Flash Back
3 months ago:
Jade stumbles drunkenly into the loft house, an extra large bottle of 1800 Tequila Reserva Silver, in tow. The loft held its usual atramentous, or somber feel. Her girlfriend of four years nowhere in sight, and Jade let's out a breath she hadn't known she'd been holding. She comes to a cessation, or stop in the kitchen, lifting the heavy bottle to her Tequila stained lips.
The remarkably clean, silky smooth taste overrides her senses, sending a shiver up her spine. The lamp on the bedside switches on, and Jade can hear the shuffling of her girlfriend's feet. And here we go again, "Do you have any idea of what time it is?! Blah Blah You're ruining yourself blaahh!" Jade mimics her girlfriend in her head, giggling the entire time. The sound of feet shuffling down the stairs.
The sight before her, she would never expect to see in any lifetime.
Jade gazes at her girlfriend at the top of the staircase, with luggage behind her. "Didn't you know you'd be home early.." Tori says not making eye contact, brushing her hair behind her ear, staring at her feet.
Jades face heats with anger, "You're leaving me?" Jade asks through gritted teeth, swaying drunkenly. "I think it'd be better...for the both of us- Tori starts.
"Better for us? Tori you're all that I need. It's the last time I swear." Jade slurs.
"Jade.." Tori starts again, crossing her right arm under her breast, and pinching the bridge of her nose with her left.
"Time..and time again..you've said you'd stop. You lied! I just can't...take it anymore! " Tori says fuming, hot steamy tears running down her face.
"Vega..-
"No..you weren't supposed to see me..I'm leaving Jade." Tori says walking down the spiral staircase with her large purple suitcase in tow. "Tori ..." Jade whimpers, tears threatening to spill from her emerald eyes. "Please Tor...I'll stop I promise. Serious this time.."Jade says grabbing the Latina hand.
"I can't...I can't take that risk Jade...I can't take anymore."Tori says looking up to the onyx haired girl with her big brown eyes full of tears, and hurt. Jade never meant to hurt Tori..but the way life goes...things happen that aren't supposed to.
Jade then slowly releases her grip on the tan girls arm, dropping it to her side, head low in defeat. Tori then leans up, and places a soft kiss on Jade's forehead softly whispering goodbye.
The next few hours are a blur of tears, and unforgiving tequila sliding down her throat. "Look what you've done Tor..." Jade says with a sadistic chuckle.
X
Present time, Back in the Hospital Room.
Jade's POV:
"Tori.." The word rolls of my tongue with ease, with muscle memory. "What are you doing here Jade?" Tori says, a look of hurt flashing over her face. I stare at her, unable to conjure a word. There's something I want to tell her..but I don't know..I don't- I don't know how, I..."I don't- I don't know.." I stammer..hands beginning to clam up, sweating. "I-.." I being to sputter, words being stolen from the trace of my lips. "I..don't know Tori.." I say..lowering my head.
"How'd..you find out?" Tori asks cautiously. "Just because you block my number, and move 10,000 miles away from me doesn't mean...I won't find you Tori.." I say barely above a whisper, yet meaning every word. There's a tension filled silence..but Tori says, "Well..you've found me...". I don't respond immediately, but I say, "Yea..I did."
I couldn't exactly believe it, she survived that car crash, she woke up from the coma it put her in- and this was all my fault. It's why I had to be here.
But I don't think she cares, it's obvious she remembers..what happened so no questions about that. Maybe she really still doesn't want me…
"I..guess I'll be leaving then.." I make my way to where I'd set up my things, throwing them quickly into my duffle bag. We don't exchange words, until I'm walking towards the door, and she still hasn't made a sound, or moved..
A part of me...well all of me..wanted her to stop me. It wanted her to take me back, throw her arms around me..tell me everything is going to be ok. Wanted her to lie? Yes. Because that's how Tori is..she'll stop at nothing to protect the people she love and care about. She's so strong willed, and has the biggest heart.
That's why I love her so much...it hurts. Sure it has nothing to do with what she does to you at night? Yeaa, that too.
I stand in front of her..we stand together for a while, neither knowing what to say.."Tell me..to go away, and I will Tori..I promise, just.. look me in my eyes, and tell me.." I say, swallowing hard, on the verge of tears. I watch as she debates inside of her head, her face contorting as she thinks.
After a minute passes by she says, "I...want you to go away Jade.." She lifts her head..and looks me in my eyes. And I swear..everything that I'd thought was right in the world..was so wrong. Everything I believed to be brightness..to shine in this hell..became onyx. I felt like...someone snatched life..right from under me.. god it hurt..hurts..so much.
With a series of quick nods..I'm out of the hospital room and to the elevators..in a matter of seconds, tears flowing the entire time.
The ride of course offers minute room for self sulking, and wound licking so I pull on the best facade I can, placing my shades over my sight- preparing myself for the random mic in the face, and camera on my neck.
Look what you've done..