I don't own these characters. Just the plot

Jasper POV

It occurred to us after the fact how hard it would be for a very unstable Alice to go through an airport crowded with people. Or for the rest of us to make her look stable. I mean imagine the kind of looks we could get carrying a half screaming half unconscious girl through an airport. So Emmett turned the van around and we went to the docks instead. Our plan was to boat to Isle Esme, where Carlisle had a jet. We would take that home.

So That's what we did. And through out the entire journey, my hand stayed firmly on Alice, basically using my ability to drug her into complete and total calmness.

We arrived at the house with a very very nervous Nessie and Jacob to greet us at the door.

"Mom?" She ran out to meet Bella, but stopped when she saw me carrying Alice, who was-although somewhat calm- shaking and whimpering against my chest. We all were wearing solemn faces as we entered. I went to the couch, where I sat with Alice curled up on my lap, and every one else just kind of stood around.

"I have something, that depending on how weak she is, could put her out for a little while." Carlisle was up to his office before any of us could even speak, and down with a syringe before any of us even realized he was gone. He slowly pushed the needle into her arm, and she quickly drifted into sleep.

"Vampires can.. you know... get shots?" Jake was standing by the door, and arm wrapped tightly around a very nervous Renesme.

"Yes. Vampires can die of starvation. I'd only learned this recently, but if one goes long enough with out hunting, and I mean decades long, they can regain their human qualities, and it would be as if they were never immortal. If one experiences vast trauma over a short or extended period of time, they can also turn human, and I fear that is near the point that Alice was reaching. I don't even think Aro really knew how close he was to killing her. No human heart could stand the amount of pain she has been through."

I looked at the ball in arms, still shaking from the fear of that had happened. Lost in a dream somewhere. I hoped that when she woke back up, there wouldn't be as much fear. Because I felt all her fear, and it was starting to effect me as well. Edward looked up, after hearing my thoughts

"Oh, Jazz. I didn't even think of how you were... Hey... I'm sorry. Are you okay?" Everybody else was a little confused, but I just nodded, not wanting to give an explanation.

"Are you okay? Hearing and everything?" He knew what I meant, and I could tell by the look in his eyes that she didn't like whatever Alice had been thinking before Carlisle put her out. I didn't want to let my mind wander too muc, mostly because I really didn't want to know how awful it could have been

"Dad...I..." Jake looked at Renesme, as she struggled for the words, that she didn't have to say. Her hand went up to Jacobs cheek as she showed him what she was thinking. He closed his eyes, and they remained that way, even after her hand fell. Edward got up and left the room, his distress giving me a headache.

Bella Followed him out, with Nessie and Jake right behind. Esme came and sat down next to me. Her calming presence was exactly what I needed. There was still and undercurrent of anxiety, but she was keeping it at bay so well, I barely noticed it.

"Jasper..." I closed my eyes, bracing myself for a mom talk.

"Esme?"

"Honey, are you okay?" I could feel the love, coming straight from her heart.

"Yes Esme... I'm...No." I didn't expect the honestly from myself. She did though.

"Just keep telling yourself that she is safe now. Right here in your arms."

"But Esme, I...She's terrified of me. Of Edward. Is she really safe? Or are we just protecting her from another means of her own destruction. Is she really safe? Is fear safe?"

Esme looked at me a long time before she spoke. Very slowly.

"No Jasper. Fear is not safe. But love is." She got up and left me with that walking in the same direction Edward went, probably ready to give him the same speech. Rosalie and Emmett followed slowly. I'd almost forgotten they were even there, but they were both managing to project calm to me as well, and I will forver be grateful for that.

But I remembered Carlisle's presence. I could feel his nervousness. I knew he was watching me.

"Are you okay?" I asked him carefully.

He didn't respond. He just looked at Alice, as if he didn't even hear me. And maybe he didn't, so caught up in his own thoughts.

"Carlisle?" His eyes dragged themselves over to me, and he suddenly looked very old. Alice shifted on my lap, shaking out a breath, pulling Carlisle's attention back to her.

