Hey! I forgot to give the translation on the last chapter! Sôma said "Good afternoon. My name is Sôma" Sorry about that guys, I was so out of it!

Chapter 4

"Wha-what do you m-mean?" Fai was absolutely terrified now. What would happen to him if Kurogane found out about him.

"Why are you so… defensive about your family? You keep stuttering whenever I bring them up, and you jump too. What's wrong?"

Damn… He's perceptive…

"Please, Kurogane. I'm not hiding anything. M-my family just isn't anything to talk about… and my father and I don't really get along. That's all it is, okay?" Kurogane didn't look convinced at all. He abruptly reached out and snatched Fai's arm.

"Ah! No, stop! Please Kurogane!"

"Why? I thought you didn't have anything to hide!" That's when Fai finally realized that Kurogane knew. It struck him that it must have been pretty obvious, when his arm had begun randomly bleeding.

"Kurogane… Why didn't you just tell me you knew?" Fai didn't know why, but he suddenly felt angry.

"Why are you even still here?! Don't you find me disgusting?! Aren't I just absolutely repulsive?!" Fai felt hot tears run down his cheeks. Usually, he would have tried to hide them, but for some reason, he didn't care…

There goes my one friend…

"You wish you had never met me right?! You're here to go tattle on me aren't you?! After this, you're going to hate me, just like everyone else!" Fai was about to start cursing with distressed rage, when he felt himself being pulled into Kurogane's broad chest.

"Y-you…yo…"

"No. I don't hate you. I want to help you Fai. You really are nice… God… I don't usually act like this… Fai, something about you just… seemed to pull at me. Just, let me help you, okay? I won't tell anyone."

Fai gave in, relaxing into the embrace.

"Mmm…Promise?" This was actually a nice change. Fai liked this.

"Yeah. I promise." Fai felt kind of… tired all of a sudden.

"Mmkay. Then please…help me, 'kay?"

"Yeah. Fai… are you okay?" Fai made himself stand up straight.

"Yeah… just got kinda drowsy. Do you want me to tell you another secret?" Fai was ready to tell Kurogane anything he wanted to know.

"Yes, I do."

"You have to promise me that you won't ever ever tell anyone. I'll get in a lot of trouble if anyone finds out. Like, I'll have to move kind of trouble. So promise you won't tell?"

"Fai, I don't care if you're a goddamned murder, I'm not going to tell anyone."

"…Alright. I… I live by myself."

"…But you're only fifteen or sixteen, right?"

"Yeah, I'm fifteen."

"But…"

"That's why you can't tell anyone." Fai saw how much this bothered Kurogane. He sighed.

"Do you want me to tell you the story?" Kurogane nodded. Fai thought for a minute.

"Can you stomach a whole lot of blood?" Kurogane looked confused.

"Um…I guess…" Fai was still hesitant.

"Do you… want to come in?" He nearly winced at the answer.

"…Yeah."

"Don't say I didn't warn you." Fai led the way to his small, one bedroom apartment. He unlocked and opened the small oak door, and stepped into his bloody mess of a house. He grabbed Kurogane, who had frozen at the front door, by the wrist and pulled him to the couch.

"Told you so." Fai didn't grin, didn't even try.

"Damn…How much do you actually… Damn…"

"Anyway, it started five years ago."

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"Mama! Mama, guess what me and Yuii made?"

"Yuii and I." She always corrected Fai's mistakes. "What did you make Fai?"
Fai produced a small, obviously handmade stuffed bear from behind his back.

"Oh wow Fai! You two made this?" She took it from the ten-year-old's hands, examining it from several different angles.

"You two did a wonderful job! But Fai, where's your brother?" Fai smiled a bright, happy, proud smile.

"He's looking for another t-shirt, so we can use it to make another one!" Suddenly, Yuii, looking exactly like Fai, burst in, holding a small, purple shirt in one hand, waving with the other.

