This chapter is from Kenpachi's point of view.

-What the fuck was she thinking, going there alone and fighting like a coward! I yelled as I was leaning against the wall.

Ikkaku was standing next to me, the back of his head against the wall and Yumichika was sitting next to Amaterasu's inactive body, his eyes staring at her lifeless face with Yachiru sitting next to him.

-She could've at least told me where she was going, that woman! What the hell was she doing in Inuzuri in anyway? She hates that goddamn place!

A scared kid from the 4th division stepped in the room and softly said he had to change Amaterasu's bandages. Yumichika got up with Yachiru and muttered something about Yachiru not needing to see this. She whined about wanting to stay with Amaterasu until she woke up but when she was Yumichika's painful expression, she silently followed him.

The kid carefully removed the sheets that were covering Amaterasu's body and he began to remove her bandages. I looked at her and realized she still had my mark on her, though it looked tiny compared to the big wounds she had on her stomach and arms.

Ikkaku looked away and asked…

-How is she, Hanataro?

-Her… Her wounds are closing, sir… But… But, she has lost a lot of blood and might… Might not make it… I'm… -

I punched the wall I was standing against and yelled a ''fuck! '', that Hanataro kid jumped of fright and Ikkaku tensed. I closed my eyes and I heard that voice.

-Zaraki-taichou, if you cannot contain yourself, I will have to ask you to leave. said the 4th division captain with her usual smile on her face.

-Whatever, I barked.

I turned towards Ikkaku and told him to stay until Yumichika came back, he nodded and I left this damn place. I went back to the 11th division barracks and stopped in my room to grab a bottle of sake before silently making my way to the roof. I sat on the roof and brought the sake bottle to my lips before taking a big gulp of it, I looked at the sky and muttered a ''fuck'' under my breath.

If there was one place she hated more than anything in this world, it was Inuzuri. It was the only thing she was scared of, from what I knew. It was the only reason why she would tell me ''no''. Once, she had to go there for a mission and she just stared at me and barked ''no way in hell I'm going there, taichou. ''. It was not so long after I found her in that bar, barely grown and getting groped by a guy three times her age.

I took another sip of sake as the memories came back, all rushing in my mind.

They were both in a dark corner of the bar, and the man was furiously groping everything he could put his hands on. She barely had any breasts at that time. He moved his mouth to her neck and she turned her head towards me, giving him better access to her flesh and she smiled at me. The kind of desperate smile that makes your heart ache. He removed her skirt in one swift motion and started to unbuckle his pants, she closed her eyes tightly and her smile faded.

I guess the reason why I stepped in at that time was because she reminded me of Yachiru.

I lazily got up from where I was sitting and made my way towards the guy, she opened her eyes and he stopped fumbling with his pants. He turned around and barked ''what the hell d'you think you're doin'? '', I could smell the sake from his breath and his cheap cologne. I barked a laugh and grabbed him by the collar and threw him on the other side of the bar. She looked at me with her unnaturally blue eyes and blushed, I laughed again and ran a hand through my hair.

-What's your name, kid? I asked.

-Amaterasu. You could have waited for him to finish if you wanted- …

-What the hell are you doin' in this place?

-Uh? What kind of question is that? It's none of business unless- …

-A kid like you shouldn't be doin' stuff like that. Plus, you're barely grown. Look, ye' don't even have boobs yet, I laughed, pointing her chest.

-Shut up. Even if I don't have breasts yet, I still need to eat! she snapped, furrowing her brows.

-Oh, so you don't have any relatives aroun'?

-Of course I don't! If I had, I wouldn't be selling my body to these creeps!

And it's at that time that I picked her up and dropped her on my shoulder, not even bothering asking her to put her skirt back on and I walked out of that bar with her hitting my chest with her small fists, telling me to let go. After a couple steps, I let go of her and she fell on her ass on the ground. She groaned and stared at me, her brows furrowed just like when I had told her she had no boobs.

-What the hell was that for? she yelled, rubbing her butt as she got up.

-Ye' told me to let go of you.

She sighed and rubbed her forehead, I laughed and she looked up to me, her eyes dangerously wet.

-Y'know, I hate this place. I hate how everyone looks at me. I hate being alone. I hate having to sell my body to be able to eat. I hate everything and everyone.

I laughed to myself and drank even more sake, what was I doing, remembering all this now? As if those stupid memories would change anything from the fact that she was almost dying, and why the hell was I even caring about whether or not she would die?

-'S not like she was Yachiru… I muttered to myself.

I finished the sake bottle in one last sip and I felt someone shunpo next to me, I looked up and Yumichika sat next to me.

-Shouldn't you be with Amaterasu, taichou? he asked, his voice strained.

-Why the fuck would I?

A coarse laugh escaped his mouth and he looked at his knees.

-Because she's the 11th division 4th seat, why else?

-'S not my fault she fought like a coward and ended up losing all her blood.

-'Kaku told me you took it pretty hard when Hanataro said she might not make it.

-'Cause I don't want to have to find another 4th seat.

-Is that all, taichou? he said, looking at me uncertainly.

I nodded and dropped myself on the roof, now laying down and staring at the grey sky. There was no other reason, finding another 4th seat would be boring as hell.

-Amaterasu told me everything taichou.

-As in?

-You two slept together, didn't you?

-Who else would be able to mark her like that? I laughed. Of course we had sex.

-And you left her in the morning without saying anything.

-What was I supposed to tell her? ''Thanks for the fuck'' ?

-I really shouldn't be saying this, taichou, but Amaterasu has been in love with you for quite a while. She took it really bad that you left like that, and she probably went to Inuzuri without realizing and fought with someone. You know her more than anyone; she can't fight properly if her emotions are in the way.

I turned toward Yumichika harshly and he got up.

-What the hell are you saying, Amaterasu's in love with me? We were both drunk out of our minds and ended up doing it, that's all.

-Amaterasu didn't drink the whole time we were celebrating her promotion, because she wanted to be able to watch over Yachiru.

-I'm not in the mood to play, Yumichika.

-Ask her when she wakes up, taichou, he said before shunpoing away.

I clenched the bottle of sake in my hand and it broke from the pressure, I looked at all the small pieces falling from my hand and I barked a ''fuck''.

Author's Note:

Oh my God, so much talking in this chapter and flashbacks, haha. I really worked my ass off on this chapter… I tried to make it as perfect as possible, but keep it Kenpachi-ish at the same time. Do you guys have any idea how hard it is to write from Kenpachi's point of view? God! I'm sorry if the narrative parts look too formal but that's just my way to write and I can't really change it… Even if it's from Kenpachi's point of view, haha.

So, yeah… I'm not too sure about Yumichika in this chapter though… I guess he's a lil' OCC 'cause I really doubt he'd talk to his taichou like that, haha. But I had to use somebody for this role and I really don't see Ikkaku talking about Amaterasu's feelings or even worse… Yachiru, haha. And I picture Amaterasu being friendlier with Yumi than with 'Kaku, 'cause she's a girl.

Anyway, if you have any advices or thoughts, or whatever, pleaseeeeee post a review! It means the world to me!

Thanks for reading!