HAHA! Just felt a little crazy and had to rubbish a little. Anyway, the titles. Do they make sense? They were supposed to be from Allen's POV. He was found by Kanda. Cared for by Kanda. Left by Kanda. And now he's back where he belongs! And that's right with Kanda! omgomg. ... I'm a little crazy. High on fluff most probably. Ahem, without further ado, let's welcome the update! Ta-daa!
A/N: Allen here is an accommodator since he was found, and he hasn't been able to control his Innocence, yesh, all the way till he was fifteen. But I didn't really fill the gap from the part Mana died. ^^;; So forgive me if the setting and characterization is a little confusing.
Note: I KNOW THIS IS PRETTY SHORT. I'm trying to update. Seriously. I'm already working on the next chapter. So sorry if this chapter was a bit too short for your liking. The fluff will totally come up next. I wish I could give you a spoiler, but as the name 'spoiler' suggest, it'll spoil everything~! So, wait a little bit more!
Note2: Jap. translations are down there!
Warning: This is a Yullen fic, I'm sure you know that, and if you're here looking for lemons or sth, HAH! You'll be terribly disappointed. There will definitely be an overload of sugar and fluff, but that's all. The most you'll see is an increase in weight on the weighing scale! ^^
Disclaimer: Yeshhh~This place is called Fanfiction for a reason. These characters do not belong to me and never will. They belong to Katsura Hoshino.
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Toma was on the train. The circle had disappeared a few seconds ago, leaving an impossibly frightened and trembling Allen sitting opposite him. Allen had shifted away when he sat on the same side, so he shifted to the opposite instead. He wouldn't have minded sitting outside the train compartment, but he had to keep Master Allen and the two Innocence together with him within the circle. All the while on the train, he watched as Master Allen fidgeted with his coat hem and stare at the faintly glowing circle. The moment the circle had vanished, Master Allen had tears flowing freely, hands clenched tight onto his lapels.
Toma could only lower his head as he watched Master Allen cry silently. He couldn't reassure Master Allen when he himself wasn't sure when Master Kanda would be back with them at the Order. He could only watch knowingly when the circle faded and flickered, before extinguishing completely.
Master Kanda must be at his limits already.
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The moment the two had stepped foot back at the Order, Allen had run away from the finder, straight to Kanda's bedroom. If anything, Kanda's room was the only one he could and needed to remember getting to from practically anywhere he's been to in the Order.
The door wasn't locked when he reached. Allen slowed down before the door, almost afraid to enter. Nervously, Allen placed his hand on the doorknob and entered the room, back leaning against the door and staring into the familiar four walls he loved being in.
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Toma knew that once at the Dark Order, Master Allen would be safe. Wasting no time at all, Toma headed straight for the head's office. When he entered, Komui was already alert, knowing that something must be wrong if it was a finder instead of Kanda who knocked and came personally to give a report.
From the very beginning of the mission till the end, Toma truthfully told the head what happened, excluding details which did not involve the mission of course, such as the more…personal things concerning only Master Kanda and Master Allen. Komui listened with interest to the mission details, astonished at their luck of finding two Innocence at one go on one mission and with only one "working" exorcist and one finder too! Komui gave the finder brief instructions, telling him that all they could do now was to wait for Kanda's return as the exorcists present were all taking their first break in ages and Kanda's pride definitely wouldn't allow somebody saving him, especially after knowing that he used a technique he had never used before, for a reason he had never had before.
Toma was told to alert Lenalee and Lavi to check up on Allen-kun and then heading to rest, since Komui himself would be busied by the find of two Innocence. Should the higher-ups decide to have the Generals look for compatibles, he'd have a lot of work contacting the respective Generals.
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"Allen-kun, are you there?"
Lenalee was outside the door, having received news from the finder of the latest mission.
"Moyashi-chan! It's no use, we know you're in there! We're coming in if you don't reply us!"
