Online Lover- Scars of the past
Before I start this, I want to thank my best friend, Sandafairy, for helping me with this idea, and for just being so awesome and kawaii
Secondly, I don't own Kuroshitsuji in any possible way. If I owned it, Sebastian and Ciel would be making love every episode.
Also, this chapter contains abuse and forced sex.
Please keep in mind when you are reading.
Thank you
without further ado, the next chapter!

Even though Ciel was there with Sebastian, the nightmares couldn't stop. The British lad thought that the nightmares would stop when Ciel arrived, but he was wrong. Tonight he was plagued with nightmares. Nightmares about him.

Ciel woke up to whimpering. He opened his eye, to find himself alone on the couch.

"Sebastian must have moved into his room…" Ciel thought out loud, somewhat sad. The bluenette was about to fall back asleep, when he heard the whimpering again. Quickly, the young boy got off the couch, and followed the sounds. The whimpering got louder as he made his way to Sebastian's room. Quietly opening the door, the American walked into the dark room. He felt his heart hurt as he looked at the scene in front of him.

Sebastian was whimpering, tears rolling down his cheeks. He was cuddling a pillow, sheets tangled in his long pale legs. The small bluenette went over to the bed, and kneeled down, placing his hand on the raven-like hair. He ran his hand through his boyfriend's hair, surprisingly calming him down.

"Everything is going to be fine…" Ciel whispered, watching as the other male calmed down. He sat there for about five minutes, before his love woke up.

Sebastian froze, embarrassment flushed through him. Ciel had just witnessed him having a nightmare. He sat up and put his knees to his chest, resting his head on his knees. He didn't want to face the male.
"I'm sorry you had to witness that…" Sebastian whispered, breaking the silence. When he felt a hand on his back, he flinched. Picking up his head, he saw Ciel looking at him.

"Are you okay?" The American whispered. Sebastian took a shaky breath, and shook his head. "Do you want to talk about it?"

Sebastian thought for a second. Should he tell him about his nightmares? Finally, after about a minute of thinking, he nodded.

"Every night, I've had nightmares…I thought since you came here, they would stop…but, they haven't…" The tall male whispered.

"When did they start?" His love asked, looking Sebastian straight in the eye. Sebastian shook, as he looked away.

"It happened three years ago…perhaps I should tell you how it all began…" He trailed off.

/SEBASTIAN – 13 YEARS OLD/

A whole group surrounded a tall raven haired boy. Girls dreamed he would ask him out, and guys hated him for his attractiveness. Sebastian Michaelis was the popular boy in school. Every time a girl asked Sebastian out however, they were all rejected.

In all honesty, Sebastian didn't like girls. He liked guys. The raven haired man had a major crush on a guy named Bard. He was an exchange student from the great country of America, due to his parents work. When the American arrived in the UK, everybody wanted to be his friend. The first day Sebastian laid his eyes on the exchange student, he fell in love with him.

It was finally the day that Sebastian was going to ask Bard out. The British teen's heart felt like it was going to pop right out of his chest. Sebastian's palms were sweating as he approached his crush.

"Hey, Sebastian was it?" The blonde asked, looking into Sebastian's crimson eyes. "What's up?"

"H…Hey Bard, do you um, want to go out with me?" He asked, his whole face going red. Instantly, Bard's face turned into disgust.

"Why the fuck would I go out with you? I'm not gay. Don't talk to me again, you fag." He spat at Sebastian.

Bard's yell was so loud, that now everybody attention was focused on the two. It fell silent as Bard walked away in disgust. Students were whispering, judging him silently.

What broke the silence was a laugh from one of the students. One laugh turned into two laughs. Two laughs turned into ten laughs. Soon the whole grade was laughing at Sebastian.

That day, Sebastian went from a popular boy, to a target for the bullies. He went from having so many friends to none at all. He went from 'Mr. Cool' to 'The Gay Kid'. That day he went from Happy and Cheerful to Depressed and Lonely.

It was three years after that incident. The raven haired boy was now sixteen years of age. He looked into the mirror, biting his lower lip.

"Today…" The British lad spoke to his mirror. "Today is the day I will tell my parents…" He took a nervous breath, gazing at the clock. "They should be home any moment. You can do this Sebastian." He paced, waiting for his parents to come back home. After what seemed like an hour of waiting, he heard the front door open, and a shout.