"Carlisle." My voice was stern, and he looked at me again, still old. "Sit. Please." His steps were long and heavy, but he fell into the seat beside me. His emotions were rattling through me and it was suddenly very hard to focus. I noticed Edward enter again, but I was too busy screaming in my head to react. He must have heard me, because he ushered Carlisle out quickly, and I was able to calm down.

"I don't realize how much it effects me until I'm already losing it." I explained in a near whisper when Edward walked back in.

"I think I understand. Sometimes the thoughts just..." He looked wistfully at his favorite sister.

"Is Carlisle going to be okay?" I asked, not knowing what else to say.

"I think so. He is just beating himself up, wondering how he couldn't have seen it. Telling himself he could have tried harder to save her, instead of thinking that she had willingly left us." His eyes were still on Alice.

"Is that what everyone thought?" This was near silent, but Edwards eyes still snapped to me as if I was screaming.

"Jasper. No. No, no, no. None of us thought that. None of- not in the beginning. By the end even I was uncertain. I just... No Jasper." I had never seen him at such a loss for words.

Renesme and Jake walked back in slowly. Nessie had been crying, I could tell by her eyes. Edward was up immediately pulling her into his arms, Jake brought his hands up and ran them through his hair. Everyone was high strung. Alice was our glue. Our ireplaceable glue.

"Hey, relax." I was focusing into calming them all down. Jake looked up, angry at first, but then smiled gratefully.

Then everybody walked back in, and without my help they were all relaxed, but still nervous.

Then Alice began to shift in my arms.

"How long has she been out?" Emmett looked at me then Carlisle.

My eyes shot to the clock then back up to Emmett. "And hour and a half." She was squeezing her eyes shut clutching onto my shirt, clenching her teeth together. She was shaking violently in fear. Her fear was starting to bite at me.

"Carlisle!" My voice had an agonizingly pleading tone and I didn't even realize it was my voice until Edward was at my side pulling her out of my arms.

"No! No!" She screamed once again, and Edward dropped her. Nobody else moved as he stepped back, eyes huge in shock. Carlisle went to her on the floor, and gave her something else, slowly relaxing her, into sleep again.

Edward looked down at his hands, golden eyes pained beyond belief. He backed out leaving the house quickly. Bella was right behind him. Renesme burst into tears again.

I just stared my love in a heap on the floor.

Edward POV

I didn't expect her to be like that. She was screaming at me in her head to drop her. Threatening me, screaming. Telling me to stop hurting her. It was too much, My arms just gave out I guess. I couldn't hold her any more. Then all their thoughts went blank, no one really knew what to think. So i ran out. I couldn't stand the immediate transition from screaming loud to deathly silent. I don't ever remember things being completely silent for me.

"Edward!" I didn't realize I was running until I stopped. Bella was right behind me. "Edward!" She ran into me, and I knew it was intentional. Her arms found there way around my neck, and suddenly we were kissing. I pulled away quickly. Too quickly.

"Bella. I-"

Don't apologize the sound of her voice filled my head, and I couldn't help but let a smile peel on my lips.

"Yes ma'am." I spoke slowly, as she grabbed my hand and dragged me back to the house. I heard Renesme's pained cries before Bella, and ended up half dragging her to out distressed daughter.

I wrapped her in my arms, looking at Jacob over her head. His eyes bore into mine. I was reminded of a time where it could have been Bella I was holding, Jake thinking he loved her, looking at me the same way. With the 'I really just don't know how to help' look.

I glanced at Carlisle still leaning over Alice, and Jasper, whose eyes were glued to the floor. Nessie stepped back from me and walked over to Jake.

Dad, we are going back to the house. I can't take this anymore her hand was on Jacob's cheek, and I nodded as they both walked out, heading back to our cabin deeper in the woods.

"What do we do?" Jasper's eyes were still stuck to his soul mate as he spoke. Carlisle stood up and looked right at me.

"I can't knock her out forever."

"We have to let her stay awake in order to adjust. I say if we give her maybe 20 minutes, she'll realize that we aren't trying to kill her" I spoke, pretending like I knew what I was talking about. I was sudden;y thankful no one could read my mind, because I didn't want anyone to know how scared I really was.