Please Read: Okay this is chapter 4, please take in consideration that in my mind, Alec and Jane are not children but more like 15-18 but with baby faces. Okay that's it.

Recap: "But Edward," she pleaded, I cut her off

"No!" I roared, before hanging up. Yes, I was worried but Bella was alright...

... She had to be...

... For me.

End of recap:

Bella's P.O.V

It had been months since I had been changed into a vampire and, as I was glad to find out, I was pretty good at it. I was very good at being with humans; they had practically no effect one me, actually animals smelled better to me than humans did.

We had moved a lot, visited the world, but finally we were resting in England. Since I was able to control myself around humans, we were about to start a new school in about a week. It was still rainy enough here, not forks, but rainy enough.

Alec and I had gotten much closer, he was my best friend, but sometimes at the back of my mind, I wondered if he thought we were more than friends. I hoped not; his friendship was too good to lose.

A few hours after he had come to find me the volturi broke apart again, this time it was Jane who had come to join us. I didn't like it at first; I was suspicious, what if she was a spy? What if we go in trouble because of her?

But over all, Jane was really nice. Both twins had asked me what I had meant when I said I was a "vegetarian" so I explained it to them. It took a while for Alec to get it right… It took an even longer while for Jane, but after a few, um, slips, they had finally caught on.

So it was me, Alec, Jane… and Eleazor.

About 20 minutes after Jane had joined us, her cell phone had started to ring. It had been another volturi vampire: Eleazor. He seemed sweet enough; he certainly seemed to care about Jane.

The call had been to check on her, he had asked her if she was alright, that the volturi fortune teller couldn't see her anymore and that he wanted to know if she was okay.

Jane had reassured her and told him it was probably the shield I had that kept the fortune teller away. Eleazor claimed he wanted to see for himself and had joined us within a couple of days. As soon as he arrived his eyes were only for Jane, who played indifferent. He quickly mumbled something about the fact that Jane had been right: I was a shield… and a strong too. It was impossible for a fortune teller, a mind reader or a tracker, (even a great one like Demetri.) to track us down.

Alec seemed pleased about this, finally he was free.

My mind flickered to Alice within a millisecond that this had been said. Alice wouldn't be able to see me, to find me. She would never know I was a vampire; I would only disappear from her visions. Maybe she would worry? No, no I couldn't think like this, Alice is gone, she's not coming back; it's over.

It hurt to think like this; to think that Alice had stopped caring. I knew with all my heart that she hadn't, that she never had… that she never would.

But I held to tell myself that, I couldn't continue to hope. It defiantly wasn't healthy and it hurt…a lot.

But then my mind went back to Alice. If Alice didn't know… if she never found out what I was then… then…

Then Edward would never know either.

So that's it. Now you know why Alice couldn't see Bella. I will have one more chapter before I skip a few years. Next chapter is only Edward's point of view and then were going back to forks… 100 years later style.