Part 4

Clarke side:

Her wound is deep but I tryed to do my best, I ask to Jaha some ustensils for healing her. I can't talk to him like to a Commander, he has changed. We all did, but I think that he's son's death killed him from inside more than he let it show. I looked up at Kexa and she was sleeping, yep she was sleeping. Her soft long hair leaning on her chest, she look so inocent, like a seventeen girl that she was. In that moment i feel like i have to protect her, like her safety depends on my act because I have to protect her. I suprised myself starring at her lips, when she spoke:

"You didn't tell me how did you get here and what have you done after that I betrayed you"

Her hard words taking me from my dreams and i pull myself back, onto the wall in front of her.

"I try to do my best for you leg"

"Thank you" She said softly.

"I killed them" I said before few long minutes of silence.

"What ? Who did you suppose haved kill?" She question me.

"The mountain mens, when you go away from me and my people, I decide to don't give up and keep fighting so I join Octavia, Bellamy, Monty, Jasper and Maya to save my poeple, killing the Mountain mens"

"You didn't kill them Clarke, You save a lot of lives, explain me what happend"

I couldn't tell her eveything but a part of me wanted to share this and maybe, yes it's crazy but maybe will she understand... So I decide to explain her everything without lies, just the truth.

I realized at the end of my story that I was crying and that Lexa was up even with her hurting leg.

I looked at her with wet eyes.

She betrayed me, yes she did but I don't know its weird, of course its horrible to betrayed someone but she has to protect her people, I have done it in the last second when i don't have other choice but she had ! I was angry at her of course but in that moment i just wanted someone who can listen to me and just comfort me. So I go to Lexa and she came closer to me and said:

"You're not a horrible person Clarke, You are a person who have save many lives and who always want to help everybody but some people are maybe not enough open-minded and its not your fault ! You give them a choice and they didn't take it, you are not the wrong person Clarke"

Now I was against her, crying on her shoulder, she hold me so tied and I hold her too. Without the armor, it was different, I mean i never really hug her but she seems more like a human now. I felt her breathing, I fell her skin and her bones, I feel like she is supporting me and all my problems. That if I fall, she will always be there. I was stopped in my thoughts when she grab my head in her hands and tell me looking in my eyes so strong:

"You are a good person Clarke, and you'll always be".

The seconds that came after that were so long so she kissed me, on the foreground. A part of me wanted to kissed her on her lips but I couldn't, I just couldn't it was too early, and she didn't kissed me on the mouth too and i respect her for resecting me.

So we just hug here for a long time.

When she put herself back, i was empty, Its like something missed and I wanted to hold her again but she sat. I almost forget about her leg ! It has to hurt her so bad! But she just lean against the wall and tell:

"You can come Clarke, I will not eat you" A little smirk appears on her face.

"I hope you won't" I tell her before puting myself next to her, her head on my shoulder.

I was happy and my heart seems too.

I fall asleep with my head against hers.

When I woke up I was leaning on the ground with so many space.

"Lexa !" I ask anxious

"Lexa !?" I was now standing and searching all over the place, but no sign of her.

I started freaking out because that mean they take her ! Even with the deal I made with this crazy Jaha.

He take her and he wanted to kill her ! I can't permit that ! I have to found her.

I was now beating the door and screaming her name. When The door opened Lexa fall on me, and Jaha said:

"Our deal is cancel"

Before the door closed.