"Sebastian! Your father and I are home!" His mom called. Sebastian came rushing downstairs, smiling.

"Welcome home!" He greeting, his heart racing as fast as a jaguar. "Can I tell you guys something?" He asked, his smile disappearing. The two nodded, and walked to the living area, where they each sat down.

"This isn't easy to say, but mother, father, I-I'm gay…" He spoke quietly, his head down. Science loomed over the family, as he heard his father clear his throat.

"You're gay?" He asked his voice filled with hate. Sebastian nodded, trembling. The man let out an angry chuckle. "My son is gay! That's fucking great! I didn't raise a fag, I raised a straight man! We don't accept gays in this household! Now, I want your faggoty ass out of this house! You have a week!" Sebastian's father screamed, causing tears to fill in Sebastian's crimson eyes.

The crying teen nodded, and quickly ran to his room to gather some stuff he would need to live on his own. He had no family that lived in the United Kingdom, and he couldn't afford a plane ticket, let alone a flat! He shut the door, and leaned against it. Pulling his knees to his chest, he let his tears fall free.

He had no one now. He was truly alone. No family to support him, no friends to give him support. His whole life was destroyed, just because he liked guys? He felt his heart shatter. He grabbed his backpack, and stuffed clothes, toothbrush, and his phone into the bag. He took one last look at his room, before shutting it for the last time and walking to the front door. Before he opened it, he saw his parents in the living room. His mother was a crying mess, and his father looked beyond angry.

"I'm sorry I couldn't be the son you wished for…" He spoke, before opening his front door, and walking out.

He walked for what seemed like forever. The sun was started to set. The teenager's stomach growled. As he walked down the streets of London, he walked right into a tall man.

"I'm so sorry…" Sebastian apologized, picking his head up to look at the man. The man let out a small chuckle, mumbling an 'its fine.' However, Sebastian was caught in the man's eyes. They were a deep shade of blue. His hear was a black shade with a neon green highlight in the front.

"You alright kid?" The man asked, causing Sebastian to snap out of his trance.

"I'm fine..." He mumbled his eyes still red and puffy from crying. The mysterious man kneeled down, and wiped excess tears from his face. "I don't like seeing such cute men cry..." He whispered. Sebastian felt his cheeks light up, as he looked away. The male looked at the backpack on Sebastian's back.

"Kid, what are you doing with a backpack? If I remember correctly, school let out a month ago." The handsome man asked. Sebastian let out a sigh, tears forming into his eyes once more.

"I was kicked out of my home, and everything in this backpack is what I have with me to live on my own." He whispered his voice slightly cracking. A frown appeared on the face of the older looking man.

"You must be hungry then. Here, let me buy you some food, kid." He smiled, grabbing Sebastian's small hand in his own. "What's your name? I don't want to call you 'kid'."

Sebastian looked up at him. "My name is Sebastian, and I am not a kid, I am sixteen." He corrected the stranger. The stranger let out a laugh.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to call you a kid, Sebastian. I'm Rex, nice to meet you."

About a month passed. Sebastian stayed with Rex for that whole month, claiming that he was 'in love' with him. Sebastian finally felt happy once again, but what he didn't know what that his life would start going downhill.

"Hey, Sebastian can you get me some orange juice?" Rex called from the couch, where he was watching his rugby game.

"Sure thing." Sebastian replied, trying to figure out where the cups were located. He wasn't exactly situated with his new environment. It took him about two minutes to locate the cupboard where the cups were located. He quickly poured the orange liquid into the cup The tall raven haired male walked into the living room, where his boyfriend was seated.

"Here you go!" Sebastian spoke in a happy voice, with a big smile on his face.

"What the hell took you so long?" Rex said, his voice low and grave with a underling threat.

Sebastian looked at him, incredulous. He couldn't help the hairs that stood up on his neck. His stomach twisted in knots at his tone. He knew this feeling of being terrified all too well. Sebastian Michaelis was terrified of the young male in front of him.

"I-I couldn't find the c-cups." He inwardly berated himself for stuttering.

Rex than looked at his boyfriend, eyes ablaze with rage. Unadulterated rage. He stood from where he sat, raised his right hand and

SMACK!

The cup that was situated one is Sebastian's hand dropped to the floor, the glass shattering into tiny pieces. Sebastian's hand moved to his stinging cheek, as he looked at his angered boyfriend. To say he was shocked would be the understatement of the century.