"Hey Fai! I found another one! Let's make a dog this time!" He stopped running when he got to his mother.

"Hi mom! Did you like our bear? Didn't Fai do a great job on the stitching?" Their mother smiled at them, nodding enthusiastically. They both beamed with pride.

"We're gonna go start the next one, kay?"

"Alright, have fun." Fai knew that if he had said 'Kay', his mother would have corrected him. Fai was apparently really good with words and art, so his mother always tried to help him excel. He didn't mind though. Besides, she corrected Yuii's math and science. She just helped wherever it was needed.
Fai followed Yuii to their shared bedroom. He liked sharing with his twin. They could always talk whenever they wanted to. They never got in fights, so that had never been a problem.

"O-Kay! I'm gonna cut out the shape. Try to find some stuffing, okay Fai?"

"Alright!" Fai placed the Bear on his bed, then started the search for a ripped or unwanted stuffed animal that he could tear apart and take the stuffing out of.

"You still want Near, right?" Fai had picked up a yellow frog from underneath his twin's bed.

"Yeah."

~Snip Snip Snip~

"Okay… How about Ikkii?" This time he was holding a purple felt spider that had a rip down its back.

"Mmm… That one's okay."

~Snip~

"There! Finished!" Yuii held up the cutout of a dog with long ears and short legs.

"Yay! It's so cute Yuii!" Fai came back over to his bed, and took the fabric in his hands. They both smiled wholeheartedly. Before Fai could even thread the needle, they heard the screen door open, then shut again. The twins looked at each other, a little uncomfortably. They never liked it when their stepdad, Ashura, came home, which in itself, wasn't very often. When he did come home, he always talked funny, and he would hit Fai, Yuii, and their mother. They decided to go see him anyway. Maybe he would be nice today? When they got to the living room, they saw Ashura bending down over their mother, who was on the floor. As they neared closer, they saw that Ashura was holding a pillow to her face.

"What are you doing to Mama?" She wasn't moving, and Fai was worried. Ashura turned to Fai, letting the pillow come off of his wife.

"Good evening twins." Fai had his eyes on his mother. She wasn't breathing.

"Mama? Mama, are you okay? Mama? Mama?..." Ashura was coming at Fai and Yuii, still holding the pillow.

"MAMA! MAMA HELP!"

"MOM! MOM WAKE UP!" They were both screaming, scared out of their wits by Ashura's imposing figure, nearing closer and closer to them.

"MAMA! PLEASE!" Fai started trembling and crying, and he heard Yuii doing the same behind him. It was too late to run. Ashura was already upon them. Fai felt his body being thrown to the ground, and then his vision was cut off. The pillow was on his face, and he couldn't breathe through its close knit texture. He tried to scream, but it only took more air from his lungs. He heard Yuii's feet scamper towards Ashura, then he heard him jump and scream in an attempt to save him. Next he heard the thud of Yuii's body hitting the floor. He was feeling faint, and he couldn't struggle anymore. He let his arms fall to the floor, quietly accepting death.

Please Yuii… Run… Please…

Fai slowly slipped into unconsciousness, praying to God that Yuii would run.

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Fai slowly opened his eyes. His chest and neck hurt. It was dark, and he couldn't see anything.

"Y-Yuii?" He managed to croak out, before screaming in agony. He felt sharp pain in his lungs, and wished he hadn't spoken at all. Then he remembered. He was dead. But… why did he hurt so much then? He forced himself to ignore the pain, and sit up. He immediately regretted it. He was laying in-between Mama and Yuii. Both were limp, not breathing. The realization dawned on Fai. They were dead. Mama and Yuii…Dead. He felt hot tears streak down his face. He took Yuii's cold face in his hand.

"Why? Why didn't you run Yuii?" He began sobbing uncontrollably. He pulled Yuii closer to him, then laid his head on his mother's chest. He hugged Yuii, letting the tears flow, the sobs eventually becoming quiet screams.

