Chapter 4
Izzy
Waking up this morning wasn't fun. I didn't sleep much last night because I was fighting with myself to get me back under control. I imagined of many situations that might happen and thought about what I will say then to hide my secret from everyone.
It's Wednesday and I need a break! Maybe I should run away? Nah.. too troublesome... I hope I will survive this day.. actually, I hope every day that I will survive.
I wait until it's quiet downstairs, then I run down, grab my breakfast and leave the house before anyone could see me or even talk to me.
I walk to school since I don't feel like riding the bus. As I walk into the school, two girls watch me carefully. Lydia is running my way and greets me with a hug... DISGUSTING! Why the hell is she hugging me?! Who allowed that bitch to even touch me?
"Sweetie, when will you ask me for a date?"
Is she serious? How can she still think I would want a date with her.
"Never," I say and walk as fast as I can away. But I've only done a few steps when I hear a voice behind me. "Alec, where were you this morning?!" Izzy. These irritating monsters are everywhere! Why the hell can't they just leave me alone?!
"None of your business!" I reply and go further on. I don't know if she said something or not but I don't really care. I go to class and took the seat at the very back next to the window, my favorite seat. I stare out of the window during the whole lesson and even in the break I don't want to stand up. "Alec...?" it's Izzy. Of course. "What?!" I keep staring out of the window. "Can we talk?" she asks. "No" is my only answer. "Alec please, I need to talk to you." her voice cracks in the sentence. I look up, surprised by her behavior. She has tears in her eyes. "Izzy...?"
"Don't say anything, please. Think about it and if you want to meet me, I'll be in the park after school." she turns around and is gone.
That was unusual... Now I'm worried! Even if I hate her, she is my sister and she looked like crying! Something is wrong and I want to know what! I have still four lessons till schools end so I will wait patiently.
The rest of the lessons is passing me by like the first. Even in an examination I'm not writing much, even if I know the answers.
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After school, I go straight to the park. Izzy is already waiting on a bench
"Alec I need your trust! Please, can I trust you and can you for once trust me?" She says right away. I'm a little confused.. why does she look so nervous? "Yeah sure... I trust you and you can trust me Izzy.. we are brother and sister after all"
She looks in my eyes. Then she takes a deep breath. "ok, how do I start..."
I'm waiting patiently
"You know.. ehmm.. this one guy I always talk about..?" Wait what guy? "You were never listening to me?!".. did she read my mind? "Urgh, you'r so troublesome! However this guy you know.. we.. I.. he.. ehm..", "Izzy, just say it!" "Well.." she takes a deep breath.
"Ok listen. Magnus is his name. And before you run away" she takes my arm because this was really my plan "it's not about your feelings Alec. It's more about us. I was really hurt that you won't talk to me. You treat me like shit and I really can't stand that, because you are really important to me. You know I'm not the serious type of person but you're hurting me, Alec! You really do! And if you don't wanna talk about your feelings for Magnus- don't tell me you don't have any, I'm not blind- then fine. Anyway, I'll always be here for you if you need someone to tell everything. But stop hating me like that."
Well, that was unexpected. What should I do know? Don't loose your cool Alec! "Well.. ehm.." oh no the stuttering is back... "OKAY! I guess I have a thing for Magnus.. but it's not what you think... I guess.." it's out! Oh my gosh, I said it! I broke my one rule to never ever let my secret out... "Thank you, Alec! It really means a lot to me that you trust me!" She smiles and a little tear drops out her eyes.
I'm completely speechless. What did I just do?! But I can't take it back... And the crazy thing about this is... I don't want to. "I'm sorry Izzy." she hugs me and I just let her. I feel better, even if I would never admit that...
"So .. tell me, how far are you and Magnus?" She smirks. "Tze... Just because I admit that I .. you already know.. doesn't mean I will tell you every detail of my life!" That's right Alec! Good answer Alec! "So.. you guys want to go on a date this Saturday?".. what the hell?! How.. how did she know? "What.. eh... Nooooo.. why do you think so?" I'm so obvious! Alec get your feelings under control! "Well... it's written all over your face.. and you admitted with your so obvious behavior that you two will go on a date!" She is the devil!
"Fine you might be right but you won't get something more out of me."
"I will!" I wish I could say she's definitely wrong but she is a monster eating information and I'm her helpless victim. "Hah, see? You don't even believe it yourself!" she says. What did I just say...
Suddenly a loud growl came from my tummy.. yeah I'm hungry. Izzy laughs "let's go home grumpy-hungry-little-brother-cat" I don't want to reply to this, so I just ignore it and stand up to go into the direction of our house.
Normally only my mother is in the kitchen. She seems to be there all the time. But instead of her Jace is there today, already eating dinner. I remember that my mother said her and dad would go out this evening. Somehow that makes me happy. Two persons less to ask questions.
Right behind me Izzy walks into the kitchen and moves to the fridge. "Hey," Jace says with his mouth full. I move to the counter and put myself some food on a plate than I sit next to Jace and begin to eat.
"How are you doing?" Izzy asks Jace.
"Really fine. I'll meet Clary later on. She will come here with me."
Oh. If Cloxy is here I'll spend my evening in my room.
"Oh, that's so cool!" Izzy is amazed. Surprise surprise. "Perhaps she wanna meet Alec and me?" Izzy, please stop.
"Oh, I'm pretty tired... I'll go to bed after dinner.." this day was not as awful as the last ones so please don't let red-haired-slut ruin it.
Jace rolls his eyes but doesn't say anything and Izzy look like she knew that I would say something like that.
I really appreciate that. Nobody's getting on my nerves this evening. Feels like paradise.
*End of chapter 4*