"When I want something, I get it. And when I get it, I want it delivered fast. Now, I want this mess cleaned up!" He ordered, pointing to the orange juice and glass shards scattered on the floor. "Also, when you are done cleaning up here, get me another glass of orange juice." He poke, he voiced laced with annoyance.

The abuse didn't stop there. He was constantly hit, kicked, beaten, and insulated. The raven haired man slept on the couch, while Rex slept on the bed.

It wasn't until a year afterward that Rex took things too far.

It was a Sunday night. Sebastian was at home, relaxing on the couch, until Rex angrily stomped into the apartment. Sebastian looked over and saw his angered boyfriend. His body tensed in fear, as he saw Rex approach him.

The abusive male stood in front of the terrified seventeen year old. He grabbed Sebastian by the hair, pulling him forcefully from the couch. A whimper left Sebastian's throat. He was dragged from the living room to the bedroom. The angered male threw him in the bed, as he began ripping the clothes off his boyfriend, exposing his pale ass.

"W-What are you doing?" The naked male spoke , his voice laced with pure fear. Rex was taking off his pants, as he glared at Sebastian.

"You should know, you little whore." Rex spat, removing his pants and boxers, showing his long penis. Without warning, Sebastian was flipped over, as Rex took no time to put his cock into Sebastian's virgin ass.

The raven haired man let out a cry. The pain was unbearable. Rex trusted more into Sebastian, not caring how tight he was. Rex didn't care how Sebastian felt, all he cared about was himself. He kept on thrusting, not hearing Sebastian's pleas for him to stop.

After what seemed like forever, Rex finally came inside of Sebastian. White fluids trickled down Sebastian's pale legs. A small whimper escaped Sebastian.

Rex pulled out of Sebastian, put on his pants, and left the room, leaving the raven haired male alone. Tears finally escaped his eyes, as he quietly cried.

THREE MONTHS LATER

Sebastian clasped his hand around the doorknob. He clutched it so hard it was as if his life depended on it. This was it! He'd finally get away and escape! He'd no longer be a bird caged in Rex's abusiveness. This was his chance. Sebastian opened the doorknob and then…

"Where do you think you're going?" A voice called.

Sebastian instantly stiffened, he recognized the voice immediately. Rex. Sebastian turned to the abusive man, his hand still firmly clutching on the doorknob.

"I was going to buy some milk." He lied. Not the smoothest lie he could come up with, but it was something, he supposed.

"Milk? It's nine o' clock at night." Rex said his voice darkening as he crossed his arms over his bare chest.

"Yes, I was going to buy some so I could cook you pancakes in the morning. It was supposed to be a surprise." Sebastian spoke timidly, sweat forming on his palms.

Rex smirked slyly. "Is that so?" he moved closer to the devilishly handsome male.

"How about I join you?" Rex purred, then shifted closer to Sebastian's ear. "You'll never leave my side, Sebastian. If you do, then you and your family will be living six feet under." Rex laughed, grabbing Sebastian's arm and dragging him back into the apartment.

A month later, while Rex was out hanging with his friends at the local bar, Sebastian took the opportunity to run. Quickly, he opened the door, and ran out. He finally felt free.

Soon after, he moved far away from that flat. He moved to the small town of Whitechapel. He still lived in constant fear that Rex would find him, and kill him. He slept with a gun under his pillow, and always carried around a knife.

Night after night he would have terrible nightmares, or not being able to sleep at all. When someone would touch him, he would flinch and start to panic, thinking that they might hurt him.

Sebastian Michaelis was a man who wanted nothing more than to have a happier and better life.

-PRESENT DAY-

By the time Sebastian was done telling his story, he was in tears. Black hair covered the man's pale face. His lover had his hand covering his mouth. 'How could someone do that to a poor man?' Ciel thought. Without thinking, Ciel hugged Sebastian. He felt the raven haired male start to tense up. The bluenette whispered relaxing words into his ears.

" I don't want to see you suffer anymore…" Ciel whispered. " I want to see you happier…"

Sebastian looked up at Ciel, tears falling freely from his eyes. "Then stay. Stay and never leave me…"

I hope you enjoyed this chapter!
I want to thank my amazing best friend and co-writer who helped me think of this idea Sandafairy!

Sorry if the chapter was bad, I tried my hardest .

See you guys later!

~The Girl In The Darkk