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"Leo!" Leo awoke to Raph yelling at him.

He sat up groggily and yawned then called back.

"Yeah Raph? I'm in my room" Then he noticed the diary laying on his floor were he left it.

He jumped out of his bed and landed on the floor quickly grabbing the book and stuffing it under his bed.

The door burst open, followed with Raph walking into his room.

"Hey Leo, ya seen Mikey. He's hidding from me! and I need ta ask him something" Raph had his usual frown on.

"Uh no Raph I haven't sorry" I looked at him then noticed I was still on the floor.

"Yo Leo, why ya on the floor?" he asked me crossing his arms.

"Ummm I..I.." I stuttered "I was just meditating" I told him then I got up and sat on my bed.

"Oh, well if ya see Mikey let em know I was looking for him" Raph said then left my room.

"Hmm, I bet he's looking for the dairy" I thought.

"Speaking of which, I need to read you again" I said as I pulled out the dairy form under the bed.

I held it for a moment before opening it up.

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Chapter 5 of Raph's dairy.

"It's been a week since Hun beat me up, if he thinks that I ain't comin after him. Well he's dead wrong!.

He's gonna be hurtin so bad he wont be able ta move!.

Dang, it's hard ta write this arm it's hurtin again.

But I ain't telling Donnie as he'd tell me ta take more meds.

You what's kinda funny, well it's how when I'm hurt is when I miss you the most.

I even miss your stupid lectures you'd give me! how stupid is that?.

Man if I ever see you again, well I'm not sure if I'll hug you and tell you how much I love you...or beat you to a pulp!

I have so many emotions bottled up right now, I can't even let them out.

I used ta be able to atlest yell at ya ta let go of my anger.

Now if I do that ta Donnie or Mikey I just get glares.

Then they wont talk ta me for a long time, even Master Splinta does it!.

Why can't you just come back already, that's what everyone wants.

Their prefect son and brother back, after all why would they want some worthless piece of junk like me?.

Everyone hates me! anymore I kinda hate myself.

I'm havin a hard time just dealing with my emotions.

I'll be mad one moment and sad the next!.

Dang, I just stabbed the paper with my Sai.

Ya know, right this mement I'm cryin.

I can't believe I just wrote that down! but sense I've started with the boo-hoo junk I might as well keep goin.

Yeah I'm cryin, I'm cryin because my bro is gone and I don't know if he's ever comin back!.

He could be dead and I'd never know!.

Master Splinta told me that your still alive, well I don't know if I believe that or not.

If ya were then why not write back! huh why not Leo!.

Gosh I hate you!.

Maybe ya shouldn't come back at all!.

I don't even care anymore! ya probably having to much fun ta worry about us!.

Ya well, I'll tell ya somethin Leo.

I HATE YOU! I WISH YOU NEVER COME BACK!"

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*Leo*

I put the book down and took a deep breath trying to hold the tears that threatened to escape.

"How could he say those things? I mean sure he could be mad..but hate me?"

"Why didn't I just send one letter, it would have made him so happy" I told himself angerly.

I let out the breath I've been holding and picked the book back up.

I opened the book up and turned the fragile pages until I found where I had left of.

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Chapter 6 of Raph's dariy.

"I didn't mean those things I said last night, I was just mad.

Something I do a lot, I often say things I don't mean just because I'm mad.

If only I'd think just for a moment and think what to outcome could be.

After all, that's why ya left isn't it? ta get away from me.

Well I don't blame ya, if I had ta deal with myself 24/7 I'd leave too.

I'm just worthless, all I've ever done is get ya guys in trouble cause I can't control my anger.

Heck I should just let myself get killed in battle, then maybe ya would come home.

Then I'd be helping my family, cause I ain't doin nothing now.

I better be headin back to the lair, or else I might get yelled at for makin them have ta come look for me.

I sure hope ya come home soon as it ain't the same without cha."

...

*Leo*

I put the book back under my bed.

"I wish I could tell Raph that it's not true. We all love him very very much!" I sighed then got up and left my room.

I headed down the stairs and into the kitchen where Donnie, Mikey, Master Splinter and Raph were.

"Hey guys!" I said to them as I sat down at the table.

"Hey Leo! how'd you sleep?" Mikey asked me smiling.

I saw Raph roll his eyes at me.

"Good, how about you?" I looked at him as I fiddled around with a napkin.

"Good, hey Leo you've been acting odd lately is everything ok?" he asked him concern showing in his bright blue eyes.

"Yeah Mikey, I'm ok" I assured him.

"Well if you're sure?"

"Yep I'm fine" I told him smiling to make my point.

"Ok" Mikey then got up and left the room he was followed by Raph.

"Well I guess I'll go practice" I said as I got up from my chair and started for the training room.

"No"

I turned to Master Splinter.

"Sensei?"

"Michelangelo is right, you have been acting odd lately. I want you to go to your room and rest" he told me.

"But sensei-"

"No buts! you're the leader, so you need to be in the best shape when you lead them into battle" He told me.

"Yes sensei" I started toward the stairs.

"Leonardo"

"Yes sensei? "

"Are you sure there is nothing you wish to tell me?" he looked at me.

"Yes sensei, I'm sure" I felt guilty lying to him.

I turned and made my way to my room.

"Sometime I need to talk to Raph!".

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