Lavi was outside too, banging on Kanda's door. He was smart enough to know exactly where the moyashi would be, especially when moyashi-chan's dearest savior wasn't with him. Lavi kept true to his words, barging in with Lenalee. Lavi watched, open-mouthed, as Allen sat on the floor of the bedroom, in a small circle drawn with plain chalk.
"A-Allen-kun, are you alright?"
Allen remained silent, huddling and hugging his knees tighter to himself while his face remained passive.
"Moyashi-chan, I don't know why you're doing this, but this has got to stop. I doubt Yuu would be pleased if he saw you right now like that."
At the mention of his favourite exorcist's name, Allen's back stiffened.
Seeing this reaction, Lavi continued, "He'll be back, I'm sure. If I remember correctly, Toma said you hadn't eaten for since you left for the mission?"
Allen started rocking himself back and forth slowly, tuning out Lavi's words. Kanda was the only one who could get his attention now.
He shouldn't have left. He should have stayed. He didn't care now. He regretted ever thinking of leaving Kanda alone like that. Trust could only go that far. He couldn't deny the fact that Kanda wasn't looking too good when he left.
BaKanda always tried so hard. For him. Baka. Baka. Baka. Baka. Baka!
"...ne, Allen-chan. Oi, Allen-chan, were you listening?" Lavi whined.
Lenalee looked from Allen to the red-head. She shook her head, motioning for Lavi to leave the boy some time to be alone with himself. All and any talk would only remain around and nowhere into Allen. Lavi tugged up the corners of his mouth, giving the moyashi a slight and forced cheerful wave before he left, closing the door. They could only hope that moyashi-chan would be fine for now.
Allen lifted his head ever so slowly. He took a look at the door that had just closed.
Good. He didn't want company now. Not unless it was Kanda.
…Kanda.
The name itself brought a silent but choked sob to the boy. He wanted to see Kanda now. Reallyreally bad. He was feeling horrible without the blue-haired exorcist beside him. He felt as if he could sleep for an eternity.
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Allen had sat, stone still in the circle late into the night, not once getting up or away from the circle he had made.
Lenalee and Lavi had returned, standing outside Kanda's room once more.
"Allen, I know you're upset, but it's past midnight and you have to at least eat something," desperation cut into her voice, lacing it with concern.
Lavi, exasperated, took action first. He entered the room, Lenalee following close behind. Allen did not seem at all disturbed by the intrusion, only sitting where he was, rocking and unconsciously keening to himself, making no move to acknowledge the presence of the two intruders. Lavi couldn't tolerate it any longer. The boy hadn't even so much as blinked when they came in. Lavi kneeled on one foot, hands shooting out to pull Allen forcefully from the self-made circle.
When his hands met were met with no resistance and Allen crashed over onto him, making him fall over, Lavi blinked comically, and Lenalee would have laughed, if not for the dead weight in his hands. Allen had his eyes open, but they were dim and unseeing. With Allen half tipped over like this, Lavi could see the beads of perspiration that slicked the boy's forehead. Something was very strange. The boy never allowed anybody to touch him unless it was Kanda. Furthermore, his glazed over eyes worried Lavi.
"Lenalee, he's burning up! Help me pull him…up."
This time, when the two pairs of hands righted Allen and tried to pull him up, Allen weakly placed his hands on either exorcist, pushing them away feebly.
"N-no. Kanda…have to wait…wait…Kanda…did…same. Kanda drew circle…came. Kanda'll... come again."
Lavi could have sworn that the boy's eyes gained a sparkle when he spoke of Kanda. Feeling extremely helpless since Allen was sick and wasn't in any condition to be dragged around, which meant he had to move willingly. Lavi could only hold the boy still until consciousness slipped from the boy. Allen's head, as if right on cue, lolled forward onto Lavi's chest, body slackening in Lavi's grip. He hadn't managed to escape Lavi's firm grip on him.
