Song: "Things Left Unsaid" Disciple
Rating: K/K+
He looked so small laying on the bloody white sheets.
Kurogane sat in the darkness, his eyes focused on the thin chest, making sure it continued to rise and fall. Kamui had reassured him that Fai would be fine, that he would recover, but the horrible doubt had begun to take root in his mind.
He could still die.
The ninja's grip on the sheets tightened, and he gritted his teeth, fighting against the lump that was forming in his throat. There's so much that I never got to say to him.
Fai twitched in his sleep, his hand brushing against one of Kurogane's knuckles. Kurogane gently lay his hand over Fai's, feeling the first of the tears begin to spill from his eyes.
Living would be meaningless without him.
"I'm so sorry, Fai." Kurogane swiped angrily at the tears with his free hand. "So sorry…"
He buried his face in the crook of his elbow, shuddering from the force of the sobs.
This is all my fault. I should have been there to protect him. Open you eyes, Fai.
He squeezed Fai's hand, swallowing back the sobs. He hadn't stayed by the mage's side for this long, hadn't agreed to become his Esa, just to watch him die. "Fai, I have so much to tell you when you wake up. So, please, wake up soon." I hope you can hear me.
Kurogane rubbed his eyes, and then lay back on the bed, placing an arm over Fai, adjusting himself so the wizard fit perfectly against him. I hope you can feel me here, Fai.
He closed his eyes and dozed, but was eventually jerked back into consciousness. How much time had passed, he wasn't sure, but dawn was still far off.
"Kuro-pu?" Fai's eye was closed, but he reached up and softly touched Kurogane's cheek. "Have you been here all night?"
"Yeah. I… We… Were worried about you. So I stayed here to make sure you were alright." Kurogane looked down at Fai, and felt the lump in his throat again, felt the hot tears sliding down his face.
"Kurogane, don't waste your tears on me." Fai's golden eye glimmered in the moonlight, and he brushed the tears from the larger man's face with the pad of his thumb.
"Fai, you mean more to me than you could ever know. I was so scared that you would die…" The last sentence was hardly a whisper.
Fai's eye widened, and he stroked Kurogane's cheek again, a small, sad smile on his lips. "Kurogane… I'm sorry that I caused you this much pain."
"I should have been there… To stop him…" I love you.
"Kuro-rin?" He seems so distraught.
Kurogane closed his eyes for a few heartbeats, before craning his head to kiss the bridge of Fai's nose.
"I love you." Please don't leave.
"Kurogane…" Fai's eye began to fog with tears. "I… I'm sorry…" He rested his head against Kurogane's chest, sniffling pathetically. "I love you so much…"
aN; Not one of my best, but…. Meh. x3