A week had passed since Remus had been attacked and he already felt like a monster, sometimes when he got frustrated he'd growl making his mother jump. He felt dirty and contaminated when his dad mumbled insults to werewolves when he thought Remus wasn't paying attention. He couldn't wash away the feeling of guilt as his parents sat researching for help. Sometimes he felt like digging a hole and hiding in there forever. Remus shook his self back to earth; it wasn't any good to hide inside him self. He glanced out of the window and watched two kids pass a ball around, how she wished he could join them but his parents had made it quite clear that it was dangerous. Remus didn't want to infect anyone so he kept to his books.
"Remus, love," Called his mother.
"What is it?" He asked in no mood to move.
"Come here, dear," She called back; Remus sighed and thumped his book down onto his bed. He walked down his stairs and into the Living room, "Ah, Remus!" His mother said softly as he walked into the room, "Please sit down," Remus walked over to his mother and sat down.
"Well, Son," His father began, "You seem smart so we were thinking that you maybe shouldn't go to Hogwarts," Remus nearly fell off the chair in horror.
"Gregory! That wasn't as sensitive as it could have been!" She softened her tone as she turned to face her son, "You see, dear, we don't think it's safe for you to be around so much… bait… um… children. We doubt they would accept you… I know it's early to think about that but we must know now."
"I want to go to Hogwarts!" Remus growled making his parents frown a bit.
"But you're a werewolf, Remus!" His father said in a shocked/chuckling voice, "Think logically! What would you do if a werewolf was in your midst?" Remus didn't answer; he stood up hating every inch of his father and mother.
"Well… sneak me in or something!" He yelled, "I want to go and learn… Mother, weren't you always saying how good I was?"
"We can't sneak you in, dear," His mother said slightly shakily, "I know I said that you were good and would do well at Hogwarts but that was before…"
"Before what?" Remus snapped clenching his fists, "Before I turned into a freak? Or before I disappointed you? Or before I was out casted"
"Don't take that tone with us, boy!" His father warned. Then Remus let out such a realistic roar of a growl that his mother yelped. His father looked taken aback for a second, and then Remus stormed out of the room.
The minute he lay down on his bed Remus felt disgusted with him self. He had never shouted at his parents like that before, he had ever growled like that before and he had most certainly never stormed out like that before. He hated this, he felt like digging a hole all over again. He knew he'd never get into Hogwarts, he knew he'd never make friends; he knew he'd never be normal again but he knew it wouldn't help to admit it. Suddenly he found himself biting his arm, somehow it didn't hurt as much as it should but he still stopped biting himself. If only he hadn't broken the rules he wouldn't be in this mess. As he lay on his bed tossing over the thoughts in his head he vowed never to go rule breaking again.
Remus sat up in his bed but quickly sank back down. He was a monster now, something uncontrollable and feared. He'd be shunned by society, maybe it was best to accept his fate and live with the other wolves. Remus punched himself, he didn't want to think, and it was dangerous. The stinging behind his eyes was reaching its limit and Remus could feel himself wanting to scream. What else were his Mother and Father going to stop him doing just because of this? He knew he should feel grateful because they were spending hours researching for him, but he didn't. He couldn't describe the feeling he was having; he just wanted to be normal. He just wanted to laugh like others did and go to school. Was that really too much to ask? He'd never been popular with other children but at least people didn't fear him. Remus tried to block out his mind. This wasn't going to do him any good. He lifted up a book, and then remembered it was one he'd just finished. It was the one with Animagi in it. He had a quick flashback of how he'd thought it would be amazing to turn into an animal, now he knew what it was like, he didn't want to be an animal. Remus knew he was now different, but he didn't want to think about it, he just knew his future didn't look good.