Lavi frowned and carried Allen, resting him carefully onto the bed, keeping the covers off him, knowing that he needed to cool down. Lenalee watched the scene with stormy eyes. This was getting serious. Allen obviously wasn't in a right state of mind without his savior beside him. Things would only worsen if Kanda didn't return soon.
"Kanda-san had better be back soon. If he doesn't come back soon, I swear he'll get Allen-kun killed."
"Lena, could you update Komui on Allen-chan? I'll try to get him to cool down while you're at it."
Nodding, Lenalee replied, "Yes, I'll tell Komui nii-san about Allen. He should be sleeping in his office."
Lenalee had exited and left Lavi all alone in the room with Allen. Lavi advanced towards the little figure on the bed. Climbing over the edge on the bed, Lavi's head was bowed down, weight supported with a knee on either side of Allen's hips, aligned. Lavi placed his hands on the moyashi's shoulders, attempting to take off the heavy and warm exorcist coat from him.
Allen opened his eyes, unsure of when he'd closed them. Looking up blearily, Allen felt nauseous, a splitting headache clinging on to his hazy mind. He barely registered who it was above him, although their current positions reminded Allen of his encounter with Kanda. Instinctively, when his thoughts strayed to Kanda, Allen widened his eyes, a tiny flicker of hope glimmering.
Was it Kanda?
Allen winced at the headache that attacked him when he widened his eyes too quick to confirm the identity of the one above him.
It's…it's not Kanda. Not…Kanda. Not Kanda.
And the next moment, Allen had mustered up all his strength and had shoved Lavi, hard, hard enough to land at the foot of Kanda's bed and fall, bum-down to the ground.
"Ow-ow-ow-owww. Allen-chan! You could have been a little gentler! I was trying to help you out of your coat. You're burning too high!"
Allen shook his head, knees bending slightly, as if to prevent Lavi from coming any closer.
He didn't want anybody in that position. That position that Kanda had had over him. It was a position reserved specially and solely for his knight. Nobody else but Kanda. Lavi wasn't going to be an exception.
Lavi raised his hands, palms toward Allen in defeat. Wordlessly, Lavi went towards the bathroom to get a wet towel at least, for the uncooperative moyashi. Looking around in the bathroom, he took the closest towel he could get his hands on. Lavi wetted it and returned to his spot beside the bed, wet towel in hand. This time, he was well-aware of moyashi's wary eyes.
Sighing, Lavi commented, "You need to cool down. If you're not going to take it, I'm going to do it for you."
Allen frowned, hesitating for a second before reaching out and snatching the towel from Lavi's outstretched hand.
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Meanwhile, Lenalee was already in Komui's office with a hastily woken up but nonetheless cheerful-to-see-his-beloved-sister head.
"Nii-san, Allen's drawn a circle and refused to get out of it. We were worried since he didn't come out and eat, so…so we went to try coax him out of the room, but he wouldn't listen. Lavi was the one who barged in. I followed him. He found Allen-kun burning up."
Komui pondered those words, head inclining slightly.
Burning up? That was…strange. It was highly unlikely that Allen-kun had caught a cold. Kanda would never have let Allen catch a cold when Allen was with him. Allen-kun had only been back at the Order. Where and when could he have caught a cold? And no amount of trauma could get a normal and healthy exorcist to burn up. Something must have gone wrong…Could it be, could it be…?
Komui found the situation most unusual. He stared solemnly at his sister and said, "We can only pray Kanda is coming back soon, if my guesses are correct."
Lenalee could only tilt her head questioningly at her brother, who was deep in thought, a rare occurrence.
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Allen had smothered his face with the wet towel completely. The scent of the towel; green tea and soap…Allen breathed the familiar fragrance in headily. It made him feel a lot better, knowing that he was in Kanda's room and was clutching on to Kanda's towel. Lavi took his leave after yawning for the billionth time. One could almost swear that his face had changed the moment he started to yawn. His eyes became droopy, his blinking slowed, his shoulders hunched forward slightly. Yes, he had a biological alarm clock. Once he started yawning, it was a sign for him to drop himself on his bed and sleep.
