Brittany's Life of Love, Heartache and Choices.
Chapter 4
As Brittany laid on her bed waiting for Quinn to come back she just stared up, wondering what Santana was doing right at this moment. Was she in pain or was she just smiling back at Brittany waiting for her to meet her up there some day. Only Brittany could wonder.
'' Britt..'' Quinn quietly said as she walked in. Behind her walked in Rachel, Finn, Puck, Artie, Tina, Mike, Matt, Mercedes and Kurt. They all had slight smiles on their faces and concerned looks in all of their eyes. Brittany's eyes went wide as she watched the whole glee club walk into her large bedroom. '' They came to see you.'' Quinn quietly added as she sat beside Brittany. Brittany sat up not changing her expression, all she could think about was that Santana would never be in glee club again and they would never hear that sweet voice of hers. This only made tears spill down Brittany's face. Rachel frowned as she noticed Brittany's eyes tearing up, she had never seen Brittany so sad, but she was expecting this, Brittany never left Santana's side and now that she was gone Brittany had no one to lean on.
'' Britt, don't cry.'' Mercedes whispered as some of her own tears spilled down her face. But this only made Brittany cry more.
'' You guys, why did you come?'' Brittany asked between sobs.
'' We came because, you need us, were a family.'' Rachel repeated as she sat on Brittany's computer chair.
'' But I didn't ask you guys.'' Brittany said, more confused then ever.
'' Well you don't have to hun.'' Quinn said rubbing Brittany's back, as a small smile landed on Brittany's face. Quinn felt relieved to see a smile on Brittany's face, she hadn't seen the other blond smile in a couple days, and that was a long time for Brittany.
'' Thanks, but could I ask you guys something?'' Brittany said, mainly to Rachel. They all nodded as they waited for Brittany to go on. '' Could you tell me a story?'' Brittany asked. Surprise landed on each of the glee clubbers faces, why on earth did Brittany want a story, well only Brittany herself knew that but nobody wanted to disappoint her so Rachel began tell Brittany a story. Brittany smiled as Rachel began to ramble on. The blond didn't really know what the brunette was talking about but as she laid herself down on her bed and closed her eyes she could picture Santana talking like she use to, to get Brittany asleep. Brittany finally drifted asleep as she pictured Santana laying right beside her.
'' Is she asleep?'' Finn asked as he walked over to the bed to find out if the sad blond was asleep.
'' Yeah now shut up and let's go down stairs, I don't want her to wake up.'' Quinn said as she slowly and carefully sat up and lead the nine glee clubbers down stairs.
'' Wow she's really out of it, isn't she.'' Kurt said as they all went into the living room and found a place to sit.
'' Yeah, she's been like that since the accident.'' Quinn said. Although Quinn couldn't blame her for being in that state, Brittany's girlfriend did die. '' Oh and Santana's funeral is tomorrow.'' Quinn remembered. All of their mouths dropped in shock.
'' Already.'' Puck said, sitting on the floor next to Mercedes.
'' Yeah, her mom said it would be for the best if we move on and not miss alot of school.'' Quinn said, trying to remember what Santana's mom said to her. They all nodded, agreeing. '' Oh and she wants Brittany to speak.''
'' Are you serious?'' Kurt asked, not believing.
'' Yeah, and she's doing it. I just hope she doesn't break down in the middle of it, you know.'' Quinn said.
'' Yeah that would suck.'' Finn said, feeling sorry for both blonds. Quinn just nodded not knowing what else to say.
'' So how are you doing?'' Mercedes asked Quinn. Quinn just shook her head, not being able to spit anything out. She thought back to everything that had happened in the past two days, and she couldn't believe it. One of her friends had died and it was only know sinking in. Tears started to escape, Quinn tried to hide them but it was to hard, so she just gave up.
'' It's so hard. You guys don't understand.'' Quinn whispered through sobs.
'' What d-do you mean?'' One quiet Tina said.
'' I have to watch Brittany suffer through this, I have to take care of her like she's my own daughter and on the other hand I'm going through this too. Santana and I were best friends for the longest time, and even though we did fight during high school we would still be there for each other no matter what.'' Quinn cried, hiding her face in her hands. This was the first time that Quinn fully let it out and showed her true emotions, and it felt kinda good to let it all out. Rachel felt bad for the blond so she stood up and sat next to Quinn on the leather coach. She then wrapped her arms around Quinn and soothed her, maneuvering Quinn so she was half on her lap.
'' Shh, it's alright, I'm here.'' Rachel whispered in Quinn's ear. Quinn was shaking she was crying to hard, but it felt nice to have Rachel there for her, so as Rachel soothed the crying blond, Quinn fell asleep in the brunettes arms.
'' Quinn, wake up.'' Quinn herd as she slowly opened her eyes from her deep sleep. As Quinn opened her eyes she saw Rachel standing over her.
