Death Behind Intentions

by Akai Naiya

Matt is killed while Mello finds out that he has to forget about him, but what happens when he finds out that maybe Matt's death wasn't a good thing after all?

4. Recollection

AN: I decided to finish this one even though it's been a while. Yea, I know I'm lame.

I didn't mean to desert him. Somewhere in my mind after seeing him dead I wanted to pretend it never happened. Perhaps it was the fact that If I didn't leave him like that then I would have lost. It would have meant that I allowed my emotions to get the better of me and right now I couldn't take that. I could have no distractions. The Kira case was the top task and I could not allow anyone no matter who they were to distract me.

Putting my pen down I reopened the composition notebook. I had to try this again. Only this time no matter what I heard or happened I would ignore it. About five minutes into reading I began to hear it again the knocking, but not only that a loud high pitched almost frequency type noise. There was no way in hell I could just dismiss this and try to continue on without noticing. Getting up out of my chair I took the composition notebook and my jacket. I couldn't stay here anymore. There had to be somewhere else. Again I was abandoning him.