"Ne, moyashi-chan, I'll be going off. If you need me, just call. Call loud enough, I'm sure it'll reach my room."
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The next day, Kanda hadn't returned from the mission and Komui had begun to lean against his desk, sipping coffee for ages; a sign that he was troubled. Allen's conditions had gotten worse in the night. He had a fever that wouldn't stop burning, violent coughs taking over his body which leaving the boy more than unwilling to talk. To make matters worse, the boy wouldn't allow anybody to touch him; flinching away from anybody who came too close to him. Agitating the boy only served to rack up his violent coughing. Lavi and Lenalee had given up trying to get the boy to eat because of that. The boy refused all and any food. He was getting paler by the day; nothing could get his spirits higher other than the occasional mention of Kanda that would get the boy to perk up, then sadden and return to his passive mode.
Lavi was back to see Allen again that morning, although he had quite given up on persuading the boy to eat. Lenalee had gone with Reever to help Komui with his paperwork. As usual, Lavi asked Allen if he felt particularly uncomfortable anywhere, not expecting an answer from the boy. Lavi had almost exited the room when Allen spoke up.
"Left arm…numb…can't move."
Lavi widened his eyes. Allen rarely said anything at all; there must be something serious troubling him if he had spoken up. Lavi made his way beside the bed. Allen had been half-under the covers in Kanda's bedroom since he refused to go to the Infirmary or let anyone touch him, so there hadn't really been anybody doing a manual check-up on him.
"Allen, I need you to show me your arm, mind if I…" Lavi trailed off, pointing at the covers, where Allen's arm was supposed to be under.
Allen pouted for a moment, pondering his question. A second later, Allen nodded, albeit reluctantly. He knew that Lavi would probably be in better position to determine the cause of the numbness and help him.
Allen allowed Lavi to tug away the covers before pulling up his sleeve, revealing his arm. Lavi gaped at what he saw, not expecting something as shocking as what he saw. The glowing green cross on the back of Allen's hand had turned a deep, mysterious ashmauve, vines spreading from that one point outwards and upwards, ensnaring that dark, reddish arm in its embrace. Thorns borne the vines, but they seemed rather harmless, thorns barely pressing into that tender skin.
Lavi, entranced and thoroughly ensnared in awe, reached out to touch the arm. The vines enclosed the arm further, growing longer and raveling around that arm more, its thorns suddenly looking more menacing than ever.
Lavi got out of it immediately, clearing his head. There was a hint of danger from those vines. He had to get Komui. Quick.
"Allen-chan, wait for me, I'm going off for a second."
When Lavi returned, Komui was at his side, staring intently at Allen. Allen looked from Lavi to Komui.
Lavi had told Komui about his arm? What was Komui going to do with him?!
"Allen-kun, I think I need to bring you down to see Hevlaska about your Innocence arm. Lavi described your situation and I can see very clearly that this involves Innocence," Komui said gravely, all the while looking straight into the frightened boy's silver orbs.
Allen widened his eyes, trying to shake the vines off. Allen currently wished for the vines to magically disappear there and then. He didn't want to go with Komui to see that…that translucent…Hev—Hevlaska in the basement. Especially when Kanda wasn't around.
"Sorry about this, Allen-chan!"
Lavi was in front of Allen, by the side of the bed, and he had already gone on to sling Allen's arms around his neck, moving swiftly out of Kanda's room. It was a normal piggyback, but the contact had gotten Allen thrashing around, frantically trying to get away from Lavi.
This man wasn't Kanda, and Kanda didn't usually carry him like that. He didn't like having his arms around anyone else but Kanda. Having Lavi carrying him on his back made him nauseous. He needed to get away from Lavi, fast. Lavi was too close to him; their bodies were touching. It just wasn't right, especially with someone other than Kanda.
