5 (should be 4, misnumber?)

A/N: I don't know if the middle seats of an Escalade fold down and away or not but for the sake of this story, this scene, let's just say they do.

Sean was the first to drive. They folded down the center seats of the Escalade to make room for a small air mattress for naps and whatever came up. Taylor slept and Shayna sat in the passenger's seat.

She and Sean talked amongst themselves for the first three or four hours until they saw Taylor moving in the back.

"I'm going to go and talk to him." She told Sean who nodded and slapped her butt when she got up.

Shayna turned around and smiled at him and wiggled her bum before she lay down beside Taylor.

He rubbed his eyes, took a deep breath and turned and looked at her, slipping an arm around her waist. When he moved to his side he winced slightly.

"You ok?" She asked him.

"I'm a little sore." He told her quietly. He didn't want to worry Sean.

"He didn't mean to hurt you."

"It wasn't him, I pulled him in, rush it. Fuck it was good, well worth a sore ass for a few days." He said with a smile and then he laughed. "Never thought I would say those words."

"I bet. If he realizes,"

"He wont, I don't want him to know. I don't want to upset him, make him feel guilty. I'm not sorry and I most likely will do it again. I'm just not gentle when it comes to sex."

"Taylor, you are a man of many things. You see yourself as some kinda thug but you have such love in you. You need to realize its ok, there's only the three of us and we are all in this together. No one is going to laugh or make fun of you for how you feel. It doesn't make you weak, love is never weak."

He looked at her, saw the truth in her eyes, felt it in the way her hand caressed his back. "I love you." He told her for the first time.

"I love you too, Taylor."

He hugged her tightly and whispered, "I was so afraid to care. I knew how you and Sean felt about each other, but… every time we… whenever we were together, sex or no sex, I felt more and more."

"Same for me."

"You chose Sean." He said gently trying not to sound bitter or hurt by that.

She nodded her head. "I chose Sean. I didn't know you cared for me that way, you never said anything."

"Would it have mattered?" Taylor asked her.

Shayna turned her head and looked at Sean. She could tell he was trying to give them their privacy. He had his sunglasses on, the radio up and the windows open. He suddenly cocked his head to the side and turned slightly as if he knew she was looking at him. He could sense it.

"Taylor, Sean is…"

"Everything I'm not."

"I didn't say that."

"He knows how to do this right. He has more to offer you."

"Stop that right now. Just stop, Tay." She looked right into his chocolate eyes, so much like Sean's, she thought. "The first time Sean touched me, in the shower, we connected. I could feel his pain, he allowed me to feel it even if he doesn't realize that yet. The way he looked at me, touched me and God help me the way he smiled at me. He pulled me in,"

"Yeah, I know." Taylor saw it too, the total transformation on his face when he was happy. He had seen it that morning after they had sex on the table. It was the same between them. The first time Sean took him, they connected, bonded and now he was sucked in, completely lost and unwilling to do anything to change it.

"He needs us so much, Taylor."

"You think he's still struggling?"

"Yeah, at times I can see it. He fights it more now but I can see the haunted look that comes into his eyes every now and again."

"Yeah, I've seen it too."

"I don't what you to think that you mean less to me than, that maybe I care for him more. The both of you are my world. I can't see live without either of you and maybe that's crazy. Yes I had planned on going back to Callie with him but I know how much I would miss you.

I tried not to think about it, thinking that maybe that was being disloyal to him. Fuck, this whole thing started out as such a mess. The two of you were so close, he knew how you felt. He told me that he couldn't take me away from you. He knew that kind of pain. He needs us both, I need you both and I think you need us both. So we are all suck together and you better get use to it and I don't want to hear this kind of talk again, you feeling me?"

"Oh yeah, I'm feeling you." He muttered against her neck as he nipped at the skin there.

Shay moaned at the feel of his lips and when he settled them over top of hers, she was lost.

"I'm gonna make love to you, right now." He told her as he pulled off her shirt and grinned like a school boy at the fact she wasn't wearing a bra.

"Your tits are fantastic."

"Thanks, your cock isn't too bad either." She replied and made him laugh.

They undressed each other quickly but touched and kissed slowly. When he slid into her it was completely opposite of the way he had first taken her. This time he was gentle, heat built on feelings and moans. Slide of hands and brush of lips. Deep sure stokes and a steady rhythm, not the hard pounding he usually gave.

He was shaking, trembling with emotions and with the effort it took to hold back his natural mating style.

She sighed his name before he felt her tense under him. He gave her two hard, sharp thrusts and sent them both of the edge into a scorching orgasm.

He realized it was the first time he had ever made love to a woman and decided he liked it.

She was dosing off almost before he pulled out of her. He kissed her temple and told her he loved her again. Maybe it wasn't so hard after all to share his feelings. He pulled his jeans and shirt on and went to sit beside Sean in the front.

-

Sean tried not to listen to them talking but it was killing him not knowing what they were saying. He had never heard Taylor talk so gently before and the deep rumble of his voice sent a shiver down his spine. While he couldn't hear the words, he felt the vibrations.

He saw them making love in the rearview mirror and wished he was involved in it but looked away. It was intimate, just between the two of them and he felt like he was intruding on them.

He waited for the sting of rejection to come, the sight of the woman he loved, making love to another man, but it didn't. Not when she was with Taylor. Why?

-

Taylor and Sean sat in silence for almost an hour. Only the hum of the road and the low volume of the radio filled the air.

"I love her, Sean."

"I know you do." Sean replied evenly.

Taylor looked at him for a few long moments. "I love you too."

Sean jerked the steering wheel to the left, then quickly recovered, slowed and pulled over. It was a good thing they were on some bumpkin ass, back road where no one else was around.

Taylor never took his eyes off the other man and he watched the play of emotions over his face. He just sat and waited till Sean spoke.

"Taylor, wow, I never thought… I just…" he sighed deeply and then turned and looked at the other man sitting beside him. He smiled at the look in Taylor's eyes.

He had a thrown up a shield against what Sean was going to say to him. Sean looked deeper and could see the fear, fear of not being loved back. Fear of saying the words, of being laughed at and fear of the fact he was in love with another man.

"I love you too, Tay, both of you." Sean finally admitted as his eyes locked with Taylor's.

They leaned in and kissed each other deeply, and then Sean pulled out back on the road. They both lapsed into silence again, deep in thought.