When I woke up my head was throbbing, I felt tired and sad but I couldn't work out why. My bed was made and I was lying on top of it with my clothes from last night still on and makeup smudges on my face.

I sat up slowly to try and ease the hangover wall that was about to hit me square in the face when I heard noise coming from the kitchen.

"Hello?"

I hoped someone would come running and save me with coffee but it seemed that today would be my unlucky day… Brilliant. So I dragged myself off the bed and into the kitchen where Berry was making pancakes.

"Hey." I grumbled as I sat at the table.

"Morning sunshine." Rachel replied chirpily. "How're you this morning?"

"Feel crap."

"Not really surprised." She grinned as she placed a coffee in front of me.

"Thanks. So, where is everyone?"

"Well Brody didn't stay over last night, for obvious reasons, so he's at his, Kurt went shopping and Quinn went to her interview."

"Oh crap, I forgot about Q, where did she go last night?" I moaned as I felt an overwhelming feeling of guilt rush through me.

"Well when I got back she was asleep on the couch, she said that you fell asleep sideways and she didn't want to wake you up so she just crashed in my room. She seemed alright about it really."

"Sure she was ok?" I asked as I reached for my phone and began typing.

Q. So sorry about being such a mess last night, I'll make it up to you! Good luck today. Love Tana xx

"Yeah she was fine, she should be back soon actually, she left about 10."

"Crap I've slept half of the day away. Look Rach, I'm so sorry about the stuff I said about Brody last night, I was so far out of line."

Rachel shuffled uncomfortably before putting down the mix she was making and turning to face me.

"Don't apologize. Brody was an ass. You were joking and then he was just nasty to you, but don't worry he won't do it again."

"What? Why? It's fun."

"Because it's over… You're my family and nobody talks to the people I love like that."

I sat open-mouthed and staring at Rachel. I'm such a fuck up at times and now I'm fucking up everything for everyone else.

"Rach, you don't have to do that. It's me, it's always me, I was just in a shitty mood and I was distracted and drunk and just out of line. Call him and ask him to come over?"

"No Santana, I've made my decision."

"Please Rachel." I could feel myself getting emotional, partially because of the guilt and partially because of the hangover but I couldn't let Rachel ruin her happiness for me. "Please? I'll call him if you don't."

"Please don't. I'll think about it but I need some time to just think." I nodded although she was talking crap. Rachel was really into someone for the first time in ages and no way would she let him go that easily.

"What's up with your makeup? You've got lipstick all round your face." I looked at the reflection in my phone to see smudges of red all around my mouth and down my neck. I don't wear red lipstick, where the fuck has this come from? I grabbed a towel from on the counter and started rubbing my face to get it off.

"Hey, I just washed that!" Rachel shouted as she yanked it from my hands. She looked at me and gasped. "Is there someone here?"

"What? What are you talking about Yentl?" I laughed as I walked to the sink and tried again to make myself look less of a hot mess.

"You weren't wearing that last night! Is Annie here? Has she gone already?"

"No. I haven't seen Annie." I sighed but it was bothering me, I knew it wasn't my own make up but who's was it? I was at a bar sure but I woke up to a made bed and fully clothed so either I'd kissed a stranger and it had been bad which is doubtful or I'd bought someone back and I was such a mess that they ran for it.

"It wasn't another random was it?" Rachel asked as she pouted like a stupid toddler who hadn't got what she wanted.

"No!" I shouted back but I really had no idea, after the Brody thing everything was kind of a blur. I remember Q offering to drag me home, I remember feeling guilty and I remember Kurt being kind of pissed but that's all.

"Ok, calm down!" Rachel laughed. I was fucking calm until you panicked me Berry. I sighed as I dragged myself up and towards my room dragging my feet.

"I'm having a shower." I mumbled as I slipped through the bathroom door.

"I'll be gone when you get back so have a good day! And wash this cup up that you've left!"

"Whatever." I growled as I turned on the shower.