'' Wow, I think I just had the best sleep since, well a long time.'' Quinn said rubbing her eyes as she sat up.
'' Well that's why we didn't wake you, you know your a cute sleeper.'' Rachel blurted out, surprised what came out of her mouth. Quinn just giggled at the blushing brunette. '' Um now get ready the funeral is in a hour.'' Rachel said. Quinn's mouth opened in shock as she jumped up from the coach.
'' How long was I asleep?'' Quinn said talking fast.
'' A long time, we didn't want to wake you because we all knew how tired and upset you were.'' Rachel answered, hoping that they all did a good thing and let the blond sleep.
'' Well what about Brittany, I have to get her ready, and her speech! She still has to write it!'' Quinn said on the verge of tears.
'' Quinn calm down, we got Britt ready and her speech is ready to go. All that has to be done before the funeral is getting you ready.'' Quinn stood in front of Rachel in shock. Why were they being so nice to her, Quinn didn't understand. '' So go get ready.'' Rachel slowly said wondering why the blond was still standing there.
'' Oh right, I'll be down in a sec.'' Quinn said, smiling to Rachel and running up the steps to Brittany's room. She opened the door and stopped in her tracks. Sitting on the bed was Brittany, she had a tight black dress on and three inch high heels. She didn't have any makeup on, so you could easily tell she had been crying for a long time.
'' Wow Britt, you look amazing, but don't you think that's not fit to be worn to a funeral.'' Quinn said nicely to the other blond, walking over the blond and putting her hand on her right shoulder.
Brittany shook her head before saying '' No, I think San would have l-liked it.'' Brittany quietly said. '' Your dress is right there, I picked it out for you, San always liked it when you wore my clothes, she said they fit you perfectly.'' Brittany slightly smiled as she pointed to her computer chair, draped over it was a black lacy, formal dress, not to formal but just formal enough.
'' Thanks Britt, you should go down stairs Rachel's probably waiting for you.'' Quinn said assuring Brittany. She just nodded her head as she got up and walked over to the door. Just before she left Quinn stopped her by her voice. '' You'll do good on your speech.'' Quinn said. Brittany turned around and looked at Quinn. She smiled slightly, thanking her friend and left the room, going downstairs. Brittany finally got downstairs and saw Rachel sitting on the coach waiting for both blonds.
'' Wheres the rest of the glee clubbers?'' Brittany asked confused.
'' They left late last night when both of you were sleeping, I went home but only to grab my things for the mourning, then I came straight back here to take care of both you.'' Rachel confessed. Not waiting for a response the brunette stood up and grabbed Brittany's hand, walking her outside. '' Lets go to the car and wait for Quinn there.'' Rachel said. Brittany nodded and walked out the door with Rachel. Before Rachel shut the door she yelled up to Quinn. '' Quinn were going to wait out in the car!'' And with that Rachel shut the door and walked to the car with Brittany in hand.
'' I don't think I can do this.'' Brittany quietly said as they got to the funeral home. Brittany was reluctant to get out of the car, scared to see everyone.
'' Come on Britt, I'll be there for you.'' Quinn said as she opened the front door for Brittany as Quinn herself got out of the back seat.
'' I can't.'' Brittany repeated.
'' Don't say I can't Britt, you know Santana always said that.'' Quinn said as she grabbed Brittany's hand and helped her out. Sighing with what Quinn said Brittany got out of the car and walked with Quinn. Rachel followed behind them.
'' Ohmy!'' Someone screamed within the funeral home as Brittany, Quinn and Rachel entered. Santana's mom rushed over to Brittany and gave her a hug. Automatically Brittany let tears escape and snuggled into the familiar smell.
'' Ms.L, I'm so sorry!'' Brittany said between sobs, as Santana's mom let go and looked Brittany in the eyes.
'' Hunny there's no need to apologize, it's not you fault.'' Santana's mom said to the crying blond.
'' I miss her so much.'' Brittany whispered. Santana's mom frowned, and for the first time noticed that Quinn and a brunette she didn't recognize standing behind her. Ignoring what the crying blond said for just a moment she locked eyes with Quinn and smiled slightly. '' So glad you two could make it, I have a seat reserved for her closest friends up front, Brittany and I will meet you there.'' Ms L said. Quinn could take a hint, she knew Ms L wanted to talk to Brittany alone, so she just nodded and took Rachel with her to the front pews. '' Now Brittany I know you miss Santana but I can't bring her back hun, she's gone forever now, so please don't sulk about it, I know that's what Santana would have wanted.'' Santana's mom said, trying to make the blond not so upset. Brittany just stared at the floor. She was right, Santana's mom wouldn't be able to bring her back so Brittany was just going to live on with out her. Brittany didn't know how, not yet anyway but Brittany nodded, agreeing with what Santana's mom said and walked up to meet Quinn and Rachel.
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