CHAPTER 4
--Recognition--
-What is this feeling? My body... I feel like i'm melting, I-I can't even think straight -Usagi's mind kept on trying to figure out what exactly was happening, why were her instincts urging to be let lose. Finally, she unwillingly let a word slip her mouth.
"Mahmo-chan"
It even took her a while to acknowledge she'd spoken, she couldn't make up if she'd said it out loud or if she'd just thought his name.
When he heard her calling him something snapped within his mind. He gained consciousness of what he'd been doing to her, the way he'd been kissing and holding his beloved Usagi. Mamoru's mind instantly began a serious fight with his body.
-What are you doing?!?! what-what is she going to think of you, you are treating her like-like... -she's fifteen; you shouldn't be thinking of her this way, holding her this way, kissing her the way you have been kissing her for who-knows how long. You've upset her... she's-she's calling out for you, she's stopping you, baka!
Mamoru quickly released his grasp of her body, he let go of her arms so fast that she felt discomfort as the cool air regained contact with her skin.
They were standing close to the back of the sofa, right in the area of his apartment that divided the living area and his bedroom (although it could be referred to as a sleeping area due to the lack of a door to delimit the space). When he released her he felt as if he needed to hold on to something in order to prevent himself from falling knees first to the ground. He felt weak, but exhilarated all at the same time; he was breathing heavily as he reached to the back side of the sofa and held to the edge of the backrest. He arched his back forward to rest all of his body weight to his hands and onwards to the sofa.
»Emptiness. All she could feel when he let go of her was emptiness, a big void within her soul that she could make no sense of. It was so unexpected. This whole situation had emerged without warning and had left her enormously confused.
-Why did he stop? Was it wrong of him to act like that? Was it wrong of me to feel that way when he kissed me? Maybe, but-but it didn't feel wrong; it just felt natural... there's nothing I've felt or done before that has been so inherent to me.
She figured he had probably thought of her as just a young -very young- woman and that he felt he was pushing her to something she was not ready for. Usagi quickly walked towards him and embraced him from behind. Since she was considerably shorter than him, her hands and arms rested comfortably around his waist, and she proceeded to rest her head in the arch of his back. She softly placed her palms against his slender yet muscular stomach. The touch of the fabric of his shirt and the warmth of her palms against his abdomen's skin clouded his every sense.
He was still quite flustered when he felt her embrace; he took in an agitated breath and started to feel every cell in his body shiver as if they were being hit with an electric shock that was so incredibly delightful he could find no thoughts to describe it.
"I didn't call out your name because I wanted you to stop" -She finally brought her mouth to say what she had been thinking of since he had let her body go so suddenly. She spoke with a very low and slightly embarrassed tone to her usually high-pitched voice. Her cheeks had already acquired a slight blush to them but when she finished that sentence, she could feel her temperature rise just a little and her face turn a brighter shade of pink.
"Usako... but- what? really?" -Mamoru responded with a rather relieved tone. He turned around and held her head with both hands in order to get her to face him.
Usagi's eyes watered just a little as she looked into Mamoru's. She could almost grasp his feelings for her, she was so happy to look deep within him and see his love for her. She too expected him to know that she loved him, loved him with all her might.
"I know this may be all you see of me most of the time. You see a clumsy, care-free and sometimes a little too absentminded girl -but... but I am not always like that...- Mamo-chan, tonight we both saw what we really are, not just the 'titles' that we've known of for a while now (referring to their royal condition, that had never before been revealed as strongly as that night) ... Mamo-chan, together we are meant to protect this world and all the other worlds in our Solar System as equals, as one..."
"... I want to be one with you in every possible way" -There, she'd said it. That feeling that had been taking over her mind, that thought of them truly uniting heart, body and soul. She knew there was no turning back.
She wasn't scared, she was ready, she was yearning to merge with him in ways she knew she couldn't possibly imagine.
»Shocked; he was truly shocked to hear those words come out of her mouth. She had just verbalized everything he'd been meaning to say to her; they were in such synchrony it was terrifying to him -and he absolutely loved it-
He looked deep into her eyes and tenderly smiled before engaging in a loving breathtaking kiss.
a/n: Chapter 4!!! REVIEWS are highly, highly appreciated! :D
**Disclaimer: I do not own nor take credit for any of the characters or places in the story, they are property of Takeuchi Naoko, Kodansha and Toei Animation.