Hello again!
I know ive been doing about one chapter per day but this might not be forever
I have a lot of this things coming up so expect the uploading to be slower gradually, but I promise I love this story too much to abandon it. I will finish it!
Story starts from Genji's perspective
Why was she being so close? He didnt mind it at all, in fact it made him feel more comfortable since he didnt really 'know' any of the other overwatch members yet, though Reinhardt seems to have taken kindly to his arrival, unlike his friend Torbjorn, who flat out had refused to sit with a "dangerous machine"
he couldnt blame him though, his appearance was already frightening, and the fact he was basically the most deadly man alive didnt help, but even then, most overwatch member's had gladly accepted his joining into their ranks
"its always good having more heroes in this world"
he remembered Angela saying to him when he had brought up his concerns to her on the hoverbird. As he filled his plate with food, what food he picked was trivial as he couldnt really taste, but he stuck to soups and basic solids, they had quite a variety of food from all over the world, but alas, he couldnt enjoy it.
He returned to the table where a familiar blonde sat waiting for him to join the conversation as he was walking back, he noticed something he really hadnt earlier.
'how much had she eaten? She looked so fragile and petite, I can see as to why Reinhardt has his concerns'
she hadnt even touched her small plate of banana pudding and toast, it seemed she only had it there to keep suspicion down. Genji, however saw through her shenanigans, he had dealt with so many women, he knew the telltale signs of things like anorexia. It was very commonplace in japan as they had a biase towards very small and skinny women, often times young women would resort to just not eating to keep their "anime figure"
after all she had done for him, he only wanted to seek for ways to help her.
this was when he decided to be his gaurdian angel's gaurdian angel, it was obvious no one here was catching on to what she was doing, and by how she cried on him the other night, he could only guess as to her true sadness. He thought back to the words he said to Reinhardt
'i will protect her with my life'
why did he have to just while they where on their mission? He owes his life to her, and even more, and so the ninja was dead set. He wouldnt let the doctor come to harm, he would do anything and everything he could to make sure she stayed safe, after all, it was the least he could do in his eyes.
Though getting her to comply to this was an impossibility, but hey, he was a ninja, so he could just do it in secret, she would never even have to know about her guardian. He sat down next to the blonde, and started eating his food, a loud thump was heard at the table where Reinhard had sat, Genji looked over and was baffled
'how could a single man even eat that much food?'
Reindhardt had retrieved practically the entire buffet and was already a quarter way through devouring it.
"jesus Reinhardt, I may literally be an animal, but even I dont eat that much'
said an also astonished ape. Reinhardt Flexed his mightiest flex and stated in thundering pride
"to be a war machine like me! You must feed yourself only the best! Most nutritious food! My diet calls for 5000 calories a day, as I will soon be departing on some Glorious wartime missions, I must gather all of my strength!"
he said mightily flexing again.
"holy bollocks love, 5000? must be one hell of a mission then?"
"indeed my small british friend! It will be me and a squad of 20 including jack, defeating over 1000 of the last bastion units at the frontier in Berlin, it is my time to protect my home from the war bots!"
genji could not be more amazed at the strength of overwatch members, 1000 bastions to 20 members? That was insane! Fuck, maybe he wasnt the deadliest thing here after all.
He felt a nudge on his shoulder from a familiar blonde
"Genji, jack told me we would be partners on your campaign against the shimada, so, im sorry in advance if you get sick of me"
she said with a nervous chuckle. Her insecurity definitely showed, but he wondered, what could be causing this? He had touched briefly on her past in the hoverbird but it was nothing deep, he was the one mainly discussing his past.
He chuckled and replied to the Angel's insecure comment
"i dont think id get sick of you if we went to hell and back Angela, even though thats basically what we are doing"
he couldnt deny those words, they had hit it off pretty well, and both of them seemed to be getting along quite nicely, he was happy that he would at least have a comforting presence with him as he went back to japan.
And he could only be anxious for his return to japan, his hate for the shimada had been already boiling, and he was eager to have his chance at revenge, he wanted nothing else but to make the shimada who betrayed him meet their fates, and he would certainly bring death.
He didnt even notice that people where already looking at them, and Angela's face was already its usual red hue
"i knew it! You couldnt hide things from me loves"
"cut it out lena, dont act as if ya havent ever flirted before, besides, Genji here was a playboy, so it only his natural response"
"oh fine, ill let you two off easily today, And mcree, whats that you got on your plate?"
he couldnt even stop himself from constantly flirting, well, he was used to that way of life, it would be a hard road to change. Angela gave him a playful punch to the head
"now now, lets not get carried away Genji"
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god he was so confusing, did he feel the same likeness towards her? She doubted it, it was probably just him being a playboy, besides, who would want her of all people? She was weak, weak minded and too damn needy, no guy int their right mind would be attracted to her.
