Author's Note:
A hundred apologises for such a long delay in updating... Life keeps getting in the way of my writing... But tonight I managed to get the kids to bed early and the hubby's out of down and the work cell phone is off... so here you go...
BTW ... thank you so much for still reading and reviewing...
Enjoy this one....
Warning: Adult themes / descriptions...
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Gibbs' hand was steady as he signed the forms the nurse handed him.
"I want to watch the surgery." He said.
"That's not allowed I'm afraid." The nurse smiled sympathetically.
"I said," Gibbs glared, stepping into her personal space. "I want to watch the surgery."
"Jethro," Ducky placed a firm hand on his shoulder as he nodded to the nurse to leave.
Gibbs shook Ducky's hand away. "Take me to the viewing room."
"Jethro..."
"Ducky!"
"Alright," Ducky sighed. "Let me speak to her doctor to clear it first." Ducky said as he walked away.
It was then that Gibbs started shaking, shaking with rage, with disbelief, with terror.
She will never have children and she will blame me...
I told the doctors to save her...
I killed her hopes of ever being a mother...
"Boss?" Tony's voice reached his ears. It took him a minute to realise that the younger agent was standing right next to him.
"What is it, DiNozzo?"
"Are you okay?"
Gibbs just glared.
"Okay, you're not okay," Tony said. "None of us are."
Gibbs took a breath and willed himself to calm down.
"How's McGee?" he asked.
"He came to a few minutes ago." Tony said. "The Doc's with him now. They need to run a few tests to see if everything's okay."
"Did you speak to him?"
"Yeah,"
"And?"
"He doesn't remember what happened."
"He has amnesia?"
"I don't know, Boss." Tony replied, frustration radiating off him. "That's what the Doc's trying to figure out."
Just then, Ziva was wheeled out of the ER.
"Go back and stay with him. Don't leave his side." Gibbs said as he turned to follow Ziva to the OR.
Tony watched and wondered how things had turned so bad. Ziva never talked about her captivity. In fact, she minimized the whole God Damn experience.
"I'm a trained agent, Tony. I knew the risks."... "I have been cleared by the psychologist so you have no reason to be concerned."... "I've been through worse."
She had fooled them. And they had wanted to be fooled. Tony turned and headed back to McGee.
Tim, you better be okay... he prayed.
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Gibbs stood in the viewing room. He watched the surgeon slice into Ziva's exposed body. He felt bile race up his throat as the sight of her blood staining her skin. The doctors' voices filled his ears via the speakers in the viewing room.
"Jethro, you shouldn't be here."
"I can be nowhere else right now Duck."
He watched and listened. And he prayed.
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Ziva felt like she was being held down. All around her, everything was a dull, dusty grey. The sounds reaching her ears were so loud.
Shouts.
Men shouting.
And she was naked...
Naked and cold...
"No... not again..."
"No..." she soundlessly begged.
But there is was, the ropes binding her wrists to the wall, the rough hands slapping her ass and the loud jeering of the filthy men watching.
"She likes that Saleem."
"Give it to her again."
"Make her scream."
"Make her cry."
His hands were on her back, sending shivers of disgust and dread through her body.
"Bend forward, Ziva." He ordered, pushing down on her back. When she resisted, he wrapped his fist in her hair and tugged roughly.
"Obey now and I will be quick. Anger me and you will pay the price."
"Go to hell, Saleem." She spat.
"That was the wrong thing to do." He tugged harder still on her hair and slammed her head into the wall. The pain ripping through her skull gave him the advantage. He had her bend forward, his fingers shoved hard and rough into her dry, bruised body.
"Her body weeps for me already..." He laughed, thrusting those filthy fingers in and out of her.
"Take her now."
"Yes Saleem, make her scream."
The men shouted louder. The heat and stale smell of lust choked off her breath. She knew he was adjusting his clothes. She knew he was about to force himself on her. She held back her cry as he penetrated her in a vicious, tearing thrust.
"Oh Ziva," he growled. "You are so tight. Just the way I like my women."
"Saleem, when do we get a chance?" His men salivated as he raped her, his hands slapping, squeezing and pitching her naked body.
"Soon, Kalid." He panted his sweating dripping onto her back. "Maybe I will let you join me in a threesome later today. Now let me enjoy this..." Saleem growled turning back to her. "Are you ready, my slut? I am going to make you scream now..."
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Chaos broke out in the OR. The doctors and nurses all spoke at once.
"What's happening?" Gibbs demanded from Ducky.
"Her blood pressure is dangerously low. If they don't elevate it, she will not pull through the surgery."
"Damn it." Gibbs swore as he leaned against the glass and watched her face.
Don't slip away....
Don't do this Ziva...
I need you...
"Oh dear..."Ducky sighed.
"What?"Gibbs demanded.
"Ziva was ..." Ducky swallowed.
"Was?"
"Ziva was pregnant. The doctors have just removed her dead foetus." Ducky said his voice heavy with shock.
Gibbs' head swung back to the viewing window. He saw the tiny, bloody mess, the nurse placed on a steel tray.
"It was a girl." Ducky said sorrow and dismay undeniable.
"A baby girl?" Gibbs whispered. You were four months pregnant with your captor's baby and you never told me!
Shit!!!
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Author's note:
That's it for this one....
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