remained talking to their peers, I cleared my throat loudly giving them a stern look as they sat down as well. One of the girls raising her hand, "Why isn't Professor Palladium here?" she inquired, a snobby note lilting her voice as her swarm of friends nodded in agreement.

I narrowed my eyes, "Professor Palladium is the teacher of advanced defense now since he is one of the few teachers that know how to use a sword. If you would like, you can sign up for his class later with Mrs. Faragonda." I answered her question. "Now, may I begin my introduction?" Quirking an eyebrow, I glanced at the students. Nobody raised their hand. "Great. Potionology is basically trying to get an understanding of potions and how the laboratory works, how to tell which potions based on ingredients will have positive effects and negative effects. This year, you will be introduced to what to do in the lab and what not to do-"

The snobby girl from earlier yawned loudly. "That is so boring. We don't need to know the basics. I want to do actual potions not do baby stuff like learn what is good or bad." She wrinkled her nose.

I crossed my arms, "Based on your attitude I don't think you are grown up enough to handle doing basic potions. Unless you want to do the 'boring' stuff longer than I recommend you don't disrupt my class." I said, I was not about to be pushed around by my students, they were not in their kingdoms, they were not in charge here anymore. Granted it was a little harsh, but it was necessary since they needed to realize that their imaginary pegs were just that. Imaginary.

She glared, sticking her nose up in the air. "I am Princess Cassie of Demendos, do teach me with respect. And you are supposed to be the nice one of the stupid Winx Club." Cassie said, haughtiness in her voice as she declared her title.

"This is not your kingdom. This is my classroom and I am in charge here so you will treat me with respect." I said. "Now." I smiled. "Once we are done with the boring stuff of getting into the topic we will be doing plenty of labs. But, don't get too excited young ladies, you have to pass the final test of the introduction to be able to participate. Right now, I want to know a little about you and of course what you know about potions." I said, picking up a thin stack of papers and passing them out. "If you don't feel comfortable answering some questions or don't know the answer than you don't have to answer but I would like for you to try your best."

A student in the front raised her hand and I nodded to her, "Are we allowed to work in partners?" She inquired as a few of the self-proclaimed mean girls shot her dirty looks and she sunk back into her seat.

"For fifteen minutes I want you to try your best before I will allow you to work in partners." I answered, sitting on the desk and creating an alarm clock with some magic and setting a timer for fifteen minutes. "Get started." I nodded towards them and took out a few of the packets remaining from the first period and started grading them. The rest of the class passed by uneventfully, once the fifteen minutes was up, everyone went back to their group of friends.

The day passed by uneventfully, there were always students that were like Cassie, at least one or two in each period. Aside from that small event, there wasn't much else. When lunch time rolled around, I got out my packed lunch and continued to complete some of the packets. Which only really took fifteen minutes and then speedily went to the secret greenhouse. Sighing, I turned the key for the last period class's paperwork, before placing it in my briefcase.

"Afternoon Flora." Faragonda greeted, walking into the room, she was smiling, the smile lines around her eyes crinkling. She glanced around the room for a minute, "I was surprised that I didn't see you during lunch, although the Winx and Specialist were there, which is completely understandable if you're not ready to deal with the drama that comes with seeing them again." She said, "Although they flip-flop between which school they will eat lunch in, so I'll let you know when they will and won't be there."

The offer sounded tempting, getting a chance to work here without facing an encounter with my ex-best friends was what my heart wanted to do. It meant nothing risky yet. "As much as I appreciate the offer, I don't think I want to know when they will and won't be here. It's been more than five years since we last saw each other, I'm over hiding." I said, latching my school-suitcase closed.

Faragonda's smile got even wider, "I'm so glad you said that. It means that nothing they say or do will bother you. Although I should warn you that Krystal and Helia are in fact together, but he hasn't asked her to marry him, yet." She said, a hint of sadness entering her eyes. "It's hard to look at him or Saladin without being reminded of what chased you away."

I placed a comforting hand on her shoulder. "I'm not going to run away anymore. No matter what." I promised, although my heart stung at how Helia continued to date Krystal, knowing that it was exactly the reason I left. "I've got to go get the girls from preschool. I'll see you tomorrow Fara." I said, picking my suitcase up and waving with my open hand before walking out the door. Faragonda following me. I might bump into the girls and guys right now, and that did make me feel a little nauseous but I'm tired of running, tired of hiding from the past.

I meant what I said, no more running.