Crap. I forgot to bring clothes in with me again. I stumbled across the stupidly small bathroom and grabbed a towel, whipping my back with my wet hair as I moved. I wrapped it around myself and prepared to make a run for my room. I'd managed to get all the make up off my face apart from a tiny mark on my chin, which I assumed was just a bruise that I couldn't remember anything about.

I grabbed the handle and swung the door open as I walked quickly towards my room. As I passed through the kitchen I heard the front door open from behind me and I turned to see a shocked Quinn standing in the doorway, wearing a tight business suit and some bright red lipstick.

Images started coming back to me, the bathroom, the dancing, the cab ride. Oh God the cab ride! I couldn't move, I couldn't react; I just stood staring at her in a towel that was starting to slip down in all the wrong places as she stood staring back.

"I, I…" was all I could create before she ran past me with tears streaming down her face and went into Rachel's room.

I ran into my room, got dressed as quickly as I could and went to knock on Rachel's door.

"Go away Santana." I heard from inside the room. Charming, I'm not that bad a kisser.

"I'm coming in Q… 3,2…"

Just as I was about to say 1 the door cracked open and I could see Quinn's face through the gap.

"I don't want to talk about it." She whispered as I gently pushed on the door so it would open more.

"Ok. I just wanted to see why you were upset, I mean you kind of ran past me and stuff so…"

"I made it awkward and difficult." She sniffed as she walked over to sit on the bed. I followed her.

"No Q! You just caught me off guard and naked and hungover." I laughed as she smiled up at me. I put my arm out and she snuggled under it as if she'd been waiting for the offer. "You haven't ruined anything, I wanted to kiss you, I know I shouldn't have but I did and it's ok. You can talk to me."

"Please, I can't talk about any of it, I have to forget about it, nobody can know, ever."

"Hmm… You might not want to wear that lipstick in front of Rachel then." I joked, squeezing her into me. She laughed and it was the most beautiful laugh I'd ever heard. "But really, what's going on?"

" I don't know, I don't understand it. It's just, since the wedding I've felt different." She started playing with the small ring on her right hand, I'd never seen her this distressed. "It might be nothing but… what if I am into women and everything's going to change? My family will hate me and I mean really hate me, more than when I got pregnant."

"Of course they won't. They're your family." I hugged her as she sobbed into my sweatshirt. "You're kind of hard to hate you know, trust me I tried in high school."

"Funny." She grinned. "I'm sorry, I was really hoping I'd arrive and we'd have this amazing time and it would all be perfect and easy but its just not."

"Don't even bother trying to apologize, we can still have an amazing time Quinnie, it's me remember. "

"Yeah exactly it's you. Santana, my friend, and we've got all this history. I just don't want it to get complicated."

"What's complicated?" I leant over and gently placed my lips on her forehead and let them linger against her soft pale skin. I heard her giggle and she pulled away and looked at me. She pressed her lips against my cheek and sent shivers down my spine. Ok she's actually going to kill me, this is insanely hot, Quinn is insanely hot and I think my head might just explode.

"Well, if nobody knows then there are no complications." She moved her lips across my cheek and to my ear.

"What are you saying Q?" I asked as I felt her warm breath on my neck. I knew what she was saying, she wanted me to hop back into the closet with her and take two giant leaps backwards so I can keep her company and provide some sweet lady kisses. Not gonna happen. I felt her hand on the side of my neck and instantly regretted my thoughts. This is Quinn, beautiful, smart, amazing Quinn. This is Quinn who I know and trust and she knows me better than anyone. No. Don't give in. Stop.

"Well, it's not like everyone has to know our business," She looked into my eyes and grinned. "It can just be our little secret."

At that moment I caved, what could I do? It was Quinn.

A/N. Hey, I just wanted to say thanks for reading so far, I really appreciate the follows and reviews, hopefully the next few chapters will be uploaded soon and I really hope you guys enjoy them.

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