Everything racing through his mind then comprised of Kanda, and Allen pushed and knocked Lavi feebly at the shoulder blades, trying to free himself from Lavi's hands and fast legs.
"Allen-chan, you haven't eaten anything for the past few days. You wouldn't be able to stop me even if you tried. You should stop before you fall off. I'm sure Yuu-chan wouldn't be too pleased if he found out the moyashi fell and hurt himself."
His words did the trick. Allen's attempts grew increasing half-hearted before gradually ceasing completely.
"Che."
Lavi heard the soft sound and smiled. The boy had picked up Yuu-chan's habits!
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Lavi had left, leaving Komui and Allen alone in the basement with Hevlaska. A struggling Allen was once again wrapped around by Hevlaska's tentacles after he was safely trapped between her metallic claws.
To both Hevlaska and Allen's surprise, horror being mostly on Allen's part, the vines enclosing his arm had reacted to Hevlaska's actions, and almost as if acting on its owner's emotions, they slithered their way to Allen's front, creating a neat spectacle of several long, thorny vines assembled at different points in an invisible circle around Allen.
If Hevlaska was shocked, she didn't show it. The roots of strange occurrences usually lie with Innocence. She still had to check the boy's synchronization rate. Tentacles wavering in dimness and stretching towards and around Allen, they remained unaffected by the vines which had launched an attack, shooting from their positions, only to pass through all and any part of Hevlaska they touched.
"Save your strength boy, it's useless," Hevlaska stated simply.
Her words seemed to calm the panicking boy down, and the vines responded to the change in atmosphere, withdrawing from her and slinking back to the ashmauve cross on Allen's left hand.
The same process took place, with those strange tentacles reaching into Allen, making him uncomfortable, but the boy put up with it, he didn't even make a sound. It ended almost an eternity later, tentacles swiftly withdrawing from his body and back into nothing. Allen was jolted by Hevlaska's deep, resonating holler within the dark basement.
"Komui! What is this?! The boy's synchronization rate has fallen to a low of 63%! The last he came, barely a few days ago, his Innocence was at 83%. His Innocence seems unstable! If this continues, the synchronization rate will decrease further and the boy will inevitably become a Fallen One!" Hevlaska roared, confused yet all the same angry.
Allen was placed back with his feet on the ground. This was new to him and he didn't know what was wrong.
"I've never seen something like this before—"
Komui interrupted her thoughtfully, a speculating look clouding his features when he looked at the boy he had brought to the basement, "ne, Hevlaska, is it possible for an Innocence to become…attuned to another's presence?"
Hevlaska narrowed her eyes, coiling her gigantic body a little, bending down to see Komui better.
"What do you mean, supervisor?" the words came out as a hiss, but in a noticeably calmer tone than before.
"Because you see, Kanda was the one to save this boy, and from the limited and highly inaccurate information I managed to gather from that Bookman Junior, the boy was found ly— " Komui recounted all the encounters starting from the time Kanda had rescued the boy and have said boy, Allen, waking up and allowing nobody but the blue-haired exorcist near him.
Allen listened to the droning, disinterested. He badly wanted to go back to Kanda's room and wait for Kanda. What if Kanda had already come back and he was still here, trapped in this stupid basement and a stupid head.
Hevlaska spoke after the long but simple recount, "I have never seen a case as such, but Innocence being a fragment of God's power; anything can happen. When such an unpredictable matter is fused with a human heart, a being not so like itself, strange things may happen. I do not agree on a completely new level since I've never heard of this, but I am not entirely shutting out that idea."
"So…yes, it is possible," Hevlaska stated hesitantly, almost unsure of her own words.
Komui caught Allen's look of disinterest, and as politely as he could, said, "thank you, I think I'll be bringing Allen-kun up and you can have your rest."
Hevlaska only nodded, turning away and shifting her attention on something else.
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Kanda had opened his eyes, dragging a forearm over his eyes out of habit. Kanda looked around. How long had he been out of it? It looked like he was out cold for two days.
