sorry i haven't updated in so long.

here's chapter 4

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CHAPTER 4

I wake up to sun shining in my eyes. I look at my clock and realize its 11.30am and decide I should get up and see how everyone's doing. I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror and see that my eyes are all red and puffy from yesterday. I hop in the shower loving the way the hot water feels on my muscles. After washing my hair I get out and wrap a towel around myself and go back to my room. On the way I hear voices' coming from down stairs and it reminds me that yesterday defiantly happened.

I go to my room and close the door and change into a pair of shorts, singlet and my dad's footy shirt again. I look in the mirror at my self and notice that my body has changed slightly, for instance my legs and arms were defiantly toner but my eyes were still puffy, ha who cares what I look like it's not like there's anyone I want to impress. An image of Jacob popped into my head but disappeared just as quick.

I head down stairs slowly and peek into the kitchen and notice no one's in there so I head to the living room. Before I leave the kitchen I look to the floor where my dad died the day before and wondered how I was going to keep going, if more bad stuff kept happening I don't know if I could.

I walked into the living room to find my mum, Billy and some other guy. Mum looked up when I walked in and patted a spot on the couch next to her. So I sat down next to her with Billy on the other side of her as well and the stranger sitting across from us. As I started to listen to what they were talking about I realized they were arranging the funeral arrangements. After awhile I had to leave just listening to it made it so much more real and made me think about never getting to see my dad again.

Before they could see me cry I said quickly that I was going for a run and ran from the room and grabbed some shoes and put them on and left the house while new tears came streaming down my face. I ran and didn't stop until I had reached the cliffs and then fell to the ground pulling my knees to my chest and wrapping my arms around my legs and cried. Mostly for my dad but also for myself not knowing why the world hated me so much and making me go through so much and making me hurt more than anyone should ever have to go through. The world better have a good reason for this, or I'm seriously going to hurt someone.

While I cried and remembered all the times my dad was there for me I swear I could feel someone watching me so I turned around expecting to see no one thinking I was just imagining it, but I was wrong I find not only but Jacob standing in only a pair of cut-off jeans. Which only reminded me again of how much the world must hate me, by making me the only girl wolf in history.

"Hey." Jacob says to me breaking me from my daydreaming. I quickly wipe away any tears and give him what I hope resembled a smile and then looked back out to the sea. I hear him start walking towards me and then sit down next to me also looking out at the sea.

"How are you holding up?" He asks me looking at my face obviously noticing that I've been crying. I look over at him and noticing that he honestly wants to know which is a surprise since no one really bothers to talk to me, or if they do they were either told to, are asking where something is or they're pissed at me. So I didn't answer straight away.

"What do you think," I ask him.

"My life was shitty to begin with and then I find out I can turn in to a wolf and am the only girl wolf, and to top it all off I had to watch my dad die right in front of me and not being able to anything about it."I say to him my voice breaking at the end. I looked at his face expecting him to look angry for me sounding like a bitch even though I honestly didn't mean to, I was really shocked someone other than my family actually cared.

But he shocked me more when instead of getting angry he laughed, I mean come on what was funny about anything I just said. So I hit him in the arm and look away glaring, thinking I should've just ignored him instead of saying anything.

"Leah…I'm sorry," he says to me trying to calm himself down.

"I didn't mean to laugh, it's just…I was thinking of how all the guys are going to hate having a girl in the pack." I look at him wondering what he meant by that, since I don't really know anything about being a wolf.

"You're going to have to explain what you mean, I don't know anything about this whole wolf thing." I tell him.

"Well there's not that much to know really." He says scratching his head.

"You know the Quileute legends that we're always being told?" he asks me, and I nod so he can continue telling me.

"Well they're true." He stops to see my reaction.

"But how?" I ask him totally confused.

"They just are, there's other people in the same position as us, um… there's Quill, Jared, Embry, Seth, a lot of the younger guys, me obviously and of course Sam." He says his name quietly.

"Is that why all of you hang out more than usual, and why you guys grew a lot in like a few days?" I ask him. But then before he can answer I remember that he'd said Seth's name.

"Wait Seth's a wolf too!" I say looking at Jacob hoping he's kidding. But his face said it all.

"How come no one told me? Wait…does mum know, did dad know?" I ask him trying not to cry. Jacob looks away for a minute trying to figure out what to say without upsetting me more.

"Yes to your mum and dad knowing, we didn't tell you because no one wanted to upset you more but I think the real reason was because Sam didn't want you to find out the main reason for him leaving you." Jacob says to me looking really sorry, I don't know why know one ever feels sorry for me anymore.

