I am so, so sorry that it took me so long to update today! I had a really busy day! Thank you for your patience! Well, without further adu, i give you chapter 4!

THE NEXT DAY

BEATRICE

I wake up at 4 by the silent alarm i set yeaterday. The Abnegation usually get up at about 5:30 or 6. I look at Toby and find my heart speeding up. I feel that feeling that i often get when i look at him. I dont know why i react to him that way, ive know him forever.

I look at his beautiful face as he sleeps, peacefully. He looks so much younger. I gentally run my fingers through his wild dark locks, feeling a small spark when i touch him. He sighed softly.

I really did not want to wake him, but i had to so we did not get caught.

"Toby" I whispered softly. "Toby, you have to wake up. Im sorry."

His eyes fluttered a couple of times before he opened them. He just looks at me quietly. He nods. I tell him to fip all of the way over so i can reclean and rewrap his wounds. When i finish i kiss his forhead and send him on his way home.

I decide that i can not go back to sleep, so i go downstairs and began to prepare breakfast. My dad was the first to come down the stairs. He smiled and came and gave me a hug, but i could see concern behind his eyes. He asked if i needed help but i said no thank you. I really just wanted to thing to myself.

I think about Toby. His smell, his smile, his past, his everything. I love it all. I love him. I think i am in love with him. I wish that he loved me the sameway. I turn around to set the table and much to my suprise it already is set. My mother and Caleb were down here too. How did i not knowdice that?

"Beatrice are you ok?" My mom said and dad threw her a look. I nodded quickly.

We volunteered for the amity gardens again today. As soon as we get there me and Tobias goes to our spot. I sit down against the tree and Toby puts his head in my lap. He lays out on his stomach, careful not to jostle his back. I reach out behind me, into a little hole and grab our special aid kit. I began to slowly clean his wounds and put special cream on it, made by the Erudite, to help it heal faster. He sighs as the cream cools his raw hot, bisstering skin.

After i finish, we just lay there. I find myself playing in his dark locks. When i look down i see that he has fallen asleep. I feel the admiration, love, and gratitude just bang down on me.

I held him closer to me and lay my head on his. "Oh, Toby! you are so beautiful and i love you so much everyday! How did i become so lucky as to have you?" i wisper. Tears in my eyes. I softly kiss his head once and i let go so that i would not wake him up.

I pick him up out of my lap and lay his head on the blanket. I crawl down beside him and snuggle into his side. I feel warmth invelope me. I just look up at the endless sky, not thinking about anything in particular.

When i look at Toby, i see him looking at me. I give him a small smile and role over.

"What?" i ask.

"Nothing, it's just i was thinking about how beautuful you look." he said blushing.

"Oh." i said blushing too.

He sat up and wrapped his arm around me. I lean into his side. I find myself sad. I wish that he loved me as i do him. The love that i feel for him sometimes is almost painful.

"What is wrong, B?" he asks

"Nothing." i lie.

He shifts slightly and pulls me in his lap. He looks down at me, concern on his face.

"B, i can see it on your face and your body language. Something is wrong." he says.

"No. im really fine." i lie again. I feel guilt for lieing to him, but i am scared of what he would do if i told him. Would he respond back positive? or think i am delusional? would he-

"B, you know you can tell me anything right?" he said looking slightly hurt.

"I know, but im afraid that you will hate me after." i said tears in my eyes.

"Hate you?! i could never hate you, B! You are my best friend, my life, my smile, my joy, and without you i would be nothing but an abused boy. I love you so much, that it hurts sometimes!" he said, passionately.

"But Toby i dont just love you! Im in love with you!" I cry out. Boom. And that is how my life ends, i think. But as i look up, i see relief on his face.

"Oh, B! Im in love with you too! I was scared too. I thought you would look at me crazy and leave me or something!" he said, a tear in his eyes.

"No, i would never." i whispered. I felt that weird feeling in my stomach intensify as i gazed into his loving eyes. I put my hands on the side of his face and lean forward. He leans the rest of the way and kisses me. We both blushed, slightly.

All of those days were i daydreamed about this could never compare to this one moment. Its like everything stopped. It is like the world just all of a sudden stood still. And i love it. His lip is soft and warm. His natural scent is intoxicating me and then the kiss is over.

We dont move yet, our faces are so close that our noses are touching. We just stare into each others eyes. I kiss him one more time, before saying sadly.

"We have to head back now." He nods and gets up effortlessly. He helps me up and we go home. He walks me home. Neither one of us are talking. We are just smiling. I feel like i am on a cloud. Im so happy, i feel like i could burst. I look at him and as if feeling my stare, he looks at me.

"Come over for dinner tonight. I dont want him to ruin this perfect day, our day." i said quietly.

He looked at me for a moment and says

"Ok!"

When we walk in, we see my father, mother, and.. No. I feel myself tense up. Marcus. That.. that.. I can not even think of a bad enough word for him. I feel pure fury at just the sight of him. I look at Toby and see that he is in a mix between fear and supprise. His eyes flit to mine for a moment, but i got the message. Then he covers it up, with his blank look.

I look up at Marcus and cover up my feelings. I give him a sweet smile.

"Hello, Marcus. It is good to see you today" NOT!

He gives me that creepy smile and i shiver involunteerily.

"Hello, Beatrice. Tobias!" he said as

if he was happy to see us. Toby, shivered at the sound of his name. I grabbed his arm and gentally squeezed it. When he flexted before relaxing slightly, i know he got the message. I let go, hoping nobody saw that. He gives a small, but fake, smile. It would almost be believable had his eyes not been so tense.

"Hello, father." he looks at mom and dad.

"Hello, Mrs, and Ms, Prior" he said, just as the door opened and Caleb came in. He looked suprised at the visitors, but still smiled.

"Hello, Tobias and Mr. Eaton!" He said, not picking up the tense atmosphere.

"I am going to go finish dinner." i said, trying to find an out for Toby. He seemed to sigh in relief.

"Do you need any help?" he said.

"Yes, i would love some help." i said. Caleb shot me a look of disbelief. I never accepted help.

"What would you like me to help you with?" he asks.

"Can you get the table ready, please?" I say and he nods. We got to work. While we were doing that, silently we were communicating. This is our conversaition by looks.

Look in the eyes Im so sorry!

look back and hold No! Its ok! You did not know stop blaming yourself.

I nod. ok

Gaze You know i love you right?

I smile and gaze back at him quickly Yes! I love you too.

We both are now wearing big goofy smiles.

Challenge gaze Lets play a game

Arch eyebrow Which one?

I buck my eyes. The silly game!

Look of playfull determination. Im gonna win this time!

Toby wiggles his eyebrows it hard not to laugh. It looks so rediculous on him!

He smiles in victory.

I place the fork upside down as if i am not paying attention and he smirks.

He looks at me saying Is that all youve got?! He chuckled. When he realized what he just did, his eyes got wide. I giggle, unable to keep it in. I try not to think about it, but when i think about not thinking about it i giggle more.

Oh Toby! How am i supposed to stay serious, you goof! What will i do with you?! I look at my Toby and if possible, i smile even harder.