Wait. What?!! Two days?!
Kanda sat up in one swift motion. He regretted it instantly. Most of his wounds had healed, but he was still feeling sore from all the fighting, and the deeper lacerations were bound to have a smaller gash or cut still there. He wasn't some sort of immortal. In fact, he was just the opposite.
Kanda looked around, spotting what he was looking for.
The helmet, the helmet. Taking the helmet from the man was as good as a promise to protect the helmet. He didn't break his promises, not even to a stranger.
I should get going too. Don't know how the finder and the moyashi are faring? I suppose they'd be back at the Order by now.
Kanda left the helmet where it was, illuminated in that coincidental patch of dim light. He'd leave it there. Akuma wouldn't be looking for the helmet now that the Innocence had been safely retrieved. His job was done. He'd protected the helmet. Leaving it here would ultimately be the best choice. Bandits would never have thought of this ingenious place to leave such an important helmet.
Good. That would mean that he was done with his job. He had completed the mission and protected the helmet. Someone was bound to find the helmet one day, but that had nothing to do with him. His mission ends there. Both in retrieving the Innocence and in protecting the helmet as a silent, unsaid promise.
Kanda wobbled a little on his feet, making his way out of the ruins of the amphitheatre. He raised his head to the sky, noticing the dark hues ensnaring the previously azure sky. Judging by the dwindling sunlight, nightfall was coming and he wouldn't make it before the next morning if he didn't get a move on.
That moyashi might start crying if I don't hurry. I said I'll be back.
…Ki ni shinai, moyashi.
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When Komui had brought Allen up, Lavi was nowhere in sight, much to Komui's surprise. That rabbit, being a rabbit, should be rabbitting about, waiting to hear what had happened in the basement with Hevlaska and then proceeds to rabbit his rabbit findings to practically anybody who'd bother listening to the rabbit's rabbittings. Come to think of it, Komui did indeed remember Bookman mentioning that he'd be trapping, no, ahem, taking Lavi with him to the library for some proper studying Lavbi, as Bookman Junior should be doing.
Allen could see that Komui was thinking about something, and he didn't know what it was that the head was thinking, but he wasn't the slightest bit interested. All he knew was that he desperately wanted Kanda back at the Order.
Before Komui had a chance to ask Allen where he intended to go to, Allen had murmured a soft, "Kanda" and sprinted off without a word, heading for Kanda's room. Komui sighed, shaking his head in defeat and turned in the opposite direction back to his office.
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Komui was snoring away when his beloved Lenalee-chan had kicked the door open, in the literal sense, with her Dark Boots. Komui woke up instantly, looking up and asking stupidly, "Has the Earl come for a visit?"
"Wake up, nii-san! Kanda's back!"
At this Komui rubbed the sleep from his eyes immediately, eyes scanning the spot behind his sister.
"Huh? Where is he?"
At this, Lenalee looked down, starting to fidget.
"Nii-san, I…I saw Kanda at the right after he entered the Order. I…I said some pretty harsh things."
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Kanda gave a faint 'che' when he recalled what Lenalee had said.
"Kanda! You're finally back!"
Kanda ignored her weakly pushing her to the side as he moved forward, for once glad that he had the ability to ignore anybody he wanted to. He needed to patch himself up a little; he was done pretty bad and the deeper lacerations hadn't healed much at all.
Now, Lenalee was angry. Hadn't the mighty Kanda got anything to say after being missing in action for two days?!
"Kanda. Allen-kun has been worried sick about you. He wouldn't let anybody touch him; Lavi couldn't even get him to the Infirmary. He's been staying in your room ever since Toma brought him back. Now here you are and you act like nothing's your problem when Allen-kun hasn't eaten or slept in days! He's even been burning up too! Lavi had to—
Kanda hadn't even waited for Lenalee to finish before he tore off into the direction of the cafeteria, uncaring of his own wounds for the moment.
