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Rose sighed heavily. She did in fact have to go meet up with Tom, but the time spent with Scorpius had stressed her out, and all she really felt like doing was going home and having a nice long nap, or a bath. She had just made up her mind to go home and make some excuse up to Tom when she walked out of the hospital and straight into him.

"Oh Tom, hi." was all that Rose could muster. Tom ducked down and gave her a quick peck, before presenting her with a bouquet.

"Hello, Rose. Happy 6 month anniversary!" Tom beamed down at her, before taking the flowers and her hand and turning sharply on the spot. Rose blinked and found herself in her own apartment; Tom was settling the flowers in a vase. Rose knew that tonight was the night.

Either she was going to sleep with Tom, something all her friends were surprised she hadn't done yet, or she was going to break up with him. Rose was happy with Tom, she knew that much, but she wasn't in love with him. Seeing Scorpius today had proved that too her. But leaving Tom, leaving him for Scorpius was something that she wasn't sure if she could do.

Life with Scorpius was so unpredictable, even before they broke up. Now, even though he had a job, there was so much rebuilding that they would have to do, and Rose was scared of that. More scared than she would ever admit to anyone but herself.

Tom walked past her line of vision, and Rose came back to the present. She stepped forward into his waiting arms, gave him a quick kiss and then stepped away again.

"Just wait a couple minutes, Tom. I just need to get out of my work clothes." Rose went into her bedroom and changed quickly, pulling on a black slip, before heading to the adjoining washroom to freshen up. After running a brush through her hair and brushing her teeth, Rose deemed herself ready.

Rose stepped out into the main room, where Tom was sitting on the sofa, waiting patiently for her to come out. He looked up at the sound of her steps, and his mouth turned up in a smile when he saw her.

"Rose, you look amazing! Is there something special tonight?" He was just as kind as ever, not invading Rose's personal space, but not too far away either.

"Well, since tonight is our six month anniversary, I was thinking we could celebrate." Rose smiled at him coyly, even though it felt weird to look at Tom that way. Tom's smile grew as he took several quick steps across the room towards her. "Just, one thing. You have a muggle contraceptive thing, right?" Rose didn't know where the question came from, it just popped out of her mouth before she could stop it.

"I don't actually, but if we cast the spells it should be enough, right?" Tom sounded slightly confused, but he didn't stop smiling at her.

"Well," Rose didn't know why she was still talking, but somehow she felt like they needed to be as safe as possible, "actually, can you run down to the store and grab one? I would just feel safer if you did."

"Of course." Tom smiled reassuringly at her, still slightly confused, but he gave her a quick peck before leaving the apartment. He was back in less than five minutes, and Rose was standing right where he had left her. "Rose, are you okay?"

Rose snapped out of her thoughts once again. "Oh, yah Tom. Sorry, just tired."

"If you don't want to do this that's okay, Rose. I don't mind. We can wait." Tom's face didn't falter as he spoke, and Rose wished, not for the first time, that he had more of an opinion.

"No, Tom, I want this. I just want to be careful." Rose smiled and stepped towards her boyfriend. Tom smiled back, and took a step towards her, but as soon as his lips were on hers, Rose began to worry again. "Can we cast the spells now, maybe? It's just, I want to be careful."

A flicker of doubt crossed Tom's face, but within a moment it was gone, and he cast the spells then waited while Rose recast them. He knew that they only needed to be done once, and he couldn't understand why his girlfriend was being so careful. He understood if she was worried, but he had seen the pills in her bathroom, and this seemed to be taking it a bit far.

Rose smiled and pulled Tom behind her into the bedroom. She sat on the bed, Tom standing in front of her trailing kisses down her neck. His shirt had come off, and his pants as well. He stood there in his boxers, while she sat in her bra and underwear. Slowly she lay down on the bed, and he moved so that he as on top of her. Rose was about to pull down his boxers when something stopped her. Tom noticed her hesitation.

"Rose?"

"Do you think, maybe, we could cast the spells one more time?" Rose smiled guiltily up at him, but Tom was getting tired. He could tell that something was wrong with Rose, even if she wouldn't admit it.

"Rose, you seem really nervous. What's wrong?" Rose felt herself blanche as her mind went back to the last time she had heard those words.

"Rose, you seem really nervous. What's wrong? You can tell me, Think of how much we've been through. I'll be there for you through whatever this is as well." Scorpius' voice was full of caring, one arm was draped around her shoulder and Rose's legs were curled under her on the couch.

"Score, it's nothing, don't worry about it." the lie would have to end very soon, Rose could tell.

"Rose, don't lie to me anymore. I know that you've been lying for a while, and I can't stand it any longer. I need to know the truth." The hurt in Scorpius' eyes was what got to Rose. She couldn't stand for him to look at her like that.

"Score, I don't know if you can stand with me through this. I don't know if you're ready for this. I don't know if I'm ready for this. I don't know if we're ready."

"Let me be the judge of my own readiness. And as for you, I've seen you run from one of our nights together to a hospital room full of screaming, crying, bloody patients. You are ready for anything."

Rose smiled weakly at him, and a single tear slid down her cheek. Scorpius wiped it away, and turned her to look him straight in the eye. "You can tell me, Rose, it'll be okay. Whatever it is, it'll be okay."

"Would it be okay if I was pregnant?" Rose felt the words burst out of her, and she bit back a sob as soon as they were out. She looked away quickly, unable to keep her gaze locked on his, not when she had just destroyed their relationship. But then, to Rose's surprise, Scorpius drew her into his arms in a tight embrace.

It seemed to be hours that Rose stayed there, but eventually her crying slowed, and Scorpius let her go.

It hadn't been Scorpius who had ruined their relationship, it had been Rose. Even after days of his consoling her and telling her that they would make it through, which led to his heartfelt proposal, Rose couldn't believe that they would make it through. She couldn't accept the fact, and so they had broken up, and the next day, when their child was born, the baby had gone to an orphanage.

Rose relayed the story to Tom, and he sat on the bed, unmoving, the entire time. When Rose was done, she looked over at him, expecting some emotion, but he said nothing, nor did his face betray what he was thinking.

"Tom? Are you okay?"

"Rose, I'm okay. It's you I'm worried about. You gave away you and your ex's baby. You broke up with Malfoy because of the kid, and no matter what you say, I know that you aren't over him." Tom voice still held no emotion, he was simply stating facts.

"Is that you breaking up with me?" Rose didn't dare let any emotion enter her voice, and to be honest she wouldn't know what emotion to choose. Relief? Sadness?

"No, Rose, I'm not going to break up with you. Not unless you want me to, that is."

"Tom, I..." The rest of the sentence just couldn't form on her lips. She couldn't say that she wanted to break up with Tom, and she couldn't reassure him that was the last thing she wanted. Because neither statement was true.

"It's okay, Rose. How about we just take a break, and you can call me whenever to try and sort stuff out. And whenever you want, if ever you want, we can get back together." Tom stood up slowly, grabbed his pants and shirt and put them back on before Rose had said anything. He was at the door when she finally spoke.

"Tom, I'm sorry. Really, I am."

"It's okay, Rose. Don't worry about it. Just call me when you're ready." With a small smile Tom left. As soon as she heard the apartment door click shut, Rose lay down on the bed and burst into tears.

Who she was crying for she wasn't sure.

AN - I decided it was time for Tom to go, I mean he's great and all, but after the little display at work, it was so obvious that Rose was only keeping him around as a comfort, and to make Scorpius jealous.. and I decided that she wasn't that mean

so let me know what you think... and any ideas for the next chapter or stuff, I haven't written it yet, so I'm open to anything :)