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After his tears had stopped, Fai finally released Yuii. He stood, falling once, but standing again. He walked back to his room. He pulled the Bear from his bed and tucking it into the crook of his arm. He turned to leave the room, but then decided to take the unfinished dog as well. It was the last thing that Yuii had touched. He walked back to the living room, sobbing again at the sight of the bodies. He walked over, kissing them both goodbye. His heart ached when the screen door slammed behind him. He walked a few paces away from the house, then turned to look at his life one last time. He felt a new round of tears fall into his nightgown.

"I love you so much. I'll miss you, Mama and Yuii." He turned and started walking again, sobbing and crying still. He didn't know where he was going. He was just going. He walked until he fell to the ground. His bare feet were cut, his knees had been scraped up, and his chest hurt so much that he just wanted to rip out his lungs.

Why? Why am I the only one that didn't die? Yuii should have lived. Not me.

He was unconscious again

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"This woman found me on the sidewalk, and she called the police. They put me in foster care. When they tried him, Ashura was only charged of involuntary manslaughter, and was sentence to ten years. None of my foster parents kept me long, otherwise I ran away, and that's how I ended up here. If the people that take care of my affairs find out that I'm here by myself, I'll be in a lot of trouble."

Fai could see how much his story had hurt Kurogane. He wouldn't look Fai in the eye.

"Look, I really don't want pity. It's my problem, so don't get worked up over it." Fai was starting to feel drowsy again. He yawned, as quietly as he could.

"Fai…I…" He was speechless. That kind of amused Fai.

"Hey, stay here. I'll be right back." Fai walked back to his room, and grabbed a small object from his shelf. He came back to the living room. Kurogane was still dazed, staring at nothing in particular, except maybe the floor.

"This is the Teddy bear we made." Fai showed his most prized possession. Kurogane studied it carefully. Fai placed it in his hands.

"Be nice, I'd run through fire for that." Kurogane didn't need the warning. He held I gingerly in his hands, making sure not to harm it.

"What happened to the dog?" Fai Smiled.

"I still have it, too. I haven't had the heart to finish it though. I've tried, but I usually just end up crying, then I fall asleep. Crying always makes me sleepy." Kurogane handed Fai the bear, and Fai accepted it. He hugged it to his chest delicately, then took it back to his room. When he came back, Kurogane was still staring at the floor nervously.

"Fai… I know you said that you didn't want pity… but… I just can't believe how much you've been through."

Fai smiled gently, and he saw the surprise on Kurogane's face. Yeah, that one was real.

"Thank you for listening. I know it's not the happiest story in the world…"

…Far from it…

Fai sat back down on the couch, letting the soft, blue plush comfort him.

"Oh, and sorry about this awful place. I know it's a terrible mess. I will clean… eventually."

"No, it's alright. But, Fai… are you okay? You look tired." Fai smiled again.

"Yeah, I'm getting a little sleepy. But I'm okay for a little while." Kurogane looked worried.

"Fai, I can leave if you want…" Fai jumped.

"No! Please don't leave! I…"

"Alright… But you just tell me when you want me to leave, okay?" Fai nodded drowsily.

"Please don' leave." Fai's eyes closed, and he let himself lean over to the couch's arm.
"Mmm… don' leave." Fai finally gave up, and fell asleep.

A/N: OMG! I almost started crying while I was writing this! As I wrote more about Yuii, god, I just felt so bad for killing him! T.T Anyway, I hope that everyone doesn't hate me now! And sorry that Kuro-muu found out about Fai cutting so early… and about him living by himself… This really isn't how I planned it. Oh well, what's done is done. And I know that was a bad way to end the chapter, but I've been awake since 6:00 PM, and it is now 8:50 AM. No typos there! (I'm a vampire, so I sleep during the day, and then I go on the prowl at night.) So I apologize, I hope you aren't angry with me, and PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW! Thanks guys!

Fai-Chan