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When Kanda had crashed into his bedroom with the tray in his hands, nothing spilled, Allen was sitting on his bed, arms around himself. Allen looked up at the intruder. The world lapsed into a moment of agonizing slow-motion.
Kanda walked, one step at a time, over to the bed, all the while watching as Allen's eyes widened and pushed his hand out towards him. Allen reached up to caress the side of Kanda's face with trembling fingers.
Kanda was in front of him! It was really Kanda after all! The Kanda that he waited for!
Both were lost in the moment, until Kanda jerked away from that hand, remembering what he had brought along with him. Allen's reaction was enough to throw him into the depths of hell itself.
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His persistent thoughts revisited the way Allen's hand lingered in the air when he'd jerked away, fingers curling as if that unexpected movement struck him, hard. Allen had cried out in surprised pain, staring at Kanda with a heart-wrenching look of hurt and utter confusion in his eyes. Kanda forced himself to think of more important things.
"I heard you haven't been eating at all. Baka moyashi! What were you trying to do? Kill yourself? You could have at least taken care of yourself while I was away!"
He was mad, oh yes, very mad, he was goddamn worried when he had heard from Lenalee that the moyashi hadn't even gone to the Infirmary. Swallowing the guilt gnawing its way from inside, Kanda continued, keeping his tone to a minimum harsh, "Eat, or you're not getting anywhere closer to me."
He knew that moyashi was probably craving physical contact but he couldn't afford the moyashi to be in some kind of life threatening situation just because he didn't eat. By the looks of it, baka moyashi didn't sleep well, just like Lenalee had said. He looked so tired, despite his rounded silver eyes. His eyes had lost some of their sparkle when he blinked, a tell-tale sign that Allen hadn't been the slightest bit "well" all this time.
Allen gulped thickly. Kanda was too far. He needed, he badly needed to touch Kanda now, after sorely missing him for days, and he needed to touch him. Why didn't Kanda understand? Breathing through gritted teeth harshly, Allen looked down at the tray Kanda had just reached out and placed on the table beside the bed. Desperation getting the better of him, Allen made to hold onto Kanda's retreating hand.
Kanda only pulled it away from him, shaking his head and pointing instead to the soba. Scrunching up his face, Allen glared at the soba, as if putting all the blame for not being able to touch Kanda on that wretched serving. He attacked the soba soon enough, eager to touch Kanda, even if just a little teensy weensy bit. Allen swallowed, barely chewing.
Worry was dissipating Kanda's anger, replacing the hard look on his face with a concerned frown instead.
That moyashi was going to choke if he continued eating like that.
Sure enough, Allen began to choke, coughing slightly, neck bent, head down. Kanda fought the urge to pat the boy, knowing the boy would busy himself holding on to him instead of eating if he went any closer. Kanda could only watch, brows furrowed anxiously, praying hard that his moyashi would be fine before Allen's coughing ceased and he finished the last mouthful. The moment the pair of chopsticks left his hand, Allen flung himself out towards the exorcist, latching onto the other.
Kanda only gave a soft grunt, expecting something like this.
"BaKanda! You said you'll come back! You made me wait…so long… I thought you forgot about me."
"Che. I'd consider it a skill to be able to forget one as stupid and clumsy as you."
Kanda used his usual sarcastic remark to mask his concern for the moyashi. He wasn't one to say nice things, but his words obviously lacked their usual sting, and even the stupidest moyashi could hear that. Allen rolled his eyes up at Kanda.
"Not letting go. Ever."
The words came out muffled, but clear enough for Kanda to hear it all. Warning bells sounded loudly in Kanda's mind again, he could see the intent in Allen's eyes, Allen meant it when he said he wasn't ever going to let him go. Rather at a loss for words, Kanda opted to put his arms securely around the moyashi.
Allen's eyes softened impeccably. Kanda's hands were reassuring; they always made him feel calm. That was his saviour, the one who protected him all along.
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ki ni shinai- informal. Again. It means 'don't worry'.