"What the hell does Seth turning into a wolf have to do with Sam bloody leaving me?" I ask him starting to get pissed off. Jacob looks uncomfortable and looks away and I knew that if I don't beg or ask kindly he won't tell me.

"Please Jacob, tell me I have a right to know." I say to him really softly and pouting as well,(what am I doing?). I think it worked because he sighed and looked my way.

"OK! But you have to promise not to get angry." He says looking serious, which for some weird reason makes me giggle, yes I know giggle why couldn't I just of laughed or made no noise at all. I think I really am going crazy. And Jacob does look at me like I'm crazy before he smiles waiting for me to say something, I don't know what. OH, I remember.

"I Promise." I say crossing my fingers so he couldn't see.

"Okay well there's this think that happens to us when we find our one true love or I guess a better word would be imprinting. It's like you find this person and you realize you couldn't live without them, it's like they're the reason for keeping you on earth. It's happened to a few of us." He says looking me like he's waiting for a light bulb to turn on above my head but I must of still looked confused because he kept talking.

"Sam imprinted on Emily." He says looking at me waiting for I guess some sort of reaction, but I was still taking it in and trying to figure out what he meant. Then my brain finally took in the last thing he said at the same time it started to rain. Yep it started to rain, like my day couldn't get any fucking worse.

"Wait so you mean Sam left me for my fucking cousin because he imprinted on her." I say surprisingly calm the opposite of what I was feeling on the inside. I look at Jacob waiting for some explanation. He looks at me not knowing what to say. So I speak instead.

"I don't believe it! So instead of telling me this even though I defiantly wouldn't of believed him, it would have been better than walking in on him screwing her. Why, Jacob? I'm not trying to sound like a bitch but why me? Why does bad shit always happen to me, what did I ever do to deserve being hurt over and over again like I have? Please, tell me why?" I say in a choked voice, while my tears fall along with the rain. Instead of Jacob answering me he moves closer to me and then picks me up and puts me in his lap and wraps his arms around me while I cry. I don't know why, but by being wrapped up in Jacob's arms I actually felt at peace and safe for once since that day Sam betrayed me. I held on to Jacob as if by letting him go I would fall and keep on falling.

"Ssh, it's going to be okay. I won't let any one hurt you." He said to me softly, but he kind of mumbled the last part which made me think I wasn't meant to hear it, but I had to ask.

"How?" I ask him and by the look on his face he must have knew I knew I'd heard the last part he said. He looked at me trying to think of what to say to try and convince me.

"I'm not sure, but I do care for you Leah," I just look at him like he's going crazy instead of me.

"I'm serious and so do a lot of other people, whether you want them to or not." He says to me, and I can tell he's telling the truth. His eyes said it all even though I didn't want to believe…well, not yet anyway.

Then we both realized how we were sitting and that we were both drenched by the rain that had stopped.

"Um…" I say getting up and looking at Jacob trying to think of something to say, but didn't have to because Jacob starts talking.

"Sooo… I know that you won't be up to seeing anyone, especially Sam. So once everything's kinda settled down your going to have to come round to Sam and Emily's so we can tell you more about what you'll be doing, now that you're a wolf." Jacob says to me, waiting for me to say something.

"Fine, but if Sam or any of the guy say anything to annoy me I'm leaving, and Sam better not expect me to do everything he says because he's my 'boss'. I will hurt him or anyone who get's in my way." I say to him looking forward to hurting Sam.

"Go for it, I'll be the one filming it." he says smiling at me looking forward to it as well.

"I'm going go and see how mum's doing, I guess I'll see you at the funeral." I say to him getting upset all over again.

"Yeah I'll see you there." He says to me looking like he wants to say more but doesn't. instead he walks over to me and hugs me. I'm shocked at first not understanding why he's hugging me, but it feels nice so I hug him back. I let go after a minute and look at him, and I mean really look at him. I notice that he really has changed and looks like a man and I don't know how I could have missed it. I mean he is really handsome well a better word would be HOT but I wasn't ready to admit that to anyone not even myself. So instead I smile at him and a real smile not the fake ones I'm always giving people.

"Thanks." Not rally sure why I'm thanking him but I do anyway. He smiles back at me and then turns around and starts walking away, and I do the same heading home feeling as good as I could in the state I'm in.

I decide to run home. Loving the feeling of the cold air on my skin. As i'm about to open the front door I hear a voice that I'd rather not exist. I walk inside and go to the living room looking into the face of no other than Sam Uley.

"What the Fuck are you doing here!" I say looking at him and wanting to smash his face in.

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