Chapter 4: Memories and Rants
[BPOV]
"Death!" I shouted. Jasper stood in front of me without his cloak. I quickly grabbed him and shoved him into my room. I closed the door with a loud bang and locked it. I turned back around to find Jasper lounging on my bead with his hands folded under his head. I glared at him furiously while he just smirked back. Even though I had my cloak on he could tell I was glaring and MAD. He knew me too well.
"Death Jasper John Whitlock Cullen Swan! (I'll explain the long name in future chapters!). What has gotten into you?" I whisper-screamed. I had my hands on my hips and was screaming the best I could while whispering.
"Chillax Bella," he said rolling his eyes. "I swear your blood pressure went up few notches."
"Ha! Ha! Very funny," I said sarcastically. "Vampires don't have blood."
"I wouldn't be surprised if you do," he mumbled.
"So! Why the hell are you walking around with NO cloak in the CULLEN'S residence? Have you gone bonkers? What if they saw you? Do you know what-"
I was cut off by his hand which he placed over my mouth.
"Bella…Bella…Bella," he sighed. "The Cullen's went hunting and won't be back for an hour, so it's just us at home. Besides, the cloak is so annoying. I can't even see your beautiful face properly. I don't know how you feel because I can't see your face and you blocked your emotions."
I glared at him. But who could resist the pout he gave me? I gave in and pulled the hood of my cloak down. I smiled at him and his goofy grin. I pulled him into a tight hug and he grinned even bigger.
"Ow! Bells? I-can't-breathe," he choked out. I grinned and let go. He took a step back and rubbed his ribs dramatically. I rolled my eyes, walked past him, and flopped down onto my fluffy bed.
Jasper followed me and lay down beside me. He put his arms around me and pulled me closer to him.
Vampires couldn't sleep but they could shut down their mind for a while. You would still be awake and aware of everything around you but you feel calm and tired when you shut your mind.
I decided to use this time to think about my relationship with Jasper. To outsider we may look like a couple. However we knew the truth. We weren't a couple. Just two mateless, lost souls who united together for the same purpose. Two assassins who found comfort in each other. We were brother and sister. A family of two and no more. We both lost our loved ones. He left his mate and I was left by my mate. Over the years our friendship grew and we became inseparable. We helped each other recover from the pain and guilt. He felt guilty because he left Alice and I felt guilty that I ruined my own life with a paper cut. I knew that Edward only left me to keep me safe because when I first found Jasper in the forest, he told me everything.
[Flashback]
I finished my meal and buried the dead lion corpse into the ground beside a bush. After burying it I marked the spot with a "B.S." I liked to put my initials where I've been to create a name for myself. It made me feel better.
I sighed and fell onto the floor in pain. I wrapped my arms around my knees. Sobs racked through my body. Lion was my favorite. But it was his favorite too.
My life was ruined. I had lost everything and everyone. I lost the love of my life, my parents, my friends, my future in-laws, my family, my life, and my best friend. Hell I even lost my truck!
I don't know how long I sat there crying but I know that it was all dark all of a sudden. Had I really cried that long.
I was instantly alert. The nighttime was the time my kind came out to play and hunt.
"Crack!"
What was that? It couldn't be a human because it smelled like a vampire. The scent was honey and freshly mowed grass. I stood up tall and straight. I let out a growl.
"Bella?"
I whipped my head around so fast that if I were human I would have cracked my neck. What I saw made me nearly faint. I automatically launched myself at the Cullen that stood under the old oak tree without thinking.
"Jasper!" I gasped. I gripped his waist tightly, never wanting to let go.
"Bella-I-what? You-dead-cliff?" he stammered. I pulled him down to the mossy ground to sit with me while I explained to him my change and how I spent everyday wandering around lost and hopeless.
After he listened to my story he launched into his tale of what happened after they left. He told me the real reason as to why they left.
Jasper told about leaving Alice and the more-or-less zombie of Edward.
After that we traveled together and joined the Volturi mutually. Together we discovered my ability. My power which made me, me.
Together we became who we are today.
Death and Poison.
[Flashback Over]
I sighed contentedly. Then I realized the Jasper was gone and there were noises coming from downstairs. I guess the Cullen's are back and Jasper ditched me. I put my hood up again and walked downstairs to face my ex-family and their obliviousness.