As they headed off to do their daily routines Angela stayed back and offered Genji a tour around gibraltar. As they where walking around, they decided to take this time to talk again, again being mostly small talk, but this time, as they where overlooking the ocean and heading back to their quarters, Genji asked Angela a question in a sincere tone
"Angela, what was it that made you cry when I awoke the other night?"
she didnt even know where to begin, their where so many things, but, she thought he at least deserved to know why, after all, he had helped her through that time. She thought back to him embracing her, and, well, by now she couldnt lie to herself, she wished she could have more of that, her heart hurt to much, one of the reasons she was being so close with him was because she hoped he would be that support for her, though she wouldnt openly admit it, she didnt want to ask anything of him, and decided to let fate decide.
She was already spacing out thinking of that day. She felt a nudge on her shoulder.
"Angela, is everything okay? You dont have to tell me if you feel uncomfortable doing so, I was simply curious"
she shook her head, bringing herself out of her daze
"Im sorry, my mind was just trailing off, but I wouldnt feel uncomfortable telling you, its just, it was a lot of things"
she sat down, he followed
"the biggest cause of it all was probably how betrayed I felt from jack, you see, he went against all of my wishes when he ordered that you be equipped for battle, and I blindly ignored all the signs of it because I decided to just trust him for once, im a pacifist, i help everyone i can and i make it my mission in this wolrd to hold no judgement as to who i help. As long as i live, i will help everyone i can, but with jack making the decision to weaponize you behind my back, i felt betrayed, but i shouldve noticed"
she looked down at the ground, choking up slightly
"and I feel as if though Im the cause of this whole dilemma you have to deal with because I couldve helped if I had just payed more attention to it all, that and the fact I lost my dearest friend Ana a month before,"
her voice did what it all too often did with him and began to shift in pace, she was already visibly shaken
" she was like a mother to me, more than that, she was my inspiration,and I couldve been there to save her but I decided to take my day off and she went it alone, and look at what happened to her, i decided to be selfish and i wasnt there for her, I feel as if it was all my fault, its always my fau-"
there he goes again, calming her in her worst moments.
The cyborg wrapped his arms around her for the second time so far as he saw the tears welding up in her eyes at the thought of Ana
again, she fell to his embrace, finding her arms instinctively wrapping themselves around her cyborg friend for a second time, repeating the actions that happened before as she cried into his chest, albeit this time more silently.
Crying around him didnt feel embarrassing though, it felt comforting, she guessed thats why she had cried so much recently, because she felt like she could with him there. Even though they had known each other for a small amount of time the bond they would have already was already clear, she would be his guardian, and he would be her's. It was a match that had been determined ever since she rescued him, but neither of them knew that.
This week though, it was treacherous. She didnt see him very often if at all some days, since he was off on training and she was finishing her work.
Again she felt alone
she did so many stupid things that week, she hurt herself nearly everyday, though no one knew of it, she kept on ignoring her hunger, and she still felt disgusted with herself. Except this time she had no one, and god how much it hurt just being alone. She wished that he could be there for her in her times of pain. No one really even came to see her, Reinhardt and jack where off on their mission, and tracer and Winston just kept to themselves mostly, preferring to chat with each other.
Her heart hurt
not just because of the loss she had and the guilt she felt, but also because of the fact that she hated herself so deeply. She couldnt help but feel guilty for everything, it was part of her nature. She tried to wrap herself up in work to forget about her pain, but she still found herself relying on hurting herself.
At least she was looking forward to going on the mission with Genji.
But god was she afraid of how attached to him she was getting, even if she hadnt seen him much, she was already starting her needy process of getting attached to him, she didnt know what it was drawing her to him, but it was probably the moments they had when she cried into his chest. She tried her hardest to hide any of her feelings from him, but she knew by now it was obvious
but as long as she had someone that was there for her she would be happy, even if he just looked at her as friend.
The same thoughts came up over and over;
'did he just do that for her because he felt like he owed her?'
'I bet he thinks youre annoying, he'd be right to think that'
'I just want him to stay'
she felt embarrassed at the thoughts she had, she thought she was obsessing, she felt like a creep.
God why couldnt she just stop being like this?
Another day went past and she hadnt seen him again, today she decided she would sleep in her quarters for once, she didnt really go there as she would stay up and do work, often times just passing out on her desk. she got inside her little condo and broke down yet again, at last she was alone, and at last she could cry again, she shambled her way into the bathroom and did what she always. God she had been crying so often now, it was such a change from her normal numbness, she headed into the bathroom to retrieve her scalpel and do her stupid things again, thinking it would just be a regular sad night.
But this night, was a bit different.