Trust and Nightmares

a/n: Still own nothing and I don't get any money to do this.

The next night Harry finally arrived, Lily and Sirius were really pissed off because they want to meet him. Unfortunately, they were both stuck in a meeting with the Order listening to Snape go on and on with his report. Lily handed Sirius a torn off piece of paper which read...

'He never shuts up does he? It's always blah, blah, blah I'm risking

my life... blah, blah, blah do you know how much danger I'm in?

Blah, blah, blah...'

Lily noticed Sirius was about to explode with laughter so she kicked him. Sirius was about to kick her back when Molly stood up and said it was time for dinner. As usual Snape left faster then you can say 'Wolf's Bane,' and Harry, Hermione, and the Weasley kids came into the kitchen. Lily thought Harry would like to sit with Sirius so she scooted away from him and Harry sat down.

Lily noticed that throughout dinner Harry never looked directly at her and the only conversation they had was to "pass the salt," other than that Harry would just ignore her. So Lily ate quickly and want to her room.

For two days all she did was lay there, not knowing what to think. She knew Harry would be pissed. After all she was in the Order and she couldn't tell Harry anything.

"He has a right to know." Lily thought to herself. "But you can't tell him, you swore to Dumbledore and to the Order. Damn it."

On the third day when Lily didn't show up for cleaning or even meals, Sirius began to worry, so he took Harry to his room for a little chat.

"Harry do you know what's wrong with Lily? She put a charm on her door so no one can get in?"

"Why the hell should I care?" Harry yelled.

"What do you mean by that?" Sirius asked, getting annoyed.

"She hasn't told me anything about the Order or about what she went through with Voldemort. She has all the information but she wont tell me shit! And how do you know it's really her? For all we know it's some Death Eater pretending to be the real Lily! Or maybe the real Lily is so brain washed that she really is working for Voldemort and tricking all of you. How do you know she's good Sirius? You never even met her."

"That's enough Harry!" Sirius bellowed. "For one thing Lily is sworn to protect the information she gives the Order, not to mention we do have ways of finding out the truth. She's the real thing and any Order member will tell you that! And another reason she isn't telling you everything is she's trying to protect you!"

Sirius stormed out and began to bang on Lily's door.

"What do you want?" Lily screamed through the door.

"Lily come out and eat."

"No."

"Fine starve to death."

In fact Lily had no intention of starving at all. That night while everyone was in bed she slowly crept out of her room and headed towards the kitchen. But Lily hadn't realized that someone was awake.

"Harry what are you doing?" Ron yawned as he saw Harry get out the Invisibility Cloak.

"Lily's out of bed and I'm going to follow her."

"Harry she's your sister, can't you just give her a chance and trust her?"

Harry ignored his friend, put on the cloak and headed down stairs. When he got to the kitchen he noticed that Lily was no where to be found. Suddenly his cloak was taken off. Harry turned around and looked up at Lily's hurt and tired eye's.

"So did you think I came down here to poison the food or grab a knife so I can stab you in your sleep?" Lily asked in a hoarse voice. She walked past him and sat at the table eating her soup quietly. Harry sat down next to her and just starred at her sunken face. Lily sighed and took a vile out of her robes.

"Veritaserum?" Harry asked

"If I take this then will you trust me?"

Harry nodded in agreement and Lily drank the viles contents.

"What's your name?"

"Lily Anne Potter"

"Who are your parents?"

"James and Lily Potter."

"How old are you?"

"Eighteen."

"How long have you been captive by Voldemort?"

"Eighteen years."

"Who named you?"

"Voldemort."

"How were you treated while being a prisoner?"

"I was starved and beaten. And then after I watched my parents die and survived the killing curse at the age of five I was sent to be a prisoner at the different manors of the Death Eaters and that's when the raping began. I was lucky though, one Death Eater gave me books and things to occupy my time and make me a stronger witch so when the time came I could fight on my own."

"Who was this Death Eater?"

"Severus Snape. He called me his Angel. Hence the nickname."

"Thank you Lily."

"Your welcome. Now lets get to bed."

After saying good night to her brother, Lily felt better then any moment in her life. She climbed into bed and began to dream.

She heard a hissing voice of a snake saying, "Let me bite her. Let me

spill her blood!" Then out of nowhere Voldemort appears holding a

dagger and slashes a "V" on Lily's arm. She can't scream no matter

how hard she tries. All she hears is Voldemorts evil laughter.

"Lily WAKE UP!"

Lily finally opens her eyes and sees everyone in her room looking at her in horror.

"What time is it?" She asks.

"It's five in the afternoon. We were all in a meeting when we heard your screams." Snape answered.

"Lily what's that on your arm?" Molly asks.

Lily looked at her arm and sawthe V that Voldemort carved in her dream.

"H-how is that p-possible?" Lily said horrified. "H-he d-did that in my d-dream. H-how c-can he s-s-slash me in my d-dream? I gotta get out of here if he finds out about the Order..." Lily wailed in pain and grabbed her right forearm in pain. But she wasn't the only one so was Snape.

"He's calling the Death Eaters to him." Snape said through clutched teeth. "And he's really pissed off."

"How can you tell?" Hermione asked.

"Because both are marks are bleeding."

Everyone looked at Lily's and Snape's arms and saw blood oozing from their robes.

A/N: Still here. yeah I know this chapter's kind of boring and weird but it's really just there to tell more about lily and what she's going through. PLEASE REVIEW! I love them and it makes want to write more knowing you guys like it. THAKNS! I"LL POST SOON!