Shattered Dawn

Chapter Four: Sleep away the Pain

That day, Sakura suddenly found herself cold. It was lunchtime, and she was shivering madly at a lunch table. She was sitting alone and didn't quite care. She gave off something of a 'Just leave me alone' vibe, and no one really wanted to test the new girl's limits. She rested her head down on the table. She was faintly aware of all the germs that were currently crawling onto her head.

Somewhat, Sakura wondered what the germs and bacteria would look like when or if she shone some kind of ultraviolet light or something along those lines. There was no doubt in Sakura's mind that it would be gorgeous. The pinkette sighed angrily as her body continued shuddering in an attempt to keep itself warm.

Why was she so cold? It made no sense whatsoever?

"You know, ramming your head against a table takes away brain cells, not multiply them." A smooth voice said.

The cold girl looked up, expecting to see Uchiha Sasuke, but instead found herself looking into the lavender eyes of Neji Hyuuga. Sakura tilted her head, an angry scowl painted across her pretty face.

"What?" she snapped.

Neji smirked at her before sitting down just across from her. A green apple in his hand, Neji Hyuuga seemed to enjoy annoy her. He took a bite from his apple and looked at her plainly.

"Why are you here?" she asked coolly, emerald eyes peeking out of a veil of pink.

Neji shrugged absentmindedly.

"The girls and Naruto were worried and wanted to know what was wrong with you and why you were sitting here." He replied.

Sakura sat up correctly and smirked at Neji. Hands folded in her lap; Sakura turned her head and saw the table full of the people who were her 'friend's. She turned back to face Neji and cocked her brow.

"Wow. Twenty one words in a single sentence. If only the Uchiha would speak that much. Maybe then people wouldn't think her was emo or gay." Sakura said smoothly.

Neji smirked as he took a bite out of his apple and nodded. He got up from his seat across from Sakura and started towards the other side of the cafeteria. He sat down just beside Tenten and took another bite of his apple.

"Well?" he heard Ino ask impatiently.

Neji smirked and swallowed his bite of apple easily.

"She's a perfect little disaster. She's fine." He replied evenly.

The brunette boy then turned to the stoic Uchiha boy, a smirk painted on his lips.

"I didn't know you were considering going emo, Uchiha."

The Hyuuga boy's cue to shut up, was a flying spork that snatched two caramel hairs from his head.

A perfect little disaster, Sasuke thought.

What could the Hyuuga boy possibly mean by that? How could a disaster be perfect and little? It was obvious that he had completely missed the true meaning of the metaphor the Hyuuga boy gave her.

No one was perfect, no matter how hard they tried. In the pursuit of perfection, everything was lost. It was a mission that always lost in vain. The Uchiha boy knew this first hand. His home life was proof enough of that.

But Sasuke shook his head and the thoughts in his mind with them. He decided to let Neji's words speak for themselves, and he'd sleep away the intense feeling of not knowing what he wanted to know of Haruno Sakura.

Choppy, violent, unafraid, Sakura stood still in the student parking lot as people drove all around her. She didn't know why she had decided to just stand there. It seemed like something of an addiction, staring danger in the face. A lovely addiction.

Sakura sighed heavily after yet another horn honked at her. She rolled her eyes, and after shoving her hands into her pockets Sakura began walking towards her home. Luckily, she saw no Ino in sight. In perfect honesty, Sakura rather disliked the girl. She was nice some of the time, but the way she just talked, and talked, and talked was something that Sakura hated of the girl's personality.

In any case, the girl left something to be desired from Sakura, and that was the honest to God truth.

As she continued on her way home, the chilling feeling that she was being watched once more tickled itself onto her skin. Looking over her shoulder every ten paces, Sakura soon got something of a jittery feeling in her blood. The pink haired girl groaned and ran a hand through her bangs before she walked just a little bit faster.

When she decided to stop suddenly, Sakura heard exactly what she wanted to hear: stumbling footsteps.

Turning quickly on her heel, Sakura looked around, but only saw a huffing and puffing Ino who blew right past her to get back to the O.C.

"Paranoia," she mumbled, "Is an irritating state of mind."

Unlocking the door to her apartment, Sakura soon locked the door behind her and walked into her room. She was tired for some reason, but didn't want any sleep.

Why did she insist on staying indoors? The world outside was calling to her, calling out wildly. It would be a shot in the dark to go out, fully aware of the fact that she hadn't the slightest clue as to where she would go. And that just added to the fact that she could possibly get caught by anyone looking for her.

Sakura groaned heavily before she finally snapped. Anger and hate and rage coursed through her system, and unbridled adrenaline flew through her veins. She threw her backpack at the nearest wall to her and began knocking things over onto the floor.

She screamed out loudly, not caring if anyone heard her.

She ran around wildly, flipping over furniture and throwing books all around. Suddenly feeling uncomfortable and hot, she ripped off her school uniform in a blind rage. Sakura ran into her kitchen and took every plate she could find and threw it down onto the floor.

Some of the plates shattered onto her feet, and cuts burned angrily on her feet. Something sane within her told her to stop before it was too late. But Sakura didn't want to stop just yet. She wanted to cause as much destruction as possible. She was in pain and anger was burning in her system.

She screamed out again and again, and soon enough there were loud knocks at her door and people yelling out her name. She ignored it all and screamed out long string of profanities before she spun around. She danced on broken dishes before she smiled cheerily and began tearing out the glasses from the cabinets.

And slowly on her path of destruction, Sakura smiled as she jumped up and danced on the counters as she plucked glasses from the cabinets. She spun on the counter and laughed round and around and around and finally jumped off the counter. She threw them down onto the kitchen floor and spun around laughing and screaming maniacally.

But it wasn't enough. Just like it was never enough. Tears spiraled angrily down her face as she spun and laughed and sang.

"And if I die tonight, I just won't give a damn!" she sang out in a cheery sing-song voice.

Then, Sakura fell down and laughed. She rolled around, allowing large shards of glass to poke and prod her skin. She bleeds from every point on her body and she laughed at it. Blood seeped onto her undergarments and matted her hair. Glass clung angrily to her, as if it were an intimate lover that wished not for her to leave.

Sakura could only smile and giggle. This was fun!

But then, in something of a sharp slap of clarity, Sakura stood and walked across the glass. She stood in her bathroom and ruffled around for a pair of tweezers and soon began plucking out glass and shards of plate from everywhere she could find them. She breathed heavily before she finally fell down onto the overturned couch.

"Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe? Could somebody rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed?" she asked as she sang to herself

And that night, naked and bleeding, Sakura slept away the pain. And as darkness engulfed her entire being, there was a smile in the night.

Soon enough, my pet, he thought.

Soon enough.

I have no idea where this thing even came from. I just got an idea and I started writing. it was as simple as that. i don't like it very much, but i was told that it was good.

hope you enjoyed this, if only a little bit!!

the ending song lines were 'Anything but Ordinary' by Avril Lavigne.