hey my awesomely fantastic readers! i just got back from a walk with my best friend..and im exhausted! cuz she decides to yell "heeeey!" and wave at every passing car. one of them is filled with guys [very hot ones i might add ;P] and when she does that, they turn around and start to follow us. and yellin back at us. being the stupid people we were, we high tailed it out of there and got lost lmao

luckily we found our way home

enough of my random rambling

Alice POV

The ride to Edward's house was silent and tense. You could cut the tension with a butter knife. If Gabby wasn't in the backseat, Edward would be chewing into me at this very moment. But we both knew that we didn't want to have that discussion in front of her. I could feel Edward sneaking glances at me, but I kept my gaze forward, watching the trees and houses pass by.

From what I've seen so far, Forks had grew quite a bit. There were blocks of houses on what used to be the outskirts of town. And if possible, Forks was greener. One thing didn't change though; it was still the cloudiest place on earth.

After what seemed like hours, but in reality about fifteen minutes, we pulled up to a small stone house. The walls were paved with large gray stones and the path that lead up to the glazed wooden door was made of cemented pebbles of all shapes, sizes, and colors. It wasn't a large house, but wasn't small either. It was perfect for Bella and Edward.

And that's when it hit me.

Bella

I definitely did not want to face her right now. Edward is all I can take at this moment. I didn't want her anger thrown at me too. Edward's will be enough. Frantically, I turned around in my seat to face Edward.

"Is Bella home?" I asked, a little too desperate.

He must have seen the panic in my eyes. He shook his head. "Nope. She's at work now."

"What does she do?" I inquired.

He smiled in adoration, thinking of his Bella. "She owns Forks' only bookstore. You know her. She can't put down any book she comes across."

He and I both started laughing softly.

"She's also an author. Three of her books got published and she's working on the fourth." he stated, proudly.

My eyebrows shot up. "Really? That's wonderful! Are they any good?"

Edward chuckled. "They are very good; better than Wuthering Heights or any other book she's read."

I turned around to face the backseat, wondering what Gabby was up to. She was unusually quiet; probably from the intensity of the situation.

I gave her a soft smile and she returned it. Edward's silver Volvo came to a quiet halt and Edward and I opened our car doors. I opened Gabby's door and she hopped out. We followed Edward inside.

The inside was just as beautiful as the outside. The floors were hardwood and glazed over, giving an elegant shine to it. The living room was carpeted with white shag with a few couches and a flat screen hung on the wall. There were several pictures hanging on the walls. Most were of Bella and Edward. Some were of Emmett and Rosalie with Bella and Edward. Then there was one of all of us, including me, the day before graduation, partying at Rosalie and Jasper's house.

There was also a piano in the corner; a sleek black baby grand; the keys white as pearl.

"Do you still play?" I asked.

From the corner of my eye, he nodded. "Everyday."

I walked over to Gabby.

"Sweety, why don't you turn on the TV and give Edward and I a little time to talk?"

"Okay, mommy." She nodded and ran over to the couch and grabbed the remote.

I turned towards Edward and followed him into the kitchen. He opened the refridgerator and started digging in it.

"Would you like something to drink, Alice?"

I thought for a moment. "Just a glass of water is fine."

He poured me a glass and handed it over. I took a sip, savoring the cold liquid in my mouth, trying to buy a little time. How should I start this? Hmm..let see. Well I got to New York, found out I was pregnant, and cut all ties cause some stupid, crazy bitch told me it was for the best. But that bitch was me. But I'm back now, so everything can go back to being hunky dory! Yeah, that would go ever real well. I swallowed the water, loving the feeling of it sliding down my throat.

Edward cleared his throat. "Stop stalling, Alice, and start explaining."

I took a deep breath and looked up into his emerald eyes. He got Carlisle's piercing emerald eyes while I got Esme's golden brown ones. The emerald color was much prettier.

"After graduation, Jasper took me back home. I was crying and he was comforting me, telling me that things will be alright; that nothing will change even though we'll be in different areas of the country; that we'll still be together. I lost my virginity to him that day." I smiled at the memory.

Edward nodded, urging me to go on. "Well, I got to New York early the next morning, like around 4. I moved into an apartment I rented a few months before. All my stuff was already there. The next week, I started fashion school and every day I'd email and text Jasper. A few weeks after I arrived while I was studying for a big exam, I was looking for a washcloth in the bathroom and I noticed my box of tampons that I haven't opened yet."

"That's when it dawned on me and I started counting. I was about four weeks late. I immediately bought a pregnancy test and confirmed my suspicions. I was pregnant."

I paused and took another deep breath. "I was about to call Jasper when I got to thinking. Going into the army was his dream and I know he worked hard for it. If I told him about our baby, he would give all of that up just to be with me. I couldn't let him do that and I couldn't be so selfish." A few tears escaped my eyes and slid down my face.

"You have no idea how hard it was to ignore every email and text he sent; that anyone sent. A few weeks passed and his calls were getting a little frantic because I wasn't answering. He stopped trying to contact me after a year and everyone soon followed. No one tries to call me anymore. When I found out I was pregnant, I couldn't go to mom and dad either. Or you and Bella. Or even Emmett and Rosalie. I couldn't burden them with that."

More tears slid down my face. That was all I was going to tell him. I edited a lot so he wouldn't have to see how much I truly suffered from my decision. I'm not proud of the mistakes I made after that. Edward was watching me the whole time, understanding filling his face. He walked over and cradled me to his chest.

"Oh, Edward. I'm so sorry!" I sobbed.

He rocked me back and forth, murmuring words of comfort.

After a few minutes, I calmed down enough to talk.

"So now you know." I whimpered.

He started stroking my hair. "I'm sorry you had to go through that. But keeping Gabrielle from Jasper and not talking to him was not the best thing. Trust me, Alice. You didn't see him. You didn't see how much he suffered without you. I can't even explain it."

An enormous ton of guilt suddenly dropped on top of me. I needed to talk to Jasper. If he was still here.

"Is Jasper still here?" I asked, in a brittle voice.

Edward nodded. "He moved back here about three years ago. Alice, you need to talk to him. For god's sake, he doesn't even know he has a beautiful daughter!" his tone was loud and angry.

"I will! I will talk to him! Just, not right now; not today. Talking to you is enough for one day." I buried my face in his chest.

He kissed the top of my head. "I understand. I won't say anything to anyone about you being here. Tell them when you're ready."

I sighed. "Thanks, Eddie."

I felt him smirk. "You're welcome, Ali."

When we were younger, I was the only one allowed to call him Eddie and get away with it. Except Bella. And he's the only one who could get away with calling me Ali, except Jasper. I never really liked the nickname Ali, but it grew on me.

I smiled. Edward looked over at the clock.

"Bella will be here in about fifteen minutes. Do you want to stay here or do you want me to drop you off at a hotel?"

"Hotel." I answered immediately.

He nodded and we both walked back into the living room. I wiped my tears away and fanned my face to make it less hot and less noticeable that I was crying. Gabby was watching Hannah Montana. I wrinkled my nose in disgust. I never liked Hannah Montana. But she's in love with that show so I have to deal with hearing The Best of Both Worlds every day.

"Gabby, we're leaving."

She flipped a switch on the remote and the TV shut off.

"Okay!" she replied cheerfully, but suddenly frowned. "Mommy, are you okay?"

I smiled. "It's nothing you should worry about, baby."

She nodded and all of us went out the door and loaded into the Volvo. Edward started driving to one of the only motels in Forks. Only five minutes away, we were there pretty fast. The lit-up sign glared at us: Ida's Inn. It was run by a nice, elderly woman named Ida Franks. Ida gave me my first job in high school as a bus girl for the attached cafe she had.

Gabby and I hopped out of the car and went to the trunk to find that Edward had already taken our suitcases out. As I reached for mine, he turned away and headed into the building. I rolled my eyes; always a gentleman. Much like Jasper.

The small silver bell on top of the door dinged when we walked in. Immediately, Ida walked into the lobby. She was a plump graying woman wearing a long black pencil skirt and a white blouse. Her glasses hung dangerously low on her nose.

"Alice!"

She ran over to hug me. I smiled as she let go and looked be over.

"My how you've grown! Who is this beautiful young woman standing before me?"

I giggled. "It's good to see you Ida. I see this old place is still running."

"Yes. It has good, respectable business. And Edward!"

She gave Edward a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

"Since when did you turn into this handsome, fine young man." gushed Ida.

He chuckled. "It's good to see you too, Ida."

"We have to catch up. I haven't seen you two in so long. But I'm guessing you need a room." She accused.

I nodded. "Yup."

"Follow me."

Edward, Gabby, and I followed Ida into the elevator and we went up two floors. The elevator dinged and we were let off. We walked down the long hallways and Ida stopped at 23B and handed me a key.

"Have a pleasant stay." And she waddled a way.

I giggled. Good old Ida.

I unlocked the door and Edward set our suitcases on one of the two beds. He walked back over to us.

"Well, I better take off. Bella will be wondering where I went. Goodbye Gabby." He bent down and kissed her cheek. Then stood up to me. "I'll see you later, Ali." We hugged and he kissed the top of my head.

"Bye Edward."

And with that, he left.

if it seems like i was rushing at the end, im sorry. i am in a rush lol but i wanted to post this.

not the best chapter. but at least you know the basics of alice's story. but no the whole thing.....yet :]

review plz! let me know what you think