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Okay, it's late and for some strange reason, I'm still up, but at least I'm getting a chapter out right?! And I think it'll stir a reaction!

Btw, I've been reading Hidden Feelings this week, and wow...Am I the only one that thinks it's so interesting to go back and read your old stuff just to see how you've changed as a writer? No, just me? Okay..

In this chapter...Well, I don't really know what you reader's views on this topic is, so I don't really know how to present it xD Just read!

Chapter 4: Carlos' POV

I'm currently sitting in the doctor's office. I think I have the flu; I sneeze and cough all the time, I can't always keep my food down and I just feel icky like you do when you have the flu, so right now I'm trying to get some medicine to help me get better. I was feeling pretty cold too even though it's summer, so Dr. Martin decided to run some tests just to make sure it's nothing worse.

Dr. Martin is the go to guy for this family. He's a pediatric doctor for the kids, both Logan and I's primary care physicians and he's a pregnancy doctor, and he's been like a packaged deal for our family since I got pregnant with Ethan; I couldn't imagine any doctor better for this family than Dr. Martin…now only if he'd come back.

I coughed again violently looking around the room. Even though I love him, I hate going to the doctor, but I really can't deal with this cough. Finally, he came back into the room with a unreadable expression.

"Carlos, I know why you're feeling so bad," he said.

"Why? Is it the flu?" I asked.

"Close," he said thoughtfully. "You're pregnant."

All time stopped.

"Come again," I turned my head to hear him better.

"You're pregnant," he laughed a little. "You're having another baby. A life is growing inside of your body once again."

I thought that was what he said. I let that sink in. I'm almost 40 years old, I have three teenaged kids, and I was looking forward to having an empty nest in just over three years, but now he's telling me that I'm pregnant again and having another baby. I couldn't believe it, I won't believe it. I have the flu!

"Not possible," I said eventually.

"I can show you if you like," he said. "Lay back."

I very nervously did as I was told and he lifted my shirt, squeezing that gel on my stomach; that gel I hadn't felt for 15 years. It was still so cold. I took a deep breath as he grabbed the transducer, pressing it to my abdomen and moving the gel.

"Aha, found it," he smiled.

I squeezed my eyes shut, refusing to look at the screen; that would make it too real.

"Carlos, you have to look," he said quietly.

I slowly opened my eyes and glanced over at the screen, seeing a little peanut. My little peanut and I cried. I don't know if they were happy or sad tears, all I knew is that I was having another baby and that stirred up emotion in me.

"Can you go get Logan?" I asked, wiping my tears.

Dr. Martin nodded before leaving the room. Logan didn't know I was here, and he sure as heck would be shocked when he found this out. For once, I wasn't happy that Logan and Dr. Martin worked together because he would be here in probably under 30 seconds. I don't know how much Dr. Martin is going to tell him, but I just know that I'm scared.

Like I predicted, Logan came in 30 seconds later, stopping when he saw me.

"Carlos?" he looked confused. "What are you doing here?"

I didn't say anything. He looked at my stomach, seeing the gel and then the monitor where the screen shot of the peanut was and his eyes widened.

"No!" he yelled.

"Yeah," I replied, tears springing forward again.

He walked over to me, wrapping his arms around me and hugging me tightly and I cried in his shoulder.

"Shh, it'll be okay," he soothed, kissing my forehead. "We're in this together and we'll manage."

I sniffled before looking at him.

"You know what this means right?" I asked.

"What?" Logan looked at me worriedly.

"It means Dak is going to be released," I said quietly.

"We don't know that," Logan said.

"Every time I get pregnant something bad happens and it usually involved Dak," I pointed out to him, wiping my eyes.

That was probably why I was crying. I never minded being pregnant; I actually rather enjoyed it, but it always came with a price for this family, and I don't think this time will be any different.

"We'll worry about Dak later," Logan said.

The door opened and Dr. Martin came in.

"So, it seems that you're about 6 weeks pregnant," Dr. Martin said.

"That means the baby was conceived on our anniversary," Logan said.

"That makes the due date next February 15th," Dr. Martin said.

"the day after Valentine's day," I said quietly.

Dr. Martin nodded in confirmation.

"Now I want you two to know that pregnancies are more dangerous in men around your age than women, not to say that you're old, but it's always more of a risk for men," Dr. Martin started to explain. "There are two ways that this can go. The best way is that the sickness subsides and you carry on a normal pregnancy like you did with Ethan and Evan. The second way that I'm hoping isn't happening is the pregnancy that makes you tired and weak very easily, you spend a lot of it sick, and some don't even pull through, and I think you're leaning towards the second one with your flu-like symptoms."

We were quiet.

"Can't I get some medicine or something?" I asked.

"I can give you prenatal vitamins and I can prescribe you something that will ease your symptoms and still safe for the baby, but I'm telling you what you're getting yourself into, so now it's procedure for me to ask, would you like to terminate?"

"No," Logan and I said together.

"I don't know how I feel about this pregnancy yet, but I do know that this child deserves a chance to see the world, and I'm not going to deprive him or her of that because of selfishness," I said.

"This pregnancy could very well kill you and the baby," Dr. Martin reminded me.

"I'm ready," I said, probably less confident than I had hoped.

"Okay, I want to see you every two weeks then just because this is high risk," Dr. Martin said.

I nodded in agreement.

"Alright, let me go print you two a sonogram to show the kids," he stood up and walked out.

When he was gone, Logan just held me in his arms.

"Everything will be okay," Logan promised. "It has to be."

"Sometimes it just feels like too much," I admitted. "Everything was going great, and then I had to get pregnant again and now there's a chance of Dak being released. I don't know if I can handle this Logie."

"Just don't stress," he said. "That's the last thing you want to do."

"Well, I suppose I should tell the kids when I get home," I sighed.

"Wait for me to get home, I can help you," Logan suggested.

I nodded before kissing him.

"I love you," I said.

"I love you too," he smiled. "Everything will be okay."

Evan's POV

"Pick me up at seven and don't forget me," I turned to Ethan when we had pulled up in front of Bridget's house.

"I won't forget you squirt," he rolled his eyes. "I can't or I'll get grounded."

"Good," I said, getting out and closing the door.

I stood in front of the house before walking over to the front door. I took a breath before knocking and a few seconds later, the door was opened.

"Hey Evan!" Bridget smiled.

"Hey Bridget," I smiled back, holding up a gift bag. "Happy Birthday!"

"Thanks," she took it, leading me inside.

There was music playing and tables of food all around the room. Everyone was pretty much talking and dancing and there were party games that people were playing too. It was like a preliminary high school party. Alex was here; Adam went to camp for the week.

"Al, why didn't you tell me you were coming," I walked over to him.

"I could ask you the same question," he laughed, opening a can of sprite. "My real question though is when are you going to finally tell Bridget how you feel?"

"Probably never," I sighed.

"Dude, you have to take control and be yourself," he suggested. "You're pretty hot and you're a great person, so go for it!"

"Are you hitting on me?" I joked.

"Sorry, you're my best friend, not a love interest," he laughed a little.

I laughed along with him. I got some food and walked around, talking to everyone that I knew, and even meeting some new people. There were designated times for other party games, and Bridget loved the present I got her! The cake tasted amazing and by the time we got back to dancing everyone was comfortable.

"Evan, dance with me!" Bridget grabbed my hand, pulling me out to the dancing area.

It was an up-tempo song, so I started to sway with the music. Thank god, I got my dad and pops dancing abilities because otherwise I probably would have looked like a buffoon.

"Thanks for coming," she smiled.

"Thanks for inviting me," I retorted.

'TAKE CONTROL' I could hear Alex's voice in my head.

"We need to hang out more this summer," I said.

"Yeah, I agree," she laughed a little. "I think we can be great friends."

Note to self: talk to pops about the friend zone. Actually, I feel like dad is more in that alley; maybe I'll ask him. Actually, I can talk to Ethan! I'm sure he's gets friend zoned every other day.

"You're a great dancer," she observed.

"You too," I grinned. "We move in sync don't you think; hey that rhymed!"

She only laughed. What does that mean? After our danced, we talked a little bit more, getting more comfortable. When the party was over, Ethan came to pick me and Alex up and I hopped into the front seat with a smile.

"Was your girlfriend at this party or something?" he observed my mood.

"Oh god, I hope so," I replied.

He lifted an eyebrow, but didn't say anything; good, I don't really want him to ask any questions. When we got home, we walked into the living room, where Dad was sitting on the couch with pops in his arm. Emma was sitting on the couch, confused, but obviously waiting for us.

"Kids, sit down, your father and I have something to tell you," Pops said quietly.

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