Boyfriend.

I remember the first time Cory said that word.

It was the summer after I had moved in with Turner. It was a perfect sitration at the time. Turner had his nights when he went out and when he was home he wasn't nosey. He never questioned me spenting hours in my locked bedroom with my male best friend.

We were making out like crazy. Him dugging into my bare back. Me grabbing on to his collar. A lot of rubbing.

He pulled away for air. His curls were dripping with sweat.

"So are we like boyfriends?" he asked.

"What?" I laughed.

I couldn't believe it. He actally used the word "boyfriend".

"Are we like boyfriends or something?" He got off of me and sat up, "I'm kind of confused about us."

I sat up too, "Um…"

"Can guys even do that?" he asked.

Like I would know.

"I don't know" I shugged.

"I need to know because…I like Topanga."

I laughed, "What?"

"I like Topanga, and I want to ask her to be my girlfriend."

"Oh." I grasped.

He nodded, "Yea…but I just wanted make sure that…"

I sat up, "Oh yea, if you want to ask Topanga out. Yea go for it."

I pulled the hair out of face, "I didn't think you were into her."

"I didn't think I was either." He nodded, "but I now that we have gotten closer and I…"

"It's cool man" I nodded, "You should go for it."

"So when are you going to do it?" Angela asked as we got our coffees.

"I think I'm going to do it all at once. Just ripped the band aid right off." I said as we sat down.

Cory and Topanga were on their honeymoon. Still. I haven't talk to my best friend. I wasn't looking forward to seeing him.

Angela smiled at me. "I'm glad you decied to do come out."

I took a slip. "It's a good thing I don't I have a lot family. I don't think I would've been able to tell my dad."

"You have Jack. Remeber?" She pointed out, "He's your brother. And he's stuck by you all this time and he'll strick by you now."

I nodded. I somhow always seem to forget to count Jack as family. It's…it's like we were in this between stage. We talked to each other. We care about each other. We were more the friends or roomates , but weren't excaclty famliy. Or atleast not in my veiw.

I looked down at my coffee, "Yea, I guess."

She put her on the table, "And I may have not known your dad but I think he would love you don't matter what."

I looked up at her. She was so beautiful. I kind of wished we could have ended up together.

"I'm scared." I said.

"You never thought of yourself as a homosexual?" She smirked.

I laughed, "I guess I thought I was a Corysexaul."

She rolled her eyes. But it was ture.

I squezed Angela's hand as we sat in the Matthew's living room. Cory and Topanga were coming back form their honeymoon. Jack sat next to us on the couch with Rachel on the arm, while Eric sat in the chair.

We slinetly waited for them.

"So Shawn are you okay?" She whipstered.

I nodded.

Then the door opened.

"Heyyyy" Cory and Topanga cheered coming though the door.

Of course everybody hugged, and said "we missed you."

I tried to say out of it, but Cory came at me with opens arms. I hugged him giving him two little pats on the back. Then I hugged Topanga.

"Hey can we talk later?" she whipstered in my ear.

"Yea sure."

Then we sat down and talked about the honeymoon.

"Sounds like paradise."

They smiled at each other then at us, "Almost paradise."

Angela pinched my thigh.

"Ow." I bit getting up.

"Shawn has something he wants to tell you guys."

Great.

"What's up Shawn?" Jack asked.

I cleared my thorat.

Angela was smiling at me. Jack and Rachel seemed I nterseted. Eric looked like he was on Mars. And Cory and Topanga had their eyebrows rasied.

Fuck it.

I stood up frout of everybody I knew and said it.

"I'm gay."

Everybodies' mouth dropped.

"I know it's kind of a shock."

Rachel raised her hand, "I'm not that surprised actally."

Eric nodded, "Yea that makes total sense."

"You know" Jack spoke up, "You're my brother and I don't care what you are."

I nodded, "Thanks Jack."

"Wait, wait, wait." Cory hopped up, "No. No, this isn't happening."

Here it is.

Cory walks up to me yelling, "No. No. Shawn I don't know where you're head is. You're supposed to marry Angela, I'm married to Topanga. The four of us…"

"Cory stop." I yelled, "That is your plan, not mine."

"Shawn, don't you want a family?"

"Maybe my version of a family, is different form yours. Maybe there is a life beyond your white fence."

"Shawn, I know what you really want."

"You have no idea what I want." I started shouting, "What I want? I want to sleep with a man, a man that cares about me, that puts me first, that…that dosen't hide me away like I'm some second rate slut."

We were staring lasers into each others eyes.

I took a breath, "I want a man, that wants me. I don't know what to call that, but that's what I want."

"I'd call that a boyfriend." Angela said.

I turned back to Cory, "Yea, I want a boyfriend."