Big Time Test

by Kailynn Sanchez

All the guys are super close friends, and are always there for each other. They can't live without eachother. But what happens when one commits suicide and has a secret that goes with him?

4. Chapter 4

"I know where you hide, alone in your car." ~Maroon 5, "She Will be Loved"

POV: James Diamond

After Kendall got up and left, Logan did, too. I was left all alone in the living room with a blanket, a few pillows, and my lonely self.

I tucked my knees to my chest and leaned against the back of the couch. I stayed there for what felt like forever. I never moved or got up. I barely breathed.

Someone dropped a blanket over me. I didn't know who. They said something, but I couldn't hear it. Everything was a blur around me.

At night, I let everything go. I let my tears fall. I let my lungs try to stop working and my heart try to stop beating. Nothing worked. If suicide was just so easy for Carlos, why wasn't it easy for me?

I needed to get out of this life. Knowing that Carlos was actually dead was too much for me. And once I was gone, I was sure that Kendall and Logan would follow soon after me.

BTRBTRBTR

I held the knife in my hands.

Goodbye, life.