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I stood there, motionless for a few moments.
Jacob had called? All of a sudden my sleepiness retreated. I was wide awake, and I wanted to know what was going on.
I entered my room to find Edward in his usual spot; sitting on the edge of my bed.
He was smiling at me, but when he saw my expression, he knew the jig was up and his face became carefully neutral.
"Edward," I wondered if he knew about this and purposely kept it from me. "Do you know anything about Jacob calling, and more specifically, what he was calling about? And more importantly if you knew, why didn't you tell me? Hmm?" I questioned, glaring at him.
At the mention of Jacob's name, Edward grimaced slightly. Aha! That little cheater!
However, he stayed silent.
"Come on Edward. Out with it." True to the female stereotype, my hands were on my hips, and I was impatiently tapping my foot.
"It's late Bella. You need sleep. Why don't you go to bed now and we'll talk tomorrow. I think it would be muc-"
"No Edward. No distractions and I'm serious! Tell me now. I mean it. If you don't tell me, I'm going to think it's something a lot worse then it really is." I remember he had used that on me once.
Edward took a deep breath (like he needed it!) and said,
" Ok. I did hear why Jacob called-and what he wanted to talk to you about." He stopped, and took another "Deep Breath". He started again. "He was thinking about how much he-" Edward couldn't seem to say the word "Cared for you, how badly he wanted to be with you. And then he remembered that you're marrying another man, you're going to live forever and leave Forks behind, and that you're becoming one of us." Then he looked into my eyes, which he had been avoiding until now. Whatever anger I had left faded as I saw the utter depression in his eyes; on his face. I immediately went over and sat next to him, willing the sadness away.
"Bella... I am so incredibly sorry because I feel like the next part is my fault but... Jacob can't handle any of that, you're too close to him and it hurts him to see that you've made this decision. He's decided" Deep breath, "That it would be better for him not to see you anymore. No calls, no letters, nothing. He want's to be cut off, he would like to believe that ignorance is bliss but... He knows that it isn't really a solution. But he thinks it's for the best." Edward finished, waiting for my reaction.
I'm not quite sure why, but I wasn't all that shocked. Yeah I loved Jacob, but as I lamely said before, I loved Edward more. I would miss Jacob a lot. But I would hurt him less by giving him what he wanted instead of fighting it. He could change his mind, and I would keep the smallest part of my heart reserved for him should he change it.
I must have been staring off into space for a while, because Edward's voice snapped me back to reality.
"Bella, please tell me what you're thinking. If you're reconsidering, I won't stand in your way I swear. Just tell me what you want, and you can have it."
I rolled my eyes at him.
"No way am I reconsidering." I sighed. "I kinda knew this was coming. A small part in the back of my mind...heart...whatever told me that this was a probable outcome. Sure I'll miss him, but it will be no where near how much I would miss you if you left." He smiled at that, but the smile didn't go all the way to his eyes. I was really tired of seeing that smile. I wanted my favorite crooked one back.
I kissed him quickly, and ran to go put on pajamas and brush my hair and my teeth.
When I cam back, I laid down with Edward, snuggling into his chest and the curves of his cool arms.
"Edward?" I asked, my voice quiet.
"Yes Bella?" He replied.
"Will you help me write my wedding vows to you? I don't want yours to be better then mine." I added, more to try and make him laugh more then anything.
My wish was granted as I felt his silent laughter shake the bed. He never did respond before I fell asleep in arms that were cool, pale marble instead of warm, tan and soft. And I didn't regret it one bit.
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I awoke the next morning, my wedding related headache gone, and feeling a strange sense of... relief. I would miss Jacob, but at least I wouldn't have to worry about hurting him anymore.
When Edward realized that I was awake, he pulled me as close as he could and kissed the top of my head.
"Are you awake?" He whispered in my ear, chuckling slightly. I nodded slowly, not quite coherent yet.
"What time is it?" I was wondering why Alice hadn't broken down my door yet demanding to know what my music preferences were for the reception. Or something like that.
Edward took his cell phone from his pocket and looked at the small window on the front.
"It's 10:00. Would you like to sleep a little longer? I could tell Alice to wait a bit."
I shook my head. "I need a shower, proper clothing, breakfast, and two Tylenol. Then Alice can make me do wedding stuff." I said as I started to get up.
"Do you still have a headache?" Edward asked, looking a bit troubled.
"No, but I'll probably get one later...This time I'll be prepared." I said as I went to grab a plain green tee-shirt, jeans, socks, and proper underclothing from my closet. I kissed Edward on the forehead before I left for the bathroom.
While I was in the shower, I thought about how Edward had wanted me to have as many human experiences as I could. I still couldn't believe that he had taken me to prom...I realized that Edward was sneakier then I had perceived. Now I was going to have another human experience under my belt. Holy Matrimony. Ugh. I couldn't help but wonder what other human experiences Edward was going to drag me into. I hoped he knew that I had no intention of playing Mommy at eighteen, let alone nineteen.
After I dried off, dressed, and blow dried my hair, I left the bathroom and headed back to my room. I was unsurprised to see two vampires on my bed instead of one.
"Thanks for letting me sleep Alice." I said with a hint of sarcasm.
"Well, Edward told me that if I woke you up before ten that you wouldn't be too happy, so I decided it would be more prudent to let you sleep. You were awfully tired last night." She added. "So today, Bella, I want you to try on your wedding dress! I want to see how well it fits you and if it needs to be more tailored to you. I'm going to need you to try it on once a month until the wedding... so try not to gorge yourself too much" Alice grinned, clearly joking. I never did eat that much.
"I'll do my best" I muttered. Once a month fittings. Hmph! I guess I was lucky that it was only monthly and not weekly.
"Come on Bella, let's get you something to eat" Edward chimed in." Taking my hand, he looked back at Alice and gave her a warning stare. Her answering glare was enough to make my heart hasten it's beats.
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"Oh Bella! You look perfect!" Alice squealed.
I was standing on a circular platform in front of a tri-paneled mirror. Each of the panels was arranged so that I could see the sides and bits of the back.
In the mirrors refection I could see a beaming Alice, Esme who was smiling just as much as Alice was, and Rosalie, who smiled timidly, but looked like she would rather be somewhere else.
I looked back at myself in the mirror. I was a vision in 1918 lace. It was something I would have never picked out for myself, but it was right somehow.
The dress had a high necked lace collar. Most of the top part was lace that you could see through all the way to my skin, including lace sleeves that ended at my wrists, but the lace ended just above my chest. There the silk began, and where it started at my chest was carefully embroidered with small sparkling beads in the shapes of lily flowers. The embroidery faded as the skirt went on, the silk touching the floor. The train had a lace panel in it, which was embroidered with more beads. And as if there wasn't enough lace, my veil was... more lace, draped on my head and held to my hair with two diamond pins in the shape of flowers.
I felt like someone else. I rarely wore dresses, let alone dressed up. I felt like a totally different person. I wondered what Edward's reaction would be. I smiled at the thought.
"Yeah Alice. It is perfect." I said, Alice beaming even more.
Esme walked over to me and stood next to me on the platform. She was looking at me in the mirror, her eyes shiny with tears she couldn't shed.
Esme pulled me into a hug, and whispered into my ear.
"I am so glad that you're the girl Edward is marrying, and that you are joining our family. Edward is so lucky to have you." She pulled back and held my face in both her hands, her eyes watching mine.
"No Esme, I'm the lucky one" I whispered back smiling, my eyes shiny now.
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Sorry, kind of a fluff chapter... but Bella's dress... so much lace!
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