Molly
Brandon
My face when I heard the twins we're pregnant
Was the same face I always have now. Stoned.
Am I allowed to feel this nothingness?
I mean sure I've been drowning myself in pills
I've been trying to forget everything by making the memories thin air
Speaking of kids, I don't want any
But honestly. I'm tired.
Tired of relying on something to make me feel something when all I feel is nothing
But I need it
I need them like air is needed to live
Because I can't breath anymore
But mostly, I'm just mad at myself for being so tired
I shouldn't be aloud to be so tired of the pain I bring myself
But yet, I drown myself in more